mango selective! LOL~

hmmm...today didnt do much bah...so u gonna read inbetween the lines? LOL!

haha..true enough somethings u said were true...but den...aiya...i too lazy to blog now..

super KO~ LOL...lazy blog..lazy think...don wanna think..don wanna bother...lol~

mango KO!
10:58pm

maybe tml den carry on! haha..=x

wenbin slping~~ oink oink

moody~~ probably too tired bah...LOL~~ got to slp by midnite today....so i have to slp by 12... feel tired..tat all bah...sad~ i should not tok till so rough! LOL..=x lame..super random cz my mind is dead...going offline but jz feel like blogging but dunno wad to blog either..lame~ so don waste ur time reading my blog! LOL...=.=

spend alot alot money...ard ermm..$200 le bah..XD sad~~ LOL..ohya..i had a hair cut today~~ LOL...

time has come...fading fading fading..slowly fading away~ i wanna hold on..but wad position do i have, wad rite do i have...i am nth...i got no rites...i am a nobody...i cant give anything...but well..probably jz as expected...sigh~~~ as usual...


love for ya nv die~ be happy..=)
day has past so fast..everything seem to be a dream..is gone n over~ so fast~ but memories stays wif mi...i only wanna remember the happy one...ups n downs...i be there for ya alway...XD
u r still my only one...=)

mango emo-ing...tired!
11:39pm

25 Aug 2007~

lol!!! i am toking to my orange jiejie jz now! LOL...n she is nagging as usual! LOL..=x

ok..i woke up at like 3:15pm? LOL..super KO! haha..=x den went to toapayoh! LOL..had KFC n head off to mediacorp! LOL...went for campus superstar final...LOL...plain boring! cz i didnt catch any...but ya..jz went there for the atmosphere! LOL..=x jz c how it is like...n ya..the place is SMALL!...different from wad is seen on tv lo! haha..=x mi noob leh~ =x n the screaming n everything is so loud can! LOL...ear can go burst! lol....but i was at the upper lvl...cannot c one..haha...so ya! lucky not so loud..if downstair ear = KO more! LOL...haha...BUT! later the sun yan zi fans came upstair...WAH...noisy like siao! the wishtle blow n so on..wahlan! KO lo...so noisy...i wonder hor...how did the person blowing the wishtle tahan lo! LOL...siao one..=x they got super ear! LOL..=x haha..den later went back to toapayoh hub! n took a cab home..since last bus left le...last train also unable to catch..cz from red line change to green line..by the time green line last train also is left le...LOL..=x haha...so i took a cab home..lol...=x

nth much of a day...LOL...i love my dear..=x

busy for the nx few days...XD

wenbin super oink la! LOL...BLEAH...oinkster~

mango KO-ed
2:10am

24 Aug 2007

going to blog on wad has happen...don wanna read..scroll down!!! LOL =x

ok..friday was a great; so-so day for mi? LOL! woke up early..cz i slp early on thursday nite as i was TOO tired! lol..so i woke up at like ermm 8 plus? LOL...slack ard compile some campcraft notes! LOL..n off to trianing~~ i forget to eat my lunch..LOL..=x went unit earlier to print test paper..ermmm..toked to mr ong n so on...LOL...n end up only 2 came to take the test...=.= WTH la..expect mi to alway conduct test for them? FAT HOPE! LOL... but ok la..expected only 3 to 4 to turn up too! LOL..=x issue-ing ranks n badges soon..hehe! training taught campcarft...WAH.. act zai act zai! actually is buay zai le! LOL..=x tired..cz woke up so early can! LOL..=x n so on n on~~

