mango is happy today....haha..=)

hmmm..e-learning...i clear crs, cd and boating...haha!!! hmmm...5 more to go...
damn i hate access!!! ok..tml shall practice in sch.. mango jiayou!!! what should i do tml? hmmm...FOM e-learning bah...n access too~~ HAI..access sux..anyone willing to help mi? haha..

lazy to blog mi...LOL...

feelings n word beyond explanation...

2:00am

sigh-ing mango...=(

hate it each time when u said don wan tok to u le...=(

birds of the feather...thiam si jiu you...=(

3 sad face...3 un-happy-ness...
but i still miss u....

simply love every wed...=)

jiayou jiayou...gd luck hokay? =) believe in urself...u can do it..all the best..study hard..n score!!! hehe...i is believe no problem de hokay? jiayou jiayou go go~~ smile smile bah...=)

crazy mango
10:36pm

signs of depression...
don give mi any more blows..
i wont be able to take it....
don let mi step into deeper depression...
i wont be able to take it...
i will lose control over myself...
Mango JiaYou!!
a smile is all it take..=)

i don even understand wad i doing now....
words cant explain...
feeling cant be express...
i wanna fly away...
tat could be the easiest way out...
take all the pain...
absorb all the pain...
throw it all down...
i wish i could numb myself forever...
tat marks the end of mi...
the feeling of numb-ness...
seem so great yet so pain...
hu is there to understand mi...
noone...
cz i don even understand myself...wad more abt others...

i wan wad i wan...
i don wan mean i don wan...
so wad is my wan n don wan...
i don wan anything anymore....
i wanna fly away...run away...
to a far away land...
i wanna be left alone...
until a day..when i noe...
hu i am...

numb-ness mango...
goodbye...
3:26pm

hmmm...ppl alway say...
an apple a day keeps the doctor away...
i ate 2 green apple today...so does it keep the doctor away for 2 days? hahaha!!!
crazy mi...

boring day today...somehow..head seems to be in constant pain...don ask mi y..cz i am not the doctor!! haha...
love to slp nowadays~~ hehe...
simply love slping...wahahaha..
oink mango..opps!

project time!!! lazy mi..opps!!

crazy mango
8:22pm

25/10/2007
my mind was set...

sigh-ing day i suppose...=( moody mi!!

i let my whole life enter a state of mess...
i destroy everything wif my own hand...
i let my mind take control...
i don wan anything now...

reasons tat were un-speak-able...sigh...
hu is there..tat i could share wif...
i long for one...
but sry..
i let no one noes...

stop Stop STOP...
stop pushing mi...
stop pressing mi...
stop forcing mi...
let mi do it at my own pace...
let mi announce it when the time comes...
don force mi anymore...
i will breakdown...
i will run away from everything...
i will withdraw from everyone...
i will disappear forever...
STOP!!!!!

mango enter-ing state of depression..
11:33pm

let mi clear my homeworks...
let mi do my project...
let mi clear my test...

i should not have flare up at them...
should not have being so un-professional...
i don deserve to be one...

26 October 2007

hmmm..friday...nth much of a day... i went sch..STAT n PACC tutorial...hmm..STAT when i went into the class..is like only half the ppl? i wonder where is the rest, i was late ok. haha..=x den later one by one came in...question mark all over...i tot they meet n maybe when buy some food den go class..but sadly..is not..haha...some late..some pon! LOL..=x unexpected leh...=x ok...den as usual..i didnt do my tutorial...n den as today so little ppl...Mr Ken has no one to called...so...sadly...he found out tat...so many ppl didnt do his tutorial...so there goes my CP marks!! damn~~ sigh..=x opps! haha...

ok..off to PACC...where we waiting outside the wrong class...=.= LOLx!!! ok la..jz a room different..=x den no do hw also la...jz went in to copy ans..hehe..=x hmmm...wasnt really listening too..haha...den later off to home~~ friday..yet nth to do..hmmm..i dunno y...i didnt go fc3 wif my classmates...i jz went home..probably not in the mood either bah...went home to slp!! hehe...i didnt eat la...i dunno...=x opps!! slp from 1 plus all the way to 5 plus...yahoo~~ enjoy...hehe..=x mango simply love slping..hehe..=x den woke up...get ready off to pw~~ LOLx...meeting...not really meeting bah..nth much is done..dinner wif chelle? probably..seem long since i last had dinner wif her...haha...busy us! =x

off back to home~~ sigh~~ not until then i suppose...

okie..got no time alrdy..i have wasted the whole of this wk! time to do somethings..hehe... study..study study...np..projects..projects n projects..hehe...
time damn tight now...plan for the up coming wks...

