hmmm..today sian sian bah...tiring day...haha...but kinda happy..=D haha..wanted to wake up at like 10 so able to meet 12 at je...end up...i cant wake up la..haha..=x so end up 1 woke up...den maam came n pass mi sth...den wash up n so on...went je to do project...reach at abt 3...den i asked...wad have they done..is like..ermm..=.= nth much...jz some i cant remember wad le..=x haha..den went there..i jz feel tat we didnt do much either la...but nvm la...wif friends is alway enjoy-able one..haha...

den later left at abt 530..haha...went meet ping today..haha..so long didnt c her le lo...for like ermm...after O lvl tat collect result day..till today..haha..x=ermm..yup yup..she cut her hair short..haha..abit shock la..=x hmm..den got this guy kiewee...LOL..lame..we also not V close wif him de..den he keep following us..den i whole of the day wif him..keep like attitude him..LOL..he ask mi Q den i give him those damn qian bian reply..haha..don care ar...wad for i bother so much abt him...haha...n ya...i think he is trying to get in gd terms wif my friend la...haha..siao one..x= don bother much abt him..haha...jz happy tat finally i met up wif ping...=D

ok...today...i ate ALOT ALOT of JUNK FOOD..=x haha..not alot la..but i for like 1 wk didnt eat any..today eat till i happy..haha..bleah..=x ermm..ok..first i went library...i brought sweet from my hus...den i EAT..haha..=x n of cz share wif my friends...den later moon brought CHIPS...n i EAT..LOL..=x den later i ate oreo~~~ lalala...damn nice...yum yum..hehe..=x although i is haven fully recover...but aiya...i cant resist FOOD temptation..haha..=x bleah...sry...i noe i didnt take care...but hehe..=x =D i happy can liao...=x OPPS..=x don angry...SMILE..EEEEEE..=x

hmmm...ya..today while going home...i saw bit n pieces of fireworks...HEHE...is so so so nice..=x den i tried to walk faster to an open space somewhere near my hus la..den i manage to catch abit...i saw one heart de...n another one is two heart..so nice lo...n those more normal one..haha...nice nice lo...sadly i watched it alone...haha...

let fate n time led us to where we belong to....i am too tired to do anything anymore...i don have the energy to do so anymore...

ok..is after MST wk...but..HAIZ..it seem like the things i have to do is nv ending...T.T currently 2 project in hand...IDEAS, powerpoint..haiz..i dunno how to do la...stupid..teacher demand so much..=.= den ITAB...ok..is more or less done i suppose? LOL...but haiz...

normal sch lesson starting...which mean tutorial to do? LOL..i done NTH..=.= haizz..sob sob...SAVE mi...

NPCC admin stuff...ATC nominal roll? sian...=.= consent form? den my CI confirmation form...ATC plans? Games? AHHHHH..sob sob...n ya...SOO training..sigh...n after tat dunno during aug or sep maybe going to have some sch UG thingy..AHHHH...ok..more or less tat is all for npcc...ok...

n ya...i needa give some time for him too..seriously haven been giving him much of my time...HAIZ...i am sry...

wif all those thing..i can barely give myself anytime...=( i wanna slp~~~ i wanna watch tv lo..so so long le...i jz don have the time..ARGGG...

ok...i have been like chatting online wif my friends..of cz they r my friends lo....i have to lend them my ears to listen to their problem de lo...tat is wad friends r for rite? haha...

don treat mi like nth when i treat u like my dearest...cz i will cast u aside one day...don make use of mi...cz i wont let u make use of mi anymore..don treat mi the way u used to treat mi...CZ I WILL START TO DESPITE U...i don treasue ppl hu don treasure mi...i don care for ppl hu didnt care for mi...

most importantly..I STILL HATE U AFTER ALL THIS YR..FOR THE WAY U TREAT MI...THE THINGS U DONE TO MI.. THE WAY U PLAYED WIF MI...I HATE U...

i miss u alot alot...wish to spend some time wif ya alone...but it seems like is alway not fated...i am trying..trying my best..MANGO JIA YOU...=D

hmmm...i feel sth is missing in my life today..i dunno..jz feel sth is missing..LOL...i start to think funny stuff...n think le..everything is in a puzzle de...den i cannot piece them together also..LOL? suddenly feel tat my life is in a mess...haha..=x so messy tat i cant handle it liao..but messy? i dunno wad thing is in a mess either..LOL...i jz wish to lead a v v simple life..but is like..it is not at all lo...haizzz...