when home after training to take a quick shower...n den ate cup noodle...Y? cz going BBQ later at sp! but i go BBQ = i don eat one...cz is too unhealthy! LOL..=x plus..dunno..troublesome bah..LOL! mz i go into detail of the BBQ? lo...feeling sorta sian so i spam SMS! LOL...n sms n sms n sms! lol...ok..but nvm~~ wadever! LOL..=x went to BBQ the food..LOL..ermm...n ya got fire! LOL..=x ya..when mi n chelle reach the club room is like 8? went in awhile den chelle wanna go take a shower so i accompanied her! LOL...den went walk ard to c if there is any place tat we can BBQ? LOL! n eventually we went back to club hus..n they were playing cards while waiting for mr wenbin to come...so jz waiting for wenbin to come n start organising den going to start fire? LOL..chelle was mood swing bah..n told them off...wrong tone wrong tone! LOL..but ya...they den went to walk ard n ya..moberly BBQ PIT! lol...came back bring down the food n stuff..YA! n started to start fire! xavier n ermm.hong kuan? correct? haha..=x ya..thx to them the fire has started...but den..we realise there was no butter! LOL..GREAT~~ shiyong went home to get it..LOL...XD n ya..while the fire is burning we waited n waited...till wenbin came n no food is BBQ yet...time as ard 930 alrdy! LOL...as we decided to BBQ those tat don need butter one! the sotongs n stingry..n shiyong came back! LOL! ya~~~ so we happily enjoying ourself BBQ-ing toking..crapping... lame-ing.. LOL! so on n on..we suppose to leave by 11? but in the end at ard 12plus..hmmm...i think..if the light did not go off at 12! we might stay even longer! LOL..half way BBQ-ing the last batch of food..POOF..the light went off! GREAT..it was damn bloody dark can! so~~~ we use HP-tourchlight! LOL...n clear up...clean up the mess n so on wif the limited amouth of light we have! LOL..head back to clubhus to put stuff..n off to home! LOL..

more or less tat is wadever happen-ed...damn wordly la..so don bother to read...is v dry! LOL...

as an instructor i failed...as an older sister i failed...
BUT
life still goes on..blah blah blah...face it wif a smile...=)

Mango think too much!
3:56AM

yay~~~ exams r over!!! which mean play time!! haha..=x falling in love wif donuts! lol..=x taste nice ma! haha..=x

yesterday was last paper! econs...n it sux! LOL..=x i dunno i studied one no come out? i didnt study much de came out! LOL...sad lo...den haiz...anyhow do...i think those i written on the paper is jz enough to pass mi...IF IF IF...it is correct! WAHAHAHA...which mean...should noe how i fair for the paper le bah..! i could jz hand in an almost blank paper...wif graphs only! LOL..=x cz i forget how to explain! LOL...n hopefully the graph i draw is correct? LOL..i dunno..anyhow bang lo! LOL..=x

ok...wadever..is over i don care! LOL..the most re-test lo! LOL!!! =x after tat..went to PS n ate lunch..n slack ard in ps from..ermmm maybe ard 1plus till 5! lol...doing nth but slacking in KFC! haha...i went to find ping! LOL...i realise she was at ps ya~~ so i went to look for her...accompany-ed her for her break~~ LOL...as usual tok tok tok..n she still love to look at ppl..=x she didnt change much probably..i change more! LOL..=x

after tat i went back to chinese garden to meet U! n u made mi waited for like nearly 20min! LOL...cz i was 15min earlier! but nvm~~~ didnt wanna distrub u..i is v gd one...so i waited PATIENTLY for u! lol...honour anot..=x haha!!
DONUTS UP!

lol..=x i was super tired yesterday...i reach home at ard 7plus! lol...watch tv n slack...chat online n so on..but the zZz monster was damn powderfool! LOL....n i fall aslp on my sofa while watching the 9 o'clock show..this can prove how tired i was...=x den i wake up at ard 1020! LOL...i wanted to stay online but decided to shut down n off to bed! LOL...damn tired! lol..=x

exam r over...looking forward to meet ya! 2mths of darkness..will light be seen now? haha...we hope so..rite? =x i was damn busy wif npcc n studies..i barely have time for ya....thx for all the understanding n patient u gave mi...=) u still the best..arent u? haha! still the only one..OF CZ! =x smile smile..=)

training in the afternoon..BBQ at the nite! lol..home late again le bah! going to be damn tired man! LOL...tml will be campus super star!!! LOL~~~ fun...joy laughter...i am enjoying wif no stresss! other den npcc la...haha..but i am still enjoying~~~

maybe is time to go for a hair cut! a change in hair style~~~~ LOL...i alway say this line..but is NATO(no action talk only)!!! LOL...=x BLEAH...=x

so yesh...i am putting on damn weight..tat make mi look so fat la! damn it! is time to lose some weight now! haha...=x hopefully~~ later too fat nobody wans mi anymore~~~ sad! =x haha...

mango off to makan!! =x
9:02am

mango is here once again! LOL...hmmm...toking to ping now! LOL...n she was telling mi how this guy stay so faithful to the ger..although no contact liao! LOL..super envy sia...
tat time they broke off..n tat guy bought 99 chocolate flower for her...n ask to patch in public! LOL..wahlan...if a guy do tat to mi...i sure melt over him! but too bad! i am attached! LOL...
den he also once design a jewellery n ask ppl make for him!!! wah..real de leh...tat ger mz be damn lucky lo! haha...but they still no happy ending la...but i dunno them also..so ya...nvm! but envy lo...i wonder...will any guy do tat to mi! LOL...i is wan fireworks!