• 27/10 -> Project
• 29/10 - 4/11 -> e-learning wk
• 31/10 -> spnpcc
• 3/11 -> CIP
• 5/11 - 9/11 -> MST WK..TEST TEST TEST!!!
• 9/11 - 10/11 -> CAMP!
• 13/11 -> FOM Presentation

ok...more or less..tat is all tat i could remember for now..sigh...busy days ahead..i long for a break~~ hmmm..CC team forming~~ training CC team..LOL!!! oh man~~

tired mango
2:39am

hmmmm...i have phobia uploading pictures into blog alrdy!!! hahahahaha...=x who noes wad may happen to those pictures la!!! so pardon mi for my wordy blog..=x

today is thursday...should wake up at 830..but i overslp..LOL...=x 9 plus wake up...paiseh~~ =x don mind mi..=x sms sms sms...hmmm n goes on n on...i still said in the end...sry...

miss pacc lecture...went sch at 3..met wif purple guy...hmm..thx for ur present...hmmm..not bad bah...but u didnt noe..i prefer long long earings..haha!!! =x opps!! but thx anw..is nice..=) hmmmm....went copy-ed pacc notes..n photocopy STAT tutorial...thx sohpia..hehe...=x den off for econs lecture..hmmm...she finished topic 14...n started 15...n i was half awake le..so when my friend said..i should not have came sch today...since lecture also half listening n the topic 15 is e-learning wk..n will be upload-ed at BB...i straight away switch off le..haha!!! =x opps!
n went out for dinner....hmmm...yup yup...

off to home...sry...is all i could say now...
wad will life going to be like now...starting will alway be hard...
jiayou bah...

lonely mango
10:43pm

Wed~~ today...i skip accounting lecture~ LOL..

story for today...

woke up at 630 n back to slp till 7 plus? hmmmm....den i woke up...i went to my lappy...i stare at it blank-ly..cz i dunno wad to do...LOL~ they noe mi..but i dunno them...haha...=x den i went to wash up n stuff...back to my lappy..ard 750 le bah...late late~~ but accounting lecture got no motivation to go..cz is very boring...n i wont understand wad the hell he is toking abt at all!!! hai...but i end up going to sch at 845? when my lesson starts at 9? n i need 45min to 1 hr to reach sch..haha!!!!

hmmm...wont be tat late today...but i left sth at home....so i went all the way back home to get the cd when i alrdy reached the over-head bridge...climb alll the way up n down..LOL...still don have the habit of carrying the mp3 ard...LOL~~ almost every day rush to sch one leh...haha~~ ok...i went sch...n went to fc4...sat there..took out the cca record form...i didnt photocopy...HAI...old mi~ so i went all the way to fc3 to photocopy..n went saa to filled it up..hmmm..LOL!! i noe how to walk from saa to fc3...but from fc3 to saa..i walked a circle..=x opps! blur mi..=x haha...went to submit..she wasnt ard..so i jz leave it on her desk..haha...n off to fc4..i copied my lecture notes...hmmm....1 hr..he went thr like 4 5 pages only? wadever...study on my own...hmm..i wanna study..=) i will alrite...ok ok...
after tat..jon was kind enough to help mi buy my food..but sadly..i think i ate less den 1/2 of it..n threw it away...cz i jz basically don feel like eating...bad sign! den i slp at fc4 while waiting for the time to pass...den went to walk outside the conventional center there..den off for FOM lecture..hmmm...FOM lecture is alway the best..hehe..=) i am sure those hu attend-ed the lecture noes wad i mean! haha..=x enjoyment...although he sound abit emo today... =x haha...
off for gems~~ took his car down...yay~~ save alot of walking time n save my leg from the suffering..hehe..=x lucky mi..=x went to class...n sian-ed..hmmm..a course tat able to learn finish in one day...hai..how is he gonna drag for afew wks? LOL!! wadever la...=x slack mango..=x

after gems...off to clubroom..hmmm...bin n hk went play badminton..i stayed in the room..nth to do...so i went to slp...HAI...when i woke up...moody le...hahaha!! head damn pain..even until now..hai...almost lost my balance jz now...poor mi!!! n off to home...i didnt attend the tok today..=x cant be bother la...HAI...cz i don wanna go...i wanna .. ...

wed is a day i look forward to each wk...=)

hmmmm....i need a dentist...=( LOL!!! too lazy to go visit one..=x opps!

oh man!!! tired mi...lazy blog le....boring story today..cz is all wad i have encounter-ed...hmmm...