is it cz tat i am too tired? u? LOL... i jz feel v v empty today..LOL...jz feel sth is jz missing today..LOL..my phone is v quiet today also...i dunno y also...maybe cz i didnt msg ppl(too lazy to do so...) today ppl don wan msg mi...no one miss mi today..LOL...aiya..nvm..going slp after i blog finish...

haiz..tot tml can rest at home..slack..but in the end...mz go do IDEAS...i dunno y..put in so much effort n time...maybe not alot la..but is sure more den wad the mark given to us la..like not v worth it...but aiya..nvm...

i duno...aiya..jz feel sth is missing today..LOL...my head is hurting liao...i dunno y either..haha..aiya...i don understand myself too..LOL...nvm...=x

mango puzzled?

off to slp~~~~

hmmm...currently in sch...blog-ing..haha..=x today was last paper...feel so bored...cz got nth to do liao..no training..don need to study..LOL...at least don need to mug for test..haha..so end up slacking in fc4 wif my classmate...haha..guess wad...was watching HAPPY TREE FRIEND...LOL...now they watch...n here i am blogging..wif my lappy bat wif only 15% left...haha..=x

ok..today last paper..LOL..i too slack or sth la...is jz...ermm..=.= LOL...i skip the Q AGAIN..LOL..=x skip a few words..den 3 marks gone..T.T is not i duno leh..is i too toot le...zzz...haha..tat time STAT also like tat..now also..haha..other den tat is still ok ok(i hope) haha..=x hope the example is correct? LOL..=x haha...after paper have been in fc4..eat..chat..LOL...for like 3 wks didnt really contact wif my classmate..cz holiday..den later MST wk...needa do last min mugging..LOL..sian~~den MST wk is OVER..=D tat y here i am slacking..LOL...bleah...

probably leaving at like 4 plus 5 bah..haha..=x bleah...hmmm...they watch HAPPY TREE FRIEND is laughing one..LOL..=x haha...laugh till so loud somemore..haha..=x LOL...now those duno hu from behind our table also looking at them..LOL..i gonna join them after i blog finish...haha..=x bleah bleah....

dear...i am sry..last nite u wanted to tok to mi..=x but i hang up on u..cz was using the phone..sry...don be disappointed..i noe u wanna share ur stories wif mi..but...SRY~~~ u r still the one i will think of alway...one n only dear..=D *530...520*

banana didi n wenbin korkor went ATC liao...haha...hmmm..3 days 2 nite..take care take care worz..=D wenbin korkor..kena all the saikang to do..LOL..jia you bah..later u in jungle i be ur shou hu tian si for the nite..LOL...protect u from wild boar...LOL..=x didi taking grp..haha..grp leader worzz....haha..JIA YOU JIA YOU..take care..=D LOL...
i dunno wad to type le..haha...=x

mango off~~~~

booo~~~ ok..today ITAB...not as bad...effort paid off? haha..ermm...other den the graph..which i lazy to try yesterday..n the PMT PPMT n wad so function..i dunno which one to use..so anyhow choose..haha..bleah..=x nth much of a day today...went for the ITAB test...didi damn stress n pissed cz of his unit stuff...but i cant help him in anything either..=( den msg-ed him after my paper..but he didnt respon le...aiya..wad can i do? den i went to sch to take 'fruit juice' from HG...LOL...thx ar...=D haha...so tempted to stay for training today..but cannot...cz needa go home n slp n rest...ahbo someone gonna nag till i don have peace...haha..=x bleah..den i went home eat n slp....probably due to the 'fruit juice' i feel v sleepy...haha...inside got like ermm..3 smashed pandol...LOL...damn bitter ar..=x haha.. but still thx la...=D wo xin ling le..haha..den slp from like 330 to 530 bah..haha...gonna eat n bath n mug for tml paper le...haha..MANGO JIA YOU...last paper le..GO GO..=D

mob so content heavy..AHHHHHH..T.T

waiting for test to be over...n i can have a gd gd gd rest le...haiz..but exam coming soon...HAIZ...

simply love stare-ing at ya....=D looking forward to tat day too..hehe...