i don need any guy to do tat to mi...i jz need u...
capture my heart once more.. will u?
touch it..hold it..keep it...
let mi melt over u once more! =x

getting mushy...LOL!
later someone wanna to laugh again liao! LOL...

i apperciate everyone ard mi...=) the things they done for mi...
will anyone appericate mi den? LOL!

mango changing skin! LOL..x=
12:45AM

i was TAGGED by AISHAH.Rules of the game: each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. people who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. at the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. no tagbacks! :D

'LUCKY' six :1) Eleanor 2) Junxian 3) May 4) Wen 5) Lai teng 6) Mich ang

taken from elaine's blog! got shot for tagging in her blog! LOL...

10 weird stuff! ermmm...i try to find!

1. Scare of furry animal!
2. Hobby -> scolding ppl (given by my cadets =.=)
3. Putting on make-ups when i am sad!
4. Sms addicted!! LOL..
5. Love to stone when bored (jz stare blankly into the space) =x
6. My handphone stays wif mi 24/7 unless i seriously wana be alone!
7. Get hyper alone when ppl ard mi r too quiet! (provided tat i am not tired!!)
8. Hate Mind-Guessing Game (got thing jz say la!)
9. Being Selective
10. Love to leave ABIT of food on my plate after meals! (bad habit)

weird enough? LOL...i think i am still quite normal! LOL...i shall break the chian! =x

Elaine..Cheer up ya..=)

Hungry Mango

12:3AM

searching for air!
wo zuo bu dao! ni cheng gong le!
bu xiang xiang..ke shi you hui pao dao wo nao li!
thiam thiam thiam!

xin yang yang!!!
i wan fireworks!!!!

zai jian le!!! =(
8:56pm

got no mood to slp tonite again....haiz...later when wake up..really have to study n mug for econs! have been slacking for the past few days...haizz...zai wo sheng bian de wang wang bu shi ni...
you ni de ri zi zhen de hao kuai le...

for every every things..thx alot...probably..i noe i think too much...being over sensitive...=)

gone wif the wind!!! ~~~poof~~~
3:53am

could not really slp well for last nite...went to bed at ard 1 plus...woke up at 4 plus 5!! n stay awake till 7plus 8 b4 i fall back to lala land...nv noe i could remember those incident so clearly...every single thing! it jz play back thr my mind...everything seem to be so real...=( everything! haiz...

went to watch firework!!! yes...it was super nice!!!! the fireworks filled the whole sky...seriously..is damn nice n cool a fireworks for nearly 15min i suppose? haha...NICE NICE NICE!!! =x is really wow! i can said is better den any of the national day fireworks!!! haha...damn cool..damn nice...XD went for dinner n movie later on...n home at ard 1 plus plus..still quite early bah!! i feel like staying out for one whole nite n return home in the day! jz feel like having some nitelife...don really have to be nitelife...but jz stay out for the nite!! hehe..XD

somehow...sth is missing...
2:24am

hurts when i step back into my past...all the mistake n event tat happen...almost un-bare-able...=( is in the past...how i wish i could re-write everything..i will earse everything...mistake learnt but price for it is haiz...=( y mz i step back into it all over again... sometime it jz simply hurts...but my tears were dry...but those scar..is simply jz too deep to heal...=( ouch! ouch! OUCH!!
no one understand abt it either.... it has been a real long time since i last brought all this issue up...probably a yr ago...but now...maybe i should not mention abt it...should not think abt it...should jz leave it...
hao tong...hao tong...ha tong..='(

11:42pm

hmmm...boring day..boring life!!! i wanna try something new n exciting...life is getting boring nowadays...=( studying studying n more studying...haiz... wad is the objective n aims in my life... i dunno either...wad i want for myself...i dunno also!! haha..so wad do i noe den? i dunno!!! LOL...=x stay at home...bored...go out..dunno go where..do wad...for wad also...n transport fee is damn bloody ex can...=( everyday time jz fly pass mi...wad i do..jz plain slping eating n studying..=.= haizz..playing com? not really tat much...i think i slp more!! LOL...i dunno..jz feel like slping n more slping...haha..pig rite...but i dunno also...ohya~~~ i day dream too!!! haha..=x jz feel so restless... feeling damn no life la!! haizz....thiam thiam thiam aHHHH!!!