i am happy today too!! becz...i received 2 more present today~~ one from Mr Ice...n another from someone..=x hmmm...if the someone...gave mi maybe 4 yrs ago? i will be damn happy..n over the moon...but i am happy to c a gift from him thou..haha...=) not forget-ing Mr Ice...haha... =) hmmmm...3 words...i love it....hehe...=x

go rest le...poof~~

mango poof~
8:37pm

23 October 2007

hmmm..i seriously hate tues..x= I alway have tuesday blues...haha!!! =x

lesson at 8 to 5...hmmm..ITAB...so usual..i was gaming...LOL!! noe nuts abt wadever she taught...bless mi for the ICA...LOL! followed by econs..ok i listen-ed but i am lost too far away to catch up..so i jz copied down the notes..but yup...den break~ hmmm..tomato almost cz mi to vomit! haha..=x although i still try to force myself to eat..but the taste of it...yuckx! haha.. so i still removed one in the end..at least i ate the another one!! hehe..=x den to FOM lecture..ok..i am lost..i listened but nth go in..but at least FOM lecutre is alway the best of all...enjoying bah..hehe..wont sian..if only all my lecture like tat..i sure happy till over the mood..haha!! sure everyday motivated to go sch..but sadly is not...haha!!! ok.. next...

FOM tutorial... first wanna thx moon for helping mi to clear my lappy rubbish..haha..thx!! he is nice to mi for the past few day...LOL!! opps!! so i shall be nice to be in return..haha!!! he is nice to everyone la...esp to gers~~ LOL...Jon is nice too!! he help-ed mi carry my lappy today..cz i was too lazy...=x hehe..lazy mi! n of cz...becz of the tuesday blues... ok..FOM tutorial..i did nth..beside asking moon wad is this..wad is tat...LOL!!! =x noob leh..den while waiting for scan finish...he went to play game..n got screw-ed by mich!!!! LoLx!!! i noe nuts abt FOM now la..=x haha.. but..aiya~~ wait..when i get serious!! don look down on mi!!! haha...=x had abit of grp discussion...haha...don step on my tail..n i will be fine...=]

after FOM i went to look for Dr Sun at the clubroom!!! haha... he was doing some sp npcc matter bah..haha...den i asked him to help mi check my lappy too!! haha...we went...i dunno where...=x a place where ppl studies...haha...den ya..he do this do tat..do tat do this..aiya..dunno wad he doing also..haha..end up my laptop now how le? LOL..better? more lag? i dunno..seem like more lag lo...hahaa!!!! opps!!! nvm la..wait n c how it goes...if cannot den mz send to Dr Sun for repair le..hahaha...=x we stayed till ard 9 bah...haha!! hmmm..my tuesday blues were gone after sch...don ask mi y..somehow..it jz disappear..haha!!!

haha..conclusion for the day..i am down in the day till evening...n i am happy from evening till now...LoLx! But I am tired since morning till now!!! haha..=x

my head hurts..i think i knock onto somethings while slping last nite..sad mi...jz lightly touch can feel the pain!!! OH NO!!! =x haha....=x
One happy thing is tat i get my room back!!! YAY~~ finally...i get to slp on my bed...after 1wk? or so..YESH!! happy mi..haha..i love my bed~~ hehe...

hmmm...taking note of my diet these day...sigh~~ JiaYOU!

got to eat into my own saving once more~~ Sigh...mother told mi...she not enough $$ liao...due to..well..the change in TV n air con at home..=.= haiz~ n my brota HP bill tat reach $110 this mth...n i screw-ed him upside down! am i wrong being strict on him? sigh...wad can i do...sometime i wonder...should i jz close my eye..n let him do wadever he wans...wad can i do to help him? it seems like...to him..i am jz being evil n mean n bad...but does he even noe..y am i doing so...

un-appreciated mango
12:39am

BOO! Mango is happy today..=) no monday blues~~

no one has the rite to say anyone smile is ugly..wad-so-ever..becz as long as is true smile...is alway the best..=)

don stop smiling becz of other's ppl comment becz they simply don have the rite to do so...=)

i am nice..=) lol...

hmmm...i mz remember to do the CCA record form..haha!!! =x drag one wk liao..mz get it done by wed bah...REMEMBER!!!!

Lazy to blog..=x

Oink Mango..XD
9:53pm

20/10/2007

hmmm..i got a new nickname? pink ger? LOL!!! cz i wore pink tat day..=.= LOLx!!! i don remember his name actually when he add-ed mi in msn...i mean i noe his name but i dunno he hu...so i asked him his shirt colour...he said was purple..haha...den i remembered him as the purple guy...haha!! so in return he call-ed mi the pink ger..=.= LOLx..lame leh...i still prefer mango...haha..=p but is ok la..pink ger jiu pink lo...HOR..purple guy!!! haha...