feeling damn sick today..T.T haiz...account for wad ever happen today..sort of wasted my time la..but nvm...i happy can liao..haha...damn no life when is jz sch home study...sian~~~ =.=

today went sch for accounting papaer...haha...morning woke up earlier so i can study abit more... LOL...den by the time i going study i alrdy half dead le...i dunno...jz head v v heavy...haiz..probably due to flu bah...my nose~~~~ T.T needa lot of Vit.C n SLP~~~ going do tat after my test bah...which mean gonna waste friday n sat resting n trying to recover..sob sob..could have date my friends to go out wif them...=( sunday will be the day for ya...LOL...will u be free? i hope so...LOL...den went sch at dover waiting for friend den go to the room together...haha...my head is v pain at tat time..sob sob...pull myself thr the whole paper...by den head not pain le..LOL...ok..the paper still ok ok..hehe..=x suprisingly is not as difficult as past yr paper bah...BUT my trail balance did not balance...haiz...hope i wont get kill too much by it bah...but other den tat..i am quite happy wif how i fair overall despite my flu..LOl..=x

after paper went FC4 wif friends to eat...actually is no mood eat but hungry leh..so mz eat...so ate jap food...n met bin korkor there..LOL...so after i eat finish..i left le...went find bin korkor..den we went to spnpcc clubhus...haha...wanted to leave sch by 2 to go training..den by the time we reach there is alrdy like 130? den aiya..no point le..haha..=x den we chit chat awhile wait for shiyong(the president of spnpcc) to come n tok abit of spnpcc stuff..i dunno la..but jz didnt study..didnt do anything..but does not matter at least is not jz go sch take paper den go home study..haha..=x n of cz got bin korkor down there...LOL...den my HO called..he went down for training...n guess wad..training cancel..LOL..heng at ard 2 like tat i think think lazy go down unit le...no more extra energy to do so..LOL..so i don plan to go down..haha..=x hehe..den ya cancelled...n OHYA...joyclyn maam said my whole unit everyone claim form kena rejected...T.T haizz..den she also said she cant confirmed us as CI cz she don have the confirmation form...so in the end mi n bin korkor left spnpcc at ard 245...chelle meimei waiting at mrt station for mi..haha..b4 i went station..i went 7-11 to buy drinks..LOL..ok..den i dunno y...but whilie walking to the mrt station...i met 2 ppl i noe..n bin korkor met one of his unit CI too..LOL..=x at 7-11 we met arzura too...is tat how u spell her name? i dunno..haha..one of our squadmate from echo...haha...bleah..=x

ok..so in the end...i went to kallang from dover wif chelle..(bin korkor didnt send mi..LOL...jk..) haha..ermm..took 33 to HO hus de bus stop...den we end-ed up going to his hus...cz he cant finish the CI confirmation form cz he didnt noe some detail...so we end-ed walk up n down the road to find the correct lane to walk to his hus..LOL..=x ok...ppl pls don not mis-understand.. haha..den later done wif the form n sign le..den he feed mi wif panadol..cz my head is hurting V V pain...den we left n he sent mi back home...i reach home i jz slp~~~~ by the time arldy 530 le..den woke up at like 720...cant afford to slp any longer...got to mug for tml ITAB paper...is abt excel..SIGH...SUX...head hurting bit by bit...got to endure n finish my stuff so i can go n rest early...life sux...esp when sick during test/exam period..blame it on myself for doing last min study...=( really learn thr the hardway...n it sux..T.T

haiz..called didi yesterday...don sad la....n don wu hui abt mi n wenbin korkor leh..=.= pls la.. is not wad u think..=(

bin kor kor also take care take care...slp more more rest more more bah...my head pain liao..sian..=.= last paper for u..JIA YOU...

die die also mz learn finish all the fuction...MANGO JIA JIA YOU...=D GO GO...

mango off n endure~~~~

blog again? LOL...v emo la..so mz type out since no one to share wif..LOL..=x type finish gonna mug for accounting le...haha..=x

first...i am sry...sry to cancel the date..=x i jz feel v un-comfortable going out wif u alone...=x really sry ar..=x i noe u r trying to make mi feel comfortable since the day u asked mi..but sry instead it makes mi feel more scared n uneasy..=x so i cancelled it in the end..sry..really sry...maybe i should not have agreed in the first place..=x sry har...i noe saying sry wont cure anything...but still i really am..=x hope u will understand...=x

nx...i gonna down for training to screw the cadet upside down tml..=.= sigh...w/o CI ard to babysit them or stare at them they go anyhow...during training so slack..den wad is the point of coming for training..=.= they wont learn anything....nth is done..is jz nth but waste of time...so i am going down tml to some sort of scold them...n den maybe stay awhile den go home n rest le..=x sry...but i really cant afford the time to stay thr the whole training...n my dear NCOs auto fall out themselves n use eye power...while the cadets r training...wad is this man..=.= u said the training is tiring den let mi ask u all...the cadet not tired? so wad if u r NCO...does it give u the rite to fall out cz u claim the training is too tiring..=.= so u all don wanna be inside the parade la..=.= WTH...but of cz...i will find out more abt today training b4 i really screw them up..=.= sigh...disappoint-ed...probably when i used to be a cadet...maybe is the same thing bah..i dunno...forget le..LOL..=x