i wan surprises!!! LOL..=x

my exams end on the 23th...hehe...n mean playing after tat~~~ YAY!!!
24th -- training n spnpcc
25th evening -- npcc
26th -- SLACK!!!
27th n 28th -- busy
29th -- personal development class

mango mood swing today!!
no life...no life!!! =(
11:40pm

yay~~~don think can study le la...oink oink!!! =x hehe.. i went out jz now...XD should slp early tonite...

tonite the star was great!! looking into the sky...wif u beside mi...those feeling...=D words cant be used to describe!! =x haha...i only have one thing to tell u...我爱你！！！ 你是我心里的唯一。。。 =）understand ma? haha!! =x
trying hard to hold on...not going think of giving u up so easily anymore...go thr the road ahead of us together no matter how tough the road is...JIAYOU!! =)
all i can say is... i love u...XD

happy mango..=x
1:18am

=) haha...i wanna start studying today!!! haha...=x econs~~~ yesh...i will study for it ok...i MZ!!! hehe...today i slp till damn shuang...wake up 330 le~~~haha..=x so didnt study...but i going to garther all my econs stuff...put nice nice pile together...den can get ready to study tonite...hehe.. ok...=)

reflect on quite some stuff...i realise the problem lies wif mi...is my fault...i will change....looking thr the things u gave mi...our memories...everything n everything..maybe i didnt treasure u enough..i took u for granted...i am sry....i will change...i will spend more time wif u...i realised how much u gave up for mi...but i didnt..all i did was to take all those for granted...=( give mi a chance to make it up to u...=)

wenbin ge ge~~~ haha!!! xie xie ni...=) i said alot of xie xie n thx to u le rite..=x haha!!! cz i really am....=D

mango wondering...where to go later...XD
4:35pm

this few days life super thiam...haha! accounting is killing mi...i dunno wad the hell i am doing...=x i feel tat...i go into the wrong course...haha..=x struggling like mad...ok la...maybe i didnt put in enough effort bah....but i will le ok..XD mango will buck up...n do her best liao...no longer slack...XD mz do it ok...ppl mz support mi! haha..=x NPCC...studies n U...mz cope well well..i don wanna give up on any...=x n of cz...my friends...hehe...CIBTC friends...CI friends...DBA03....n many many more...XD haha...

hmmm....dunno..maybe cz yesterday the phone conversation bah....let mi think thr quite some stuff...maybe the problem really lies wif mi....haha....maybe bah..mz go do some reflection! haha...

千言万语说不light...haha! thx alot anw..=) don alight from the bus worz...=x hehe...
don 看down on urself too...i wanna type in chi de la..but my chi is cannot make it also le..haha! 我很庆幸我认是了你。。。=）

jiayou..GOＧＯ！！！
7:07pm

10 aug 07
blog blog blog~~~~ haha....but blog semor? basically...when i woke up today...is alrdy ermmm...2 plus? haha...slack ard eat den saw hp..jb missed call mi...so i called jianboon sir back...for wad? i forget le...LOL...ok..den later slack ard again..den i saw my hp got missed call again...LOL..so i called back...n started toking wif U~~~ for i dunno how long b4 going online..haha...the video...wahahahaha~~~ no image le worzzz...=x haha...den chat slack ard..by the time i go for dinner is alrdy like ermmm645? haha..aiya dunno doing wad...but later time jz fly pass so fast...i behaving like exam have ended? LOL...but in fact exam is like in two day time? haha...feel so slack la...i don feel like study..nth seem to go in..x= but ok...maybe i understanded one part alrdy..the unearn n stuff...i got the whole Q wrong for my CA2...haha..=x i THINK i understand..=x ok..later go n try..=x haha..

ok..i seriously need a printer...i have a printer but needa go fix it...but lazy la...MAYBE during holiday i will go fix it..haha...printer is so imp can..=x haha..ok...ya...ok..i dunno..thiam thiam thiam...LOL..=x

i wanna study study study..but i jz cant cant cant....haha..=x

ok..CL super naggy la..=.= don nag like old ah gong leh..u old enough liao..wahahahaha...=x lalala...=x

wenbin..super attitude today la....seriously ar...for the first time i feel super dulan wif u lo...sry lo..but u really v guo fen when u did tat la....but nvm...i shall put it behind mi..but i wont forget...=(

don link mi wif other ppl can...
don keep saying every guy i toked to is interested in mi can...
not funny leh..