i had a very very nice slp...haha..woke up at like 2 plus today? LOL...i slp for 13hrs!! hehe..woke up at 730 thou...at a look at my phone...stare at it for a moment..u told mi not to call u...i wanted to msg...but decided not too..so i fall back to slp...n woke up every now n den hoping to c some msges...LOL~~ in the end there was but arent from hu i wish...so i sent out an sms...LOL.. i replied some n poof...i fall back into lala land...when i woke up...i saw 4 msges recieve...LOL~~ ok...so i fall back to slp again..n finally at 2 plus plus going 3...i decided to wake up...hehe..=)

i am only a 17 years old ger...
maybe cz of the surrounding now...
the tot of settle-ing down is drifting further n further...
in fact...i don even wanna settle-ing down...

sometimes...i dunno wad i am thinking... sometime jz very contraditing too..hmmm...aiya... wadever it is...i don wanna think le...i think studying is more imp more... rite? i am happy wif wad i have now...

long lag inbetween the blog....cz i told u wadever i was feeling....=) at least...i didnt wanna keep from u anymore....
i am sry...
at least tat was how i am feeling....
hmmm...=)

i miss him....

2:15am

mango is here once again~~ LOL...active blog leh...=x

haha..first thing i wanna say..is i am sry..=x i didnt go down for training today...haha..=x somehow..i fall aslp on my sofa this afternoon when i am suppose to get ready to go down for dragonboat...hmmm...don ask mi...i cant recall how i fall aslp either...haha!!! evil mi...ps-ed ly..=x opps..=x when i woke up is like 4? LOL..wanna chiong down liao..but ly told mi is ok...haha..they going to be dismiss le..opps..=x really paiseh ar...i don mean it!! LOL...am i really tat tireD? probably... haven been slping well the whole of this wk...haha... really sry ar...hmmm...oh no!!! there will be camp~~ although i have the urge to go camps..but den...HAI..not when MST wk is nearing!!!! haha...damn~~ but well..i still have to...mango jiayou!!! hehe...

ok..carry on..17 Oct 2007 dinner...hehe...
hmmm..left sch n head down to orchard...had dinner at sushi tei~~ hmmm...gerald was as lame as he alway have..or rather more lame..haha..super di siao lo...haha...more beng..probably... he wont give up his hair n nails for the course one la...haha..opps..=x a 'guy' indeed..haha!!! hmm...he changed..don seem the gerald i used to noe..haha...ya..everyone changed..=) so hai hao la..haha...gerald gerald gerald...hmmmm...haha..=) memories...
haha..chelle n mr chew~~ hmmm....bring backs alot of memories bah..haha...but...smiles...memories...hehe..=) hmmm...somehow..i missed those day...yr of 2004... haha...cz tat is where all my memories stay... tat period..was my happiest part of life...haha~~ it all started june 2004... haha...=)

somehow i missed those feeling..probably becz...i cant feel them now anymore...ppl changed..surrounding changed...hmmm..i understand more things now...seen more things...haha... i used to think how much i noe n understand..but actually i didnt noe anything...haha... childish mi~ haha...powderfoolish~~ LOL!!!
i changed...is tat sth gd or bad? i don noe either...but does not matter either...life stills carry on...

hmmm...is alway so tired to insist on doing some things...so y do i still bother to insist on doing it...i dun noe either...somehow...there is this factor to let mi insisting...haha...=) i still tries..no matter how tired...

currently chatting wif may n mich..n was toking how this sem modules weightage...bloody hell..damn heavy lo...HAI...wasted 1mth alrdy..mango going to jiayou!! wanna study...haha..=)

Mango jia jiayou...go go!!!

Mr Ice...LOL~~

8:04pm

hmmm..feeling emo~~~ ok ok ok..tml wake up be a better day...ya...no emo-ing...
study study study..i wanna study..=)
jiayou jiayou jiayou...
no distraction...no no no~~
haha..=)
smile smile....
i will...
hehe..=)

nitez...
12:57am

boo n away~~ haha...today is a happy happy day...n i shall let it be a happy day..no matter wad...haha~~ =)

happy cz ppl remembered my birthday...haha..=) actually..jz a simple msg will do...or a simple call..haha...is more den enough le...haha...

started at 12am...haha..i had my first cake...lol...first present...thx..=)
came to sch..meet up wif classmate at th station..haha...hmmmm....ok..lecutre starts at 845...we reach at like 9? n i forget to bring my lecutre notes despite standing infront of my table...thinking n making sure i bring everything..haha!!! tooo tired le bah..=x opps...=x
almost everyone in class wish-ed mi!! haha...
thx to jon,ph,moon,mich,elaine,may,mei,lt,jx...did i left anyone out? doubt so rite..haha...thx ppl..=) really xie xie...haha...n also mich n mei for giving another seperate present..haha.. thx thx..=)
had another cake at fc5..haha...thx to my classmates..=) haha...luckily no stun!!! haha..lucky mi..hehe..=x
off to FOM lecture...hehe...i slp..=x haha~~ n came down to clubroom to meet bin,xav n hk...hmmm..i didnt take the car leh!!! i walk to find them here...LOL~~~ =x

gems was boring..not listening at all..haha..=x after gems...off to clubroom...hmmm...
n now..waiting for the nite to come...dinner!!! hehe...=x

ohya..today i ate shroom bugar meal..n left the whole bugar untouch-ed..cz i was too full when i finished the fries...hehe...=x