nx..i am feeling better le..after the ermm..3 hrs or so nap..=D haha...more life...=D so gonna mug mug mug..hehe..=x

sigh...our time really crush..don be sry bah...is not ur fault...as long as we don give up..as long as i still have u inside mi...as long as i noe i still love u...i believe one day the light will be seen...haha..hopefully...bleah..=x i am trying to hold on...hold on tightly..

MANGO JIA JIA YOU...=D

today STAT paper sux to the core...yes i do agree tat is is rather simple compared to last yr paper..BUT I CANT DO...T.T...i dunno...KO during the paper...do till damn !@#$@..=x have the urge to cry after the paper although i didnt la...cz i noe i really screw the paper up...25 marks Q first step wrong liao..WTH...T.T my whole graph is empty la...i jz drew the axis..=.= haizz..T.T 15%..=.= sian~~~ siao liao...nx few round of test/exam mz JIA MORE MORE YOU...cant slack liao....i alway have to learn my lesson thr the hardway..=x haha...AHHH..i get depress over today's paper...probably gonna slp after i blog..reach home at like 1 hr ago...n was chatting on the phone...LOL...jz end the chat..hehe..=D

hmmm..friday should go SYF anot? i dunno leh..go help out abit abit since no training..but dunno going out anot..=x haha..c how first bah..=x

nx thing i gonna blog is abt this mr nice guy/mr gentleman/mr gerard tan...LOL..as wad i told him yesterday...i will blog more abt him today..since he said tat my blog yesterday abt him is not too gd..LOL...haha.. ok..i will go back into abit of the past to tok more abt him..hehe..=x
we went in the same class during sec 1, 3 n 4..haha..=x we didnt contact much until sec 3 for a while i suppose? LOL...but i do remember u coming to tok to mi as n when too..haha...during ssec 2? when i used to stand at the door to chat wif ly? den ur class is jz nx door? den u will tok to mi if u c mi standing there? haha...n asked mi wad i am doing..LOL..=x i doubt u remember la...haha..u so baddie one..small small issue..cant really recall much either...but i noe during sec 3..same class...we sit quite near to each other also rite..den i will alway go...gerard..'hole puncher'(or how do u spell tat thing) or gerard help mi hand in...gerard staple...gerard marker..LOL...u r jz mr nice guy..=D LOL....i remember once during PE..i was playing badminton wif ping..den u were playing at the other court too..LOL...we(ping n i) started laughing n giggling when we c the way u played..=x LOL.. so serious..=x don angry ar..haha..=x action v big..LOL..=x still got wad? erm..i dunno..jz noe tat u r the mr nice guy to mi...n of cz the most gentleman one...haha..BUT...now r u still like tat? LOL..=x but weather u r now or not...my impression of u is alway mr nice guy..=D hehe... ohya..i suddenly remembered sth...during sec 3 i failed my DNT paper by 0.5 marks..LOL..den i said sth like..kaoz..0.5marks she also don wan give mi..=.= den don care la...DNT I DON CARE...LOL..=x den i jz return the paper to u..u helped mi check n found the 0.5 marks...cz got one is spelling error den u asked mi to go to her n asked her to give mi the 0.5marks ignore the error..i told u..nvm la...i lazy..LOL...den u went return the paper..n u helped mi asked her...LOL...n she gave mi the 0.5 mark...haha...thx ar..=D bleah..ok..i think tat all..haha...happy wif today's post har...MR NICE GUY...LOL..=x

hmmm..feeling v sick today..i dunno y...haiz..no more durian during test/exam period...IT SUX..=x haha...haizzz...tot of today's paper..SOB SOB..T.T probably going slp n hope i will feel better n mug for tml's paper which is accounting..haha..i scare i tempted to go down sch for training sia..LOL..=x i will try to control myself...haha...cannot let bin korkor mouth so zhun again...haha..=x

ohya..bin korkor asked mi drink saltwater last nite...kaoz...soooo..=.= but i still drink 2 cup last nite...haha..this morning i drink coke plus salt..LOL..=x at least is better den saltwater..=.= bleah..u take care also bah..=D