my life is damn thiam liao la...probably no one appreciate the things i did...complains complains n more complains...
so when care for ppl mz be said? when do things for them mz be said? everything mz be said?
arent actions speaks louder den word?
ok..maybe i don show tat i appreciate wadever ppl had done for mi...i don show..does not mean i dunno....does not mean i don care...
is jz tat...i noe yet i jz don wanna show out for some reasons tat cant be said...

i am trying to help u..but u nv seem to noe...

i don wanna give hopes when i noe there wont be an outcome...

sry...i noe...i am trying...i wont give up...i will try my v best...
MANGO DON GIVE UP...DON DON DON GIVE UP...JIAYOU...XD

mango off...
12:54am


i once said before tat not many ppl can make mi feel happy…not many ppl could affect my mood till the extreme too… but somehow…u became one of the person… hu can affect my mood…but don misunderstand… is jz maybe cz u meant sth to mi le… not those type…but probably a person I would turn to if I needa help…a person I would share my troubles n problems with…a person I could trust… maybe jz became dependence on u le bah… but jz someone more den friend…but definitely not a bf…

my smile… is to make sure other ppl smiles stays…I smile for other…when other smile n happy… I be happy too…I will be happy for the sake of other ppl…I wont pull a long face…cz if I do tat… it will affect other ppl too…I smile…but am I really happy? yes I will as long as I noe they r happy…=)

leave mi alone...i wanna disappear alrdy...XD studies studies studies...

blogging in early morning...haha! =x

9 aug...i didnt do much bah..haha..=x slack ard...i wanted to study..but in the end...i did not..haha...ok...mz study today le...die die also mz chiong accounts...if not...haiz.thiam thiam....ok...now i blog for only one reason...haha...XD only the person will noe the...LOL.. BLEAH...ok...main point...=x

wu la la..wu la la...wu la la..if only i have one hundred thousand dollar...LOL...correct?
if only i have one hundred thousand dollar...one hundred dollar...if no one noe...i will wish sibling gd forture...treat pa for a plane ride...if i have one hundred dollar...i wanna go take plane...go ard the world...go sun tan..go japan eat sushi...buy hus..don need to work...don need so welcome...
LOL...ok v lame...this is all the thing i can catch...haha..=x other is blur blur liao...too noob le..haha..XD not easy to catch all this also leh..haha..XD

smile smile more more ok...LOL...don alway so sad la...haha...XD
smile smile smile...XD

mango wu liao, off to bed...=x
4:04am

come out with ur own style of teaching... get the facts right before start to teach... ensure the cadets learn what they should, rather in doubts.
maybe being an instructor is not my type...putting in effort,time n so on..trying to be a gd one...but am i able to do so? it actually took mi so long to realise...

today...a super super super tired day for mi...LOL..cz yesterday slp so 'early' could not wake up at 6...n woke up at 7 instead...chiong to unit lo...siao...haha..=x i is KO lo....den rush unit...den i changed to full uni...ermmm...super fast...LOL...i think the last time i changed so fast was like during CIBTC? haha..=x v tired...LOL...den i tok to the cadets...i split myself into 3? LOL...no la...mz settle one squad by one...LOL...sec 1, 2 and 3...LOL....zzz leh..i one person 3 squad...can die...lucky is not v big..but haizz...=( unit population is so so so...haizzz..=(

i realise..so many upcoming event again...WAHHH..KO LA~~~~ i is wanna die liao...haha... courses n more courses...promotions..n more promotion...campcraft test...drill test...CPL promotion...LOL...KO la..holiday chiong le lo....haizzz...ohya..update cadets name list to HQ..haizzz... is so cock up can...=( AHHHHH~~~ LOL...but somehow...whenever i am in training...when i see my cadets...somehow...i will be motivated to do it for them..for their sake...haha..i thiam my life for them...hahahaha..=x

they alway pester for ranks n badges...haha..but in fact..last time i used to do it too..haha..XD but my CI told mi sth...and today i said it to my cadets...haha...=x 'so wad if i give u the rank...so wad if u all have the rank..so wad if u put on the rank...so wad..so wad...haha...we can issue but r u all up to standard to wear it...'XD LOL...i find it true la...haha..yup yup..cut story short..=x stayed in sch till like 1030 today can? tok crap wif my cadets..XD or rather NCOs...XD

n today..they said i v different...during camp...when having training n today...LOL...XD ok la..i admit during camp i v fierce...but is not my choice...i shouted constantly..LOL...ya...till no voice la..=.= LOL..XD but well..is not my intention..ya..XD haha...yup ypu...cut story short again..=x haha..=x

