13th October 2007

event went smoothly( ok ok la..) and ended...tat should mark the end of spnpcc induction day 2007...=) it started raining once we were abt to set off to first station..damn!! hip-ups along the way..but was resolved one by one..thx to nigel, Xav,chelle,hk,amy not leaving out jw,leslis. sy leh? ok la...he did help out too..=)
but mainly thx to nigel n GLs to keep having to think on the spot! act on the spot..=x opps!! n esp to chelle her friend for taking part to make the event carry on.

after event ended, dinner at vivo food court, and den toking session at sky park!! n off for ice cream...hehe...=x n home sweet home...was damn bloody tired can!! haha..=x

14th Oct 2007

hmmm...today..bad day~~ i couldn't wake up despite slping at 1 yesterday, sry for letting may,mei,elaine,mich,lt for waiting for mi for nearly an hr...off to elaine hus...but shortly, my sista msged mi..saying ah gong was crying...saying he going to die soon...i called her back...i told her i was doing project will go home once i finish...den later my mother called again to asked mi to go back home...i told her i will once i finish...den my brota called saying mother wan mi go back to c him...i told him i will once i am done...hai...i went back to the room to carry on doing..when elaine asked mi...izzit tat sth has happened...i wanted to stay on doing the project...but they advise mi to go back..n leave it to them...i was reluctant to go..but i still went off..thx ppl...=)
rushed all the way back home...hai...when i left, he was still gd n great..when i reach home...he looks pale n weak...complaining it was painful...nth i could do...something..jz so beyond control... many ppl came today too...sigh...

i tot of my childhood..when my ah gong looked after us..played wif us..so on n on...giving us our nickname...haha..XD den taught mi how to play chi chess...n so on n on.. n slowly...i forget when was the last time i actually really tok to him..until recently..when he fall ill...sigh...how many yrs did i lost wif him...neglected him..didnt bother abt him...i think back..i regretted...the time lost cant be return...=(

he is in pain...but nth i could do...sometime i wish...he could leave peacefully...free from all pain...
trying hard to hold back my tears...but sometime i wish...i would jz let it roll down...
nth i could do...but to try to be happy...i really don wan him to leave...what will it be like...each day i leave the hus...i would said 'gong gong, bye bye' when i reach home... i would said 'gong, wo hui lai le' asking if he had his meal...c-ing him sitting at the sofa...wad will it be like...i don wanna think...i don wan him to leave...=(

projects in hand..=( CD, FOM...i cant concentrate..but somehow i have to make sure i do sth abt it, sry to my grp members...i will try to do wadever tat i could..i will control my emotion...sry once again for being late n leaving early...

so near...yet so far...

9:59pm