didi jia you too..u so busy...i don dare distrub u...bleah...=x

i am sry..i didnt have time for ya...but i i will try my best to give u more of my time...sry...i really needa ya understanding...don be sad... is really no excuse...i will contact u more often...wont let u wait for my msg for too long anymore...i will msg u first...n not wait for ya msg.. but cannot alway mi first hor..bleah.=x i noe u r unhappy... sry forgive mi for my willfulness...XD not gonna hurt ya again...gonna keep u deep deep inside my heart...BLEAH...smile smile more more ok...take care take care jia you jia you too..=D

i wanna take care take care..i don wanna be sick..=x SOB SOB...tired tired..wanna slp liao..OINK OINK..hehe..nitez ppl...

mango off to OINK...hehe...

=D mango v v v hyper today...bleah..=x haha..=x ok...ECON TEST SUX...LOL...cfm die liao..=x i cant link the Q during the paper...LOL...i don understand..den like no meaning one..hahaha..=x den the MCQ got some Q n the choice they give..LOL...no link leh..=x end up wad i put? anyhow choose..LOL..=x don care don care...10% LOL...aiya..nvm la..=x wait sem exam i jia more more you..hehe..=x ok..wenbin...can u jz mind ur language abit more..=.= pls la...don so @#$!@#@$ can anot..irritated leh...=.= sry to say tat la..but really la..=.= but don don tok to mi also..LOL.. bleah..=x ok...nvm..is over..

today i met one person..LOL...ermmm..didnt c him for mths...n guess wad the first thing i said to him...GERARD...u v skinny suddenly leh...n ur hair..pls go n do sth abt it...LOL..=x wahahaha..=x ok..first i will meet him cz of my friend...she is suppose to meet him den after my test...i met my friends at the foyer..den i don wann go eat dinner wif my classmate so i left wif them..haha..=x so i met him..LOL...4 yrs of friendship..ermm..not consider la..is jz friend friend tat lost contact for afew mths le...LOL...HOR...GERARD...i noe le...bleah...=x i understand liao..u cant run away from my eyes...LOL..bleah..=x haha..ok ok...n i made a deal wif him...i said...when the nx time i meet u(hu noes when will tat be) pls do sth to ur hair..=x LOL...i don care..i take it as u agreed..bleah..x= ok...he said i am still as hyper as ever..LOL..pls lo..got meh..=x we r only like 16 yrs old..don behave like old uncles n aunties...LOL...=x bleah bleah...=x n u baddie...FORGET my birthday...nv die b4 rite...LOL..=x yahoo~~~ my blog for today is all abt u...cz i am so happy? glad? to meet u..haha..i dunno...jz so long didnt c liao..den suddenly meet u..haha..=x lalala..friend forever ya...wish u all the best ok..=x gd luck for ur studies too..SIM rite...stress ar..=x LOL...JIA YOU..=D

ok..n ya...my throat...T.T should not have ate durian yesterday la..now sore-ing i don wanna be sick..LOL..=x i wanna be hyper hyper hyper...LOL..=x hahaha..today my mood quite low de...but it got stir up when i meet my friends b4 test..n after the test n meeting my sec sch friends...HEHE...=x

my life is filled cz of u ppl..3 cheers..=D

lol..gonna slp after my post...wake up bath n CHIONG AR..tml STAT...should do some Q bah..wish mi all my best...LOL...MANGO JIA YOU...=D

didi..=D jia you too..don be too stress out...so many project..jia jia you bah...GO GO...haha...meet out one day leh...wo zai xiang ni...LOL..=p

wenbin korkor..u is i type rite at the top liao..=x watch ur language pls..=x n also..gd luck for ur test..JIA YOU TOO...don so chiong..health is imp too..=D take care take care ya..=D

haha..my test u laggi more worried den mi...no worries..=x i grow up liao..no longer the little ger hu get depress cz i cant do today's paper...haha...i jz wanna be the little ger in ur arm..=D

b4 i go n mug for my test...sth i wanna say...

ping: don be sad le...be strong..jia you...i noe u r hurt....time will let everything recover on its own..u have to be strong n overcome it...don drag anymore le...fang kai bah...recover from the pain n hurt...don cz of him...give up on urself...live for urself..not others...u don owe them a living..jia you be strong..no matter wad..i be there for u...i wish i could rush down to look for u...but u didnt wan...i noe u wanna be alone..i let u be alone...but remember..i be there for u alway...no matter wad has happen...remember u still have mi...u r not alone..=D start off wif a smile..tml be a better day alrite...some days u will meet someone better...u be happier...u will learn..=D jia you...don forget abt mi can le..=D be strong n face it...if u need someone to tok to..i be there alrite...=D
JIA YOU..=D

i am sure di enjoyed himself the past 2 days bah...haha..tat is gd...u happy can liao...tat is all...i dunno wad else i can say....haha...