den i went sp at ard 1255? LOL...tired...i forget abt my collar label...LOL..so didnt wear uni to take part...in fact..i was feeling v slack...n ya...but really lo...unit base no collar label..still ok...i told my cadets too...bo bian leh..=x they spotted...mz admit b4 they shoot mi...LOLLL..=x n ya...but for tat...may not seem imp..but well...it wont show well of CI image bah...so i didnt wanna wear either...XD...haha..=x
slack ard in spnpcc clubhus...LOL...played UNO? LOL....super high...laugh like mad...laugh like nobody business..haha...wenbin = joker sia...LOL....damn fun...haha...haven laugh till so happy for some time le bah...haha...

but i get depress after tat...not depress la..i dunno..i v tired...KO le..super tired..haha..plus he no msg...=( i dunno...last nite he didnt sound happy...haizz..thiam thiam...but in the end..yes he did reply..but somehow...i cant feel it...i dunno..too tired? maybe lo...

left clubhus at like 730? den went fc5..ok la..walk past fc5...den i went buy waffle.. den i shouted at wenbin....sry..=( should not use u to fa biao...but u come make mi at the wrong time...=( sry...bu shi you yi de...

den went station..wanted to go JE eat..but later get on train..den like v late..den like dunno wad to eat...v sian n stuff...so end up mi n chelle drop at clementi...den they went home..we went to my hus hawker center to eat...wahaahaha..=x nice food...XD but i was too tired to eat...n sian...
eat n tok at the same time..toked abt ATC...LOL..i think i v long no had a gd chat wif u le hor...haha..=x not only to chelle bah...to him also bah...when was the last time we actually chat happily...=( don wanna think too much either...

after eating is home...blogging..haha...today one super long worzz...XD but nvm..those hu bother to read..read..those hu do not bother to read..also nvm...LOL...i jz wanna blog blog blog..today took some pic...not alot bah...maybe post up some other time..XD haha...

mango feeling v tired...LOL...fighting wif zzz monster...but zzz monster v powderful...XD gonna give up soon..=x
hmmm...should i go tml? i still cant cfm....50 50 bah...XD

Wenbin...really dui bu qi...=(

mango feeling scare-ed...i jz wanna be a normal ger...being pampered n shower-ed wif care n concern...i don wanna be tough n strong...
11:09pm

i love him...i really do...true love wont be given up? i really hope so too...

=) LOL...CL lighten my nite today...LOLLLL~~~ fun hor....ok...i shall not share TAT wif other ppl...but i tell u...is super funny la....LOL~~~~~ BLEAH...


today went sch i met guohui at the station...LOL...he is going home...n i am jz reaching sch...LOL..=x went to sch for test...ITAB..ok ok la..not too bad...do till damn sian...haha...XD den went clementi to eat...LOL....the chicken look very small...LOL..but in the end...eat till damn full...chicken was so-so...LOL..not as nice as wad ppl said....haha..but the fries is super nice...XD haha...cost like $7...XD haha...den i went to met CL~~~~ LOL....

he waited at the station for mi...LOL..XD den we went to bugis...XD walk n walk n walk...n u noe wad...CL dunno bugis street got upstairs one...LOL....super toot lo...LOL~~~~~ =x walk ard...i super thirsty...n he ill-treat mi...cz he no give mi water to drink...LOL...=x brought some stuff...n went to drink sweet talk..XD LOL...it taste like medicine...LOL...n ate four leave bread..XD haha...

i don feel like going home today...cz got ppl at my hus...n they playing mahjong...so simple sian... haha..so i rather stay outside...wait for them go home..den i come home...haha...XD CL accompany-ed mi today...XD haha...we left bugis at ard 10 bah...haha....chased after the bus..LOL..thx to him...LOL...n he sent mi home...n den walk home...XD haha...