CD presentation still not done thou...finish it when i reach home tonite..haha..=x hmmm... =)

today...17/10/2007..=)
birthday use to be nth but normal day to mi for yrs...but it has no longer been normal day since 4 yrs back...haha...this yr..is one of the most special one..=)
to other's birthday may not mean anything...but to mi...
birthday mean the value u mean to the someone....=)
haha...jz a simple msg from them...is enough....hehe....
spending my birthday wif...i only wanna spend it wif ppl i wan n wish....haha....of cz noe hu rite... haha...XD
haha...wo hui guo today happy happy de...no reason to be sad either...haha..=)

omg..so many happy face smile...haha...first post wif so many bah...hehe..=x cz i really am...
at least...i noe...how much i mean to others....haha...=)

present is nth....is the tot n heart tat counts....haha...such thing...i can feel it..=)
true feeling cant be hidden...
c wif ur heart...
feel wif ur heart...
understand wif ur heart...
think wif ur heart...
it will lead to somewhere...=)

5:35pm

thx for all the presents n wishes...hehe..=)
i apperciate...seriously...i do..
haha..

thx...thx...thx...=)

today....hmmm...i didnt go sch...slp at 3 yesterday...n woke up at 6 when my mother woke mi up...=( she asked mi to faster go c ah gong...i tot wad had happen...he cried once again...hai...seem to be in pain..all i could do was to sit there n look at him...decided not to go sch today...he couldn't wake up...no matter how we tried to wake up...he jz didnt wan to...he jz keep on saying don wan...n jz lie still down there...open n close his eye constantly...but was too weak to do any other thing...=( sigh~ sat by his bed for an hr plus or so...fearing tat his breathing would stop..=( later i couldn't take it..due to the lack of slp n meal...i went to get some rest...=(
sighing...i let my tears roll down this morning...i am afraid he is going to leave...i don wan tat to happen..=(

hmm..after tat..he is feeling better...hopefully....

sry to ph,mich,moon n lt...not able to meet up for project today.....will be there tml...
thx ppl..=)

did abit of CD..hmmm...i hope the background will be nice..if not do again lo...content wise..LOL~~ still doing..will finish by tonite...hopefully...hmmm...i wonder how it is progressing..

had a new TV today...cost like bomb can..=.= although it looks gd..but cost of it? LOL...hopefully is worth it la..although i dunno y my mtoher choose to buy tat..=.= really need such a big screen?LOL..

hmm...cousin is so cute...lol~~ 4 yrs old only...how nice being a child...no worries no problem..jz play play play..not noe-ing anything...being so innocent..haha...creativity...haha~~ hmm..seems to have endless energy...keep playing n jumping ard until my another cousin(21 yrs old) so tired le..den wanna let her slp..so she will quiet down..LOL~~ i fall aslp too.. she really is cute...=) kids innocent..playful-ness...wad more can be more valuable than tat..
i wish..i could go back to mine too...

i was bullied by bin today..=.= omg la~~ curse him! curse him!! curse him!!!! humpx!!!

off to do CD..
6:31pm

sry theng jie~ not don wanna meet..but time really very tight...one day alrite..=)

sry..i got no mood for any celebration...

i have many many birthday wishes...will it all come true?

will my wish(es) come true?
greedy mi...

13th October 2007

event went smoothly( ok ok la..) and ended...tat should mark the end of spnpcc induction day 2007...=) it started raining once we were abt to set off to first station..damn!! hip-ups along the way..but was resolved one by one..thx to nigel, Xav,chelle,hk,amy not leaving out jw,leslis. sy leh? ok la...he did help out too..=)
but mainly thx to nigel n GLs to keep having to think on the spot! act on the spot..=x opps!! n esp to chelle her friend for taking part to make the event carry on.

after event ended, dinner at vivo food court, and den toking session at sky park!! n off for ice cream...hehe...=x n home sweet home...was damn bloody tired can!! haha..=x