i will be strong too...jia you bah..=D

booo`~~~..LOL..=x slp at six..noe u gonna nag le..bleah...haha..i studied till four yesteray..did accounting..YAY~~ can do liao..=x journal n ledger..later going to try closing account n doing trail balance...hehe..=x after tat i called bin kor kor n chat wif him till 6...LOL...he keep complaining his back ache...=x hu ask him act smart...LOL..=x haha..den said i v bad...cz i keep laughing at him...LOL...hahahahaha..=x kor is v bad also..u noe y i said tat rite...haha..bleah..=x ur image haven spoil yet la...=x don worry...haha...ok...after i blog finish i going to study liao..tml start test le...stress stress ar..=x jz now chat-ed wif uncle chin abit..WAHHH...sian mz find out more detail from him nx time..i don wanna die during my atc...LOL..=x my atc is at 27,28 n 29 july..haha..as a CC w/o a ACC i gonna die faster...=x LOL..how? look for someone to help mi lo...bleah..=x i was toking to a old bird jz now..lol..asked him help mi here n there..bleah..=x i realise alot of things i haven do..nvm after MST..LOL...

while toking ping called mi..siao..she didnt tok..i still tot she call wrong or sth..den later is hear her crying..SIAO LIAO...i is v the worried..she is don wan say anything also..WTH..=.= n i use 2 F*** aiyo..i dunno...den i is dunno wad happen...i feel like flying down to go meet her...but later she is aiya..bu zhi dao la...jz keep crying..cfm is got prob..mz be her guy again la..she don say anything how i help her...now she don even wanna pick up my call liao..=.= sian sian sian..=.=

i will put kor first today..haha..bleah...since he said i alway put him last one which is not true..haha.. bleah..ok..but type wad..erm..korkor =D LOL...all ur fault..=x now my friend also said my eng laggi more worse..like shit liao...si le si le...i tok like more rough le...C LA..kor ur fault..LOL...ur eng is so zai...mine is not leh..si liao si liao...=x i is kena influence by u le..=x later EC fail..really is ur fault..haha...=x bleah...u cfm still oinking like pig...bleah... i noe kor is understand mi de rite..bleah..=x sian sian sian...sry kor..i lied to u last nite again...=x

didi...alway sms halfway den cut off one..haha...nvm la..use to it...haha...he said he enjoyed himself..mean should be ok ok le...stay happy alway ya...i jz needa noe tat u happy can liao..=D blog leh...ah bo i dunno wad is happening in ur life...=p take care take care ok..=D

LOL...si liao..got ppl date mi out le...really is one on one...LOL...i is cfm will shy one..haha...ppl..don ask hu...esp wenbin korkor...=x don so kaypo pls..=x u is noe alot alot alot of things liao lo..BLEAH...haha..i accpet it as a friend nia..nth more..haha..don wu hui...i have my dear le..wei yi...

mango off~~~

hmmm..study study n more study..but cannot really concentrate but i can feel the stress...v stress..T.T took a nap jz now..feeling better liao..going to study again...i realise econs n stat is not as difficult as it seem to be...LOL..=x i do understand abit le but i haven memorise...
as i am typing the blog, i can hear firework sound..but too bad i cant c it from my hus..sob sob..=x hmmm...i wish this yr someone will asked mi to watch firework..LOL..everytime is i asked de..this yr don wan ask liao..bleah..=x c if got ppl will ask mi to watch firework anot..i noe u sure not free so nvm..=x haha.. although firework may seem quite meaningless..but is jz simply so nice when it shoot high up into the sky..n feel as if it is jz above u...haha..=x dunno v nice lo..bleah..=x hmmm..if someone can display firework for mi...WAHAHAHA..laggi better...probbably in my dream den it will happen bah..haha..=x bleah...=x fireworks has many many memories...i jz love fireworks alot..=x bleah... haha...
boring life..so sian..nth much of a things to do...but to study...=.= haha..sian sian de..=x appear offline the whole of today..haha..cz aiya..dunno..=x nvm..don wanna get hook onto chatting den end up cant study anything..i am going to bath n study after i blog finish liao...going to concentrate i MZ... burning oil tonite..so many things so little time...haiz-ing...