CL super shan gui..=x LOL...nx time date u out more often la..haha...let u try more new new things...haha..XD ah bo..u is v noob leh...LOL~~~~ BLEAH...like tat how to find gf lo..wahahahaha..=x tat is if i have to time to do so..LOL..u noe...XD =x BLEAH...


once i reach home..kena msn virus...like cock lo..=( sianed...XD


but...=) got wenbin to help mi...LOL..XD n now...problem is fixed...XD haha....YAY~~~~ haha..=x wenbin korkor..XIE XIE NI~~~~ haha..he helped mi wif npcc stuff as well as IT stuff...haha..=x saluteS for him...XD haha...

today time pass v fast..XD

yes~~~ my nite is brighten up by wenbin too~~~ XD xie xie alot...
really dunno how to tell u..i is really v v gan xie ni....XD haha...

mango off...
1:21am

zi lian time...XD LOL...

nth to blog today...XD going to study for ITAB tonite le bah....XD

don say u like mi..when u don understand mi...
don say u like mi..even if u like mi...cz there is nth i can do...
even if u like mi...don tell mi..cz i wont wan to noe...
once u said..it be the end...i will disappear...
give mi up is the only thing i would say...

i do things wif a reason...but some reason arent meant to be said...
i wont say anything...

my heart is filled wif someone...

i love my dear....he is my everything...XD
mango off
4:55pm

不知何时没有我的允许，你就擅自闯进我的心。。。然后动摇了我，把深藏在心底的我，给唤醒了。。。像是心脏出了问题一样。。。想要更了解你，见不到就会想你。。。 因为你，还会自己傻笑，就像个傻瓜一样。。。
i ❤ u...XD

mango will be content wif wad she have...she be happy..she will not block u out anymore...XD she will change for u...n for herself....she will give u space...to help her and to guild her....she will treasure u....every moment n min she have wif u...
10:02pm

finally...i cried....crying myself to bed once again...is better den holding my tears back...n i cant do anything...but so wad if cry le..nth is done too...but it jz make mi feel better...haha...den y i cry? i dunno also...LOL...mango = crazy...maybe bah...XD

if i disappear too...wad will happen....LOL..probably thinking too much...cz i don have the determination to do so...LOL...sometime i wonder...how much do i actually mean to others..where am i..wad position do i have...probably nth to anyone bah...LOL

nobody to anyone...
am i somebody to someone?
LOL...

7:06pm

haizzz...today boring day...i don feel like studying at all..i jz wanna slack slack slack my time away...don ask mi y...but i jz got no mood to do anything beside..playing slacking n enjoying...LOL...

today i woke up..chat on phone..sms..my bill gonna bao if this carries on...=( mother going to kp le...LOL...=x ok...den i woke up..i slack ard...use com n so on...i was late...should be meet 330 at suntec..but i left my hus at like...ermmm 340? LOL....but nvm...manage to reach suntec at ard 4...XD haha...den i met wenbin...to pass him 4 NDP ticket...LOL...n myself...i went for the NDP wif my unit instuctors n joyclyn maam...LOL...i got 4 tickets..but i gave all the wenbin...n how did i go for NDP den? LOL..joyclyn maam lo...LOL...den in the end..jeremy went too...n we have 2 spare ticket un-used..LOL..but sadly...today's no firework...no goodie bag de...=( LOL....jz went to c parade n the stuns...LOL...nth interesting to mi alrdy...cz i have seen it....after the parade we stayed awhile n left le...we didnt wait for the whole performance to end..cz is like ermm..so boring..LOL..=xwe went jz to c the parade bah...XD

den wanted to eat pepper lunch..but i don feel like eating tat..chelle don either...so we end up eating at food republic...LOL....den we went bubble tea...quite nice...not bad..XD LOL...went home after tat...squeeze into the car...LOL....XD

wanted to go look for wenbin...but i dunno look for him for wad..go where do wad...so nvm le lo...LOL..=x i went home n start rotting...

=( he called mi...he said he be free tml..but sadly...he is not..haizzzz...=(
sometime i jz feel tat fate is playing a trick on us...Y Y Y..=( but wad can i do...nth too...sad-ed... y cant we jz have time for each other...spend time together...=( i dunno...time is running short too...feeling sad...=( i hate all this....but i love him...
when he is free..i am not...when i have time...he is not free...life is jz simply so sucky...=(
i don wan him to leave but he have to....i hate it..i hate it..i SERIOUSLY HATE IT...=(

my heart hurts...but i jz simply love him...probably back to square one once again...gonna be strong...gonna be tough...but i jz wanna be a simple ger...wif u by my side...i don wanna be there tough...i jz wanna be a normal ger....i am tired...i am scare...i am afriad...i don have the energy to do so anymore...=( i scare i will let go of u...i am scare of leaving u..i am scare of many many things..tell mi...how..wad am i suppose to do...=( haizz...will u be able to give mi the assure once again?