14th Oct 2007

hmmm...today..bad day~~ i couldn't wake up despite slping at 1 yesterday, sry for letting may,mei,elaine,mich,lt for waiting for mi for nearly an hr...off to elaine hus...but shortly, my sista msged mi..saying ah gong was crying...saying he going to die soon...i called her back...i told her i was doing project will go home once i finish...den later my mother called again to asked mi to go back home...i told her i will once i finish...den my brota called saying mother wan mi go back to c him...i told him i will once i am done...hai...i went back to the room to carry on doing..when elaine asked mi...izzit tat sth has happened...i wanted to stay on doing the project...but they advise mi to go back..n leave it to them...i was reluctant to go..but i still went off..thx ppl...=)
rushed all the way back home...hai...when i left, he was still gd n great..when i reach home...he looks pale n weak...complaining it was painful...nth i could do...something..jz so beyond control... many ppl came today too...sigh...

i tot of my childhood..when my ah gong looked after us..played wif us..so on n on...giving us our nickname...haha..XD den taught mi how to play chi chess...n so on n on.. n slowly...i forget when was the last time i actually really tok to him..until recently..when he fall ill...sigh...how many yrs did i lost wif him...neglected him..didnt bother abt him...i think back..i regretted...the time lost cant be return...=(

he is in pain...but nth i could do...sometime i wish...he could leave peacefully...free from all pain...
trying hard to hold back my tears...but sometime i wish...i would jz let it roll down...
nth i could do...but to try to be happy...i really don wan him to leave...what will it be like...each day i leave the hus...i would said 'gong gong, bye bye' when i reach home... i would said 'gong, wo hui lai le' asking if he had his meal...c-ing him sitting at the sofa...wad will it be like...i don wanna think...i don wan him to leave...=(

projects in hand..=( CD, FOM...i cant concentrate..but somehow i have to make sure i do sth abt it, sry to my grp members...i will try to do wadever tat i could..i will control my emotion...sry once again for being late n leaving early...

so near...yet so far...

9:59pm

boo! lol...emo emo emo...not emo..but hungry n tired n sleepy now...haha!!! but i dunno wad to eat...at fc4 now...LOL...doing research n decided to blog first...LOL...=x feel like slping~~

this morning i met Mr SUN!! LOL...jz happen de la..izzit? LOL!!! no la...cz lesson starts at 8 one ma..so yup yup..arrived at station plus mius will be same time...haha..but actually today i only needa reach sch at 830 la..LOL...XD but i still woke up early like 8 o'clock lesson..LOL...cz lazy change time to wake up...=x lol..blur liao~~ wake up no wake up..LOl..=x dunno wad i typing also...LOL!!!!

den went sch for SPSS test..hmmm..hopefully i didnt do any careless mistake or read the question wrongly or sth...hehe..so still ok ok..ohya..!!! i set up my laptop...getting ready to start test le..den poof came JX!!! n guess wad...he trip-ed over my wire n there goes my lappy..=.= cz i took out my batt..den i have to wait for it to set up all over again..=.= den ok ok..finish quite fast...ok..n i taught jon how to do recode..LOL!!! JON wanna return mi the favour by treating mi...but i told him i don wan..LOL!!! y leh? cz i wan him owe my the favour...Wahahahaha..evil mi..=x but actually...real reason being...nvm la...jz help help lo...no harm..=) although is a test...but hu cares~~ LOL...

off to accounting tutorial...LOL..waiting outside the class for nearly 30min..cz we were too early? LOL..den hmmm...i didnt do the tutorial as usual...LOL...=x den here come the cher asking mi to ans the Q...she go by class number la..so ya...b4 my name..i asked mich..LOL..she explained to mi..so i jz repeat wadever she said..LOL~~~ x= den after tat off too fc4..where i am now...LOL..blogging...hmmm....

things tat i have to do here...

1. FOM research
2. CRS articles
3. Watch bu neng shuo de mimi...=x opps~~
4. CD short meeting? LOL...
5. spend my last free friday doing nth..=x LOL...
6. ohya!!! by today mz get the amazing race logistics for tml ready...LOL!!! =x

tat is all bah..hmm..yesterday damn stress n haiz..=( but everything is well n gd liao..hehe..=) hopefully..mango jiayou bah..=) wo ke yi de..jiayou jiayou...

super duper iron mango..
is not tat i wan...but is cz..i have to...
wo hui guo de hao hao de..=)

thx mr bin..hehe..=)
mango off to do work~~
11:43am

don give mi expectation n waiting...hopes n wishes....
den trash it all down...
if this is the case...
i rather not have any then...

shi wang yi qi wang....i had enough....
so don let mi have any expectation...
i be happier this way...

hate waiting...
waiting for ans...
waiting for replies...
waiting for msges...
waiting for calls...
but somehow...patience grown through the years...
waiting has been a common thing...
being understanding have become part of my life...

one phrase i saw today..forget from where le..=x
'is ur life or my life more imp, ans is mine...'
ppl normally jz take the first part....but the last part is...
is because..ur life is as imp as mine...

but my ans will be...other's life is more imp...
because..my life arent imp at all...
in my eyes..other ppl is more imp...
esp those i care....they mean more den anything to mi...
if they hurt..i be more hurt...
if they sad...i be more sad....
hurt n sad becz of mi..i be in hell...
if they r happy...i will be the first to be happy for them..=)

silly mi? probably....