i miss alot alot alot of ppl..i wanna go out wif my friends...i pushing everything to after MST wk..but i realise..even after MST wk...i may not be free too..probbably after july den my time is more slack..den i realise is not the case either...cz semestral exam will be soon..SOB SOB...haiz...everything seem so fast..moving so fast..i couldn't catch up...but the time wont stop for mi..i got to move on faster..i cant jz stop where i am now...i cant...T.T

i enjoyed the time we spent for each other...i really do..but i cant jz stop where it is alrdy..i am moving..catching up wif the time...our memories carry on wif mi...sry if u gonna feel tat i don care much for ya anymore...is jz tat i cant afford to do so anymore... haven hear from u for sometimes alrdy..wish u all the best for ur exams..study hard jia you jia you...=D wish u all the best ya...i didnt forget abt u...i don wanna disappoint u anymore..sry for all the pain i cz for u...but i really do hope u r doing fine..doing great too..will u be simling if u ever read this..or u be cursing n swearing at mi..=x u may dislike mi..hate mi..wad so ever...but i hope tat u r doing fine..doing great..carry-ing on wif ur life...

miss-ing didi...LOL..=x wo fang xia le shuo you..i am moving on...to catch up wif the pace le...cant stand there n watch over u...if u ever needa mi..i will be there..alway there for ya...

u gave mi a feeling of someone hu used to be v dear to mi..hu also used to hurt mi alot...LOL..i almost gave him up for ya..but i didnt in the end...is all over le..past past past... all in the past...

wenbin korkor..=D great thx to u for helping mi out when i most needa someone...u r jz alway there for mi...if i needa someone..thx alot..=D haha...when wan tok on phone again? LOL...

now my heart only have one person..tat person is u..only u...all for u only...3 yrs...we carry on...stay wif mi alway ya...i will be lost without u...=x

mango off to bath n study..=D

hmm..blog n blog..one day blog so many...LOL...anw...jz now afternoon i do the nominal roll do halfway den go slp liao..too tired le..LOL..=x end up wake up faster rush go bath..=x haha..den joyclyn maam came n fetch mi to pw today...LOL...toked all the way in her car...haha..=x we went eat sake sushi...haha..=x den tok tok...den later walk ard pw...buy some stuff den maam needa go liao..den mi n chelle carry on walking waiting for time to pass for him to look for mi..so last min..haha..den later reach le...we sent chelle home den is our world liao cannot share one...LOL..=x haha..=p den on the way home...maam called mi...LOL...so toked to her on the bus from pw all the way home..haha..=x sry..=x

see u so sick still wanna look for mi... touch-ed..but no more nx time pls...rest at home..take gd care...have enough rest..c-ing u cough each time..is like so ouch to mi...take care..hope u do enjoyed urself today alrite..=D happy to meet ya today...lots of things to say...but in the end..i jz wish to look at u...tat all..LOL..=x love stare-ing at u...hehe..=x

sry di...cant call u jz now...is not tat u arent imp...is jz tat i have something else to do...hope u understand..tried calling u once i free..but i think u slp liao..haha..=x nvm..enjoy urself for the nx 2 day alrite..=D hope it will brighten up ur life a little..=D
sometime jz a msg from u to someone can jz brighten the person day..=D don regret le...learn from mistake...don be sry anymore..=D sry is not the word ppl likes to hear...=D haha...JIA YOU...24/7 there for ya...

bin korkor...take care worz..=D slp well..rest well... u really needa rest rest..haha...i eat alot of ur slping time..haha..bleah..but nvm la..wont have the chance liao...sch gonna start..test gonna start...i maybe going mia..less contact-able...so look for mi? SMS mi...haha..=x bleah..my phone will be 24/7 unless otherwise..=x

mango off to shower...=x TIRED..=x

boo~~..LOL..i tell u ar...today i forget tat it was someone's birthday..=x i realise when i walking to sch for training....dui bu qi...SRY~~~~ =x it jz slip off my mind..=x but nevertheless.. hehe... evil laugh..=x LOL...ANW...wanna wish u a happy happy happy birthday...will make up to celebrate wif u...remember 2 yrs ago..LOL...memories...bleah...smile smile ok..=D hope u will enjoy urself today..=D