mango thiam...
12:13am

home~~~ LOL..join the two post together la...hehe...XD ermm..ok test = forget it...LOL..nth went in...so nth to throw out during the paper also...LOL..bang on wrong topic..sad...so test anyhow ans also..LOL...15marks..aiya nvm la..XD

went IMM later on..for dinner..cz don feel like going home..LOL...den tok walk ard..LOL...making a fool out of ourselves...LOL...hmmm...IMM change alot...IMM in my memory is a v wu lu place...but it no longer is le...4/5 yrs back...walking down tat path....LOL.. some how...i still remember those bit n pieces of our memories...

ok..den reach home at ard 10...haha...

hmmm..somehow..i miss going out at nite..late nite...catching midnite movie...going midnite KBOX...LOL...it has been a long long time since i last did all this..XD haha...staying out at ecp for the whole nite...n return home in the day...WAHHH...LOL..missing those days....XD hehe...

i jz feel like slacking...n more slacking...XD

mango feeling bored...she is lonely...LOL..XD
10:25pm



ok..i skip sch today again...LOL...skipping tutorial n lecture is becoming a habit to mi le...LOL..=x but i will try to not do so anymore nx sem...i promised u...XD later jz going for test..hehe..=x

i miss my old mugging days...LOL...i wanna start mugging like nobody business once again...LOL..am i still able to do it? i got no source of motivation...=(

mango off to eat n study finish the last bit...XD
12:10pm

i am blogging everyday again..cz i am more free now..i have more time...LOL...i miss my cadets..=x LOL...feel like going back unit le...haha..=x don ask mi y...but i jz wan..=x haha..=x npcc is part of my life..XD do it for the unit....XD haizz..but i foresee tat my unit going to face some big big prob...LOL...haizzz...better do sth before it is too late...XD GO mango GO..GO GO..jiayou...XD

spnpcc is in a mess under shiyong care...LOL....is time for our vice-president...Mr Sun WenBin to step in le....LOL...GO WENBIN GO..GO GO GO~~~~~~~JIAYOU..XD haha...i is offer to help u...XD ya..throw all ur sai kang give mi...LOL...but not all worz...i is will KO one...XD...work wif wenbin super stress de...cz he too zai le...i is don dare to slack...LOL...=x BLEAH...

today i went sch for like...ermmm 1 hr tutorial? LOL...lame...morning skip lecture again..haha..=x den went MOB tutorial...cz i noe she wanna go thr revision..den went SAA to sign up for a course...den went clubhus find wenbin..LOL...studied there for awhile too...haha... den dunno do wad..do some you de mei de...den went home wif CL...LOL..is ask him don wait le..haha..den he question mi so much...but i had a great time 'toking' to him...LOL...

i had a great time today...esp wif wenbin ard....wif my friends too~~~ i is super crap n high today..don ask mi y...but i jz am..LOL...XD

going mug for MOB le..LOL...5 more topic of notes..plus all the memorising...GO MANGO GO...LOL...

To Wenbin: i will help u wif anything i can..within my limit...LOL...jz come n ask mi...LOL..u open ur mouth..i is will help as long as is within my limit de...ok..XD haha...GO GO JIAYOU..XD i is support u...LOL.....=P

7:11pm

2003
i noe u ever since this yr....mid of 2003 bah..XD didnt really noe u well..didnt really contact u until the end of the yr...but i was there...looking at u..without u realise-ing..XD see-ing the way u run stuff...do stuff...super power...u seems to noe everything...anything i asked...u noe for sure...XD i admire u alot...when i get to noe u more...i realise how nice a person u are...=x those feeling unable to express
out...=x at first...i look up upon u as a big brota...
2004
the amount of care n concern...ur assurance toward mi...all those feeling...esp after tat incident..i noe i fall for ya...whenever i need help..u be there for mi for sure regardless of wad...u nv once rejected my request..XD super gd to mi...but i nv dare to let u noe how i felt towards u...u intro orange to mi....LOL...she told mi more stuff abt u n ur past..i noe u better den...i nv noe how u felt towards mi...i got no hints..no clue at all...u have endless suitors...i nv noe i will be given the chance...i almost given up but i didnt..i decided to take a step forward..to give it a try...but in the end...u were one step ahead of mi..XD be able to be wif u..was my happiest time...XD
2005
u went away from mi...my heart hurts...ur r only inside my heart..all i can do was to feel for u...
2006-2007
u came back...XD
2008
jz the tot of it..makes my heart feel the pain n hurt..cz i noe..u be leaving once again...=(
all i can do..is to be here to support u no matter wad....
will our love carry on?

3 yrs 1 mth...
11:37pm