12:04am

hmmm..today is a wed~~ LOL..one more wk!!! LOL..=x hmmm...

ah gong fall down again...HAI...woke up at 5 plus this morning..when my mother came n ask mi to help support my ah gong to stand up...cz she don have the strenght...haiz...alway so stubborn...=(

went back to slp after tat..at 7 ah ma called mi up..didnt wanna go to sch..but the tot of gem....pul myself out of the bed to sch...hmmmm..PACC as usual...i didnt listen..i noe nuts abt it..HAIz...FOM..not too bad..somehow this sem...wadever the cher teaching..nth seem to get in...hmmm...should start studying le..i will from nx wk...=)

sry...lots of things running thr...i didnt pick up....

i tot it through...read up some stuff....i noe..i should do sth...mango jiayou!!!!

chance should only be given once...once miss it..is gone...multi chance reduce the value of chance alrdy...i shall be back to believe-ing...chance can only be given once....once given up...it mean...too bad...there wont be any way or path back.....

i will be happy...n live happily..n 'thiam-ing' LOLx!! enjoy life..enjoy the things i have to do..the smile tat stays wif mi..=)
nv noe wad will happen the nx moment..hu noes...one day...i might jz get a serious illness...n poof~ i be gone for gd...LOL!!! =x opps...should not curse myself!! LOL..=x
wo hui kai kai xin xin de..=)

spending time wif u only means one thing...i miss u...=)


hidden meaning
hidden thoughts
hidden pain...LOL!!

throat sore-ing again...zzz..=(

tired mango
4:20pm

thx everyone hu showed concern to mi..
i am fine..=)

today was a avg day..not so emo nor happy day..LOL...STAT lecture i slp!!! LOL..damn nice...shuang!!! =x off to CRS where we had to debate...LOL..is omg la...=x break! lunch hr break is forever so crowded! sigh....econs tutorial...LOL..i end up wondering ard friendster...playing games n chit chatting...cz i didnt do the tutorial...n i noe nuts abt wadever she have taught! LOL... so is time to get started...soon! after tml access test...which is so diao!! n friday SPSS..hmmm...still ok ok..hopefully..hehe...=x

went striaght home after sch cz i was too tired...the nap was nice!!! LOL...=x

trying to figure how to do access now...sigh...torture...=(

brota exam ending...i dunno how is he going to make it thr...bless him...i didnt help much...cz haiz...in 2wk or less..expect mi to teach him the whole yr studies..sry..i not shen..i cant do it...wait n wait n wait...haiz...unable to help..all those knowledge turn-ed rusty too...hmmm..but i still enjoy wadever i used to learn..at least..better den wad i am learning now...=x

miss-ed those days...pestering the teachers for papers n ans key!! LOLx...=x doing papers after papers...LOLx...=x those were the time..=x

CRS, CD, FOM project all lining up...HAIZ...MST wk after e-learning..OMG!! save mi!! CIP during e-learning wk too...oh no~~~~ test test test..project project project...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

crazy mango
8:23pm

u said u hope to c mi back to wad i used to be...
carefree...happy...un-stress..simple...
i wish i could too...
but i doubt so...
i once said...i cant be wad i used to be anymore...
time has changed...
responsible changed...
workload changed...
but one thing haven changed all along...
is tat...
i still love u....

u said i have alway being trying...
but no result...haiz...
i am sry...
but i am still trying...

had a whole day of trial amazing race yesterday..i was damn bloody tired...after tat went pw...wanted to get the phone..but i realise it was so damn ex...$268..probably promotion is over..hmmm...plus the phone was out of stock..so i shall wait alittle more longer b4 i decide if i should spend the $$ in changing my phone..XD went sake for dinner...hmm..i wonder...when was the last time, mi, sista,brota,father and mother had our dinner together...LOL! probably...mths ago? or even i don even noe when! LOL...=x but ya...having dinner together was great..wonder when will it be the next time..LOL..=x

studies r like so much things to do...zzz..n i am not doing anything..tot of it..jz made mi so zzz..=(

i found sth damn shocking...i dunno wad i should do thou...leaving it as it is now...or i should do sth abt it...i got no time, is jz excuses...maybe is jz mi, too afraid to know the truth...hoping is jz mi thinking too much...hai...i dunno...leave it for a moment first bah...shall wait n c how it goes... JIAYOU!!!

dis-charge alrdy...but hai....still as weak as he is.. or laggi worse...hai...heavy feelings..but wad can i do?

hmmm....fulls of tots...un-express-able...

i wanna go learn powerboat..since i alrdy am learning the theory...first aid...n then kayaking..hehe...of cz..swim first! LOL..=x cannot scare of water leh...mz jia jiayou!! LOL..=x i think think..say say only..but will i? LOL! =x

fly away~~~

eng getting from bad to worse..damn!

i miss u...really do...

hidden meaning...

mango
2:22pm

sry...i noe...i shouldn't ask more for ur understanding...cz u alrdy have lots of understanding...
i am sry...but i really...don noe how...time...studies..npcc...so on n on...wad am i suppose to do?
i will try..but can we do it? having more confident...but the truth seems so...shall not think too much...
live in the present..not the future...time will slowly lead us to where we should be...
be happy...=)

5th October 2007

yay!!! i got pic-s i wanna upload..but den i oink oink..hehe..=x one day la one day..=x

feeling damn tired...today i had 3C/4C BBQ...although only half the class turn up...quite sian..but is alway nice to meet up wif old friends...

mrs lim was there too..hmmm...she motivated mi...hopefully..i am able to change somethings? LOL!!!

hmmm...today...=) i am happy...

although is not wad i wan..but i don wan it to be cz of mi....
wont feel gd abt it...
rest more..=)

tired mango
12:33am

wo hui kuai kuai le le de!!!

being emo n down does no help in anything...
i rather choose to be happy...XD
endure endure endure..go go go!!!

chatting yesterday n someone said somethings to mi "i live in the present not in the future.." hmmm...well...it probably makes mi think through somethings which is quite true...
forget the past...live in the present...create ur future...

sad or happy...downs or ups...life still go on...

i wont 'thiam' for u...but be happy instead...=)
time...chance..fate...all lies in our hand...

smile smile!!! =)

mango endure..
1:40pm

now is ITAB!!! thiam-ing like shit can! bloody hell early morning 8am lesson come learn how to use access..=.= is ok if manage to learn sth..but the problem is i don understand!!! LOL...=x hahaha..wadever la...=.= 8 to 11 kaoz!!! hate tues!!! straight after ITAB is ECONs lecute which mean another slping time too!!!! sad-ed sia...i hate tues..hate hate hate tues!!!! worse of all...is only 1 hr break today too!! but having FOM lecture..hehe...den tutorial! n home sweet home!!!! cant wait till the day is over!!! but den still cant slack! should do quite alot of revision esp when having more n more modules i don understand!

hmmm..should i get a new phone for myself? E65!! $88 wif contract! should i spend this amount of money??

mango irritated!
9:28am

ACCESS is driving mi crazy!! follow book also don understand...thiam liao!!!

finally...i am home!!! today went sch n home n blah blah...

today's lecture...i was slping when i suddenly 'jump' up..=.= i was like having a feeling tat someone poke mi!!!!! =.= hai...so i woke up n stayed awake ever since tat! LOL... nx was crs tutorial...=.= bloody hell...i hate tat..is like ec la..=.= eng again...zzz...1 hr break...hate lunch time break..forever so many ppl! LOL...den econs tutorial! i didnt listen at all..didnt even noe wad she was toking all abt la..=.= I NEEDA REVISE!!! =x okie..i mz one day!!! LOL...den off to saa to look for miss karen! submit proposal! i asked her how long does it need to be approve...she told mi..as long as everything needa is in...it will jz take 2 to 3 days..=.= LOL!!! n off to fc4! slack for awhile wif my classmates! used jon lappy!! hehe..=x left at ard 4...hmm..went sgh...sigh...reach at ard 440? didnt noe it will take so long...maybe i walk too slow! haha..=x stayed there till ard 8 plus when my father came fetch mi home!

hai...so stubborn..keep wanna come home when he still don have the energy to even sit up...keep wan-ing to get off the bed n walk..hmmm..wad to do...but imagine lying on bed for like 6 days alrdy? hmmm..but see-ing him eat today happily..hehe..=x imagine no food for past 6 days! =x but yup yup..he is recovering..hopefully..=)

tml lesson at 8..OMG..ITAB!! sigh..so early sia..zzz...

my wkend was enjoy-able days...=) hehe...

i wont bother abt ppl hu don bother abt mi...
i wont care for ppl hu don care abt mi...
i wont do thing for ppl hu i don care...
i don bother abt ppl hu i don care...
if i am willing to do n care, it means, u mean sth to mi...
if i am willing to do n care to the extreme, it means, u r imp to mi alrdy...
don hurt mi..i bite!

tired&crazy mango
9:24pm

don leave mi if u r imp to mi..cz it hurts!
big hurt small hurt it still hurt!

sometime somethings is jz simply beyond control...it can only be hidden...

i wanna hide it all...covered n buried!

i will accpet slowly...n den... i will....