i jz came back from training today..x= haha...have been hugging the phone of past few nites...not everynite la...but alternates bah..=x haha..depends lo...slp for 4 hrs...could not wake up today...end up dragging myself out of the bed at 830..den chiong go training...reach sch at like 910...LOL..i am LATE..=x haha..nvm...but when i reach cadets all haven fall in yet..today training quite dead.. n sian...HO came down..=.= at first ask mi take parade today..i was like WTH..i don wan la..i not prepared at all la..=.= den i attitude him..den later i realise he is sick..tat y asked mi to take...SRY SIR...=x but he is werid person la..don understand..=x bleah..=x ermm den training sian sian de la..quite boring today cz HO down there cannot do much..ah bo..=.= LOL...den i miss-ed doing drill in a squad...if only can turn back time..i will enjoy myself bah..=x haha...den later after training...slack in npcc room..wait for OC come n sign pink form..=x den end up going to staffroom to wait for him..cz he said he be there in 10 to 15 min..end up dunno wait how long..cz i was on the phone again..bleah..=x haha...den later went eat lunch wif OC at coffeeshop..he treat us eat chicken rice and treat us soft drinks..=x LOL...everytime like tat...will bu hao yi shi de lo..=x haha...bleah...hmm..going to do nominal roll after i blog finish..den later bath n probbably study if possible den go out liao...i think i don wan slp..later laggi more tired..hah..going out for dinner tonite at pw..LOL..=x

yesterday wenbin kor kor said i training tat time scold ppl very fierce...really meh? =x got so fierce? den today i asked chelle she said ya lo... really meh? got so fierce? i dunno leh..like normal normal leh..=x haha..bu zhi dao..CHELLE..=x nx time take pic w/o mi noeing...LOL..=x haha...lame..=x

didi still no respon to msges...i don wanna bother him...althought i wish i could help n do sth for him..but i dunno wad i can do...but to carry on trying to show him concern..LOL..didi jia you..=D of cz..there is a limit..=x i noe...=D

Birthday song for u...
Happy Birthday to u...
Happy Birthday to u..
Happy Birthday to Jason..
Happy Birthday to u...=D

Make a wish...i will grant it to u...bleah...Jason Korkor...LOL...i remember u said u wanted mi to call u tat a few wks ago..cz u said i nv call u korkor before...bleah...hope u will enjoy urself today ok...=D
Happy Birthday to u...My Bestest wish for u..=D SMILE ALWAY..STAY HAPPY..XD

sry...i didnt have the time...really needa ya understanding...may not be as imp as u used to be...but u r still VERY imp to mi..=D
520..=p

hmmm...nth much happen today...wake up at like 820..drag myself out of the bed for training..=x LOL...lucky i am on time...on the dot..=x LOL... den walking to sch chelle said she not coming but i didnt asked y also...nvm la..=x haha...so many training so ki siao one...=x bleah...every wk like tat go back to train..cadet not sian...i also damn sian...=x haha..=x den later go sch liao...walk to npcc room..it was 859, cadet n nco all still changing den i told the nco to fall in them..den i walked to staffroom to take the key...den change n training ok ok la..not v dead..haha..=x den ermm..nth much lo..train train train sian..after tat went home slp...wake up..do abit this n tat...go bath..den slack here n there den so late le..LOL..=x

pls pls pls hao hao take care of urself...sry for not having time for ya..is really not an excuse tat i am giving u...really needa ya understanding...not taking advantage of it either...pls take care recover fast..don make mi worry for ya...don wanna c u fall sick...sry..un-able to take care of ya..missing ya...hoping to c ya soon..although i dunno when will tat day be...but i am really looking forward for tat day...i will push away everything jz to meet up wif u after my MST wk...believe mi...

i like to c CI take training...they damn zai one...den look v cool..v garang one..haha..=x i will admire them de...haha..=x so zai..so cool..=x haha..i is v long no c in my unit liao..till yesterday when wenbin korkor n william dage came down my unit...haha..=x zai n cool...wo pei fu..x= 3 cheers for the 2 of them..=x haha..

gonna off to chiong to study liao..all the way till i tired le bah..chiong chiong chiong..haha..=x after study till sian le..probably also late liao..go n rest..tml going training again..den either going out or home..but at nite going dinner at pw again...LOL...

hope didi is fine today...maybe feeling better also le bah...jia you..take care bah...maybe u will feel worse after reading again..but nvm..remember i be there for u...JIA YOU...=D SMILE SMILE SMILE...=D

wenbin korkor n banana didi..take care tml for ur sea activities okie..=D

mango off to study n chiong liao..=D

tiring day today...=x LOL... i wanna say a BIG BIG big thx to wenbin korkor and william dage for coming down to my unit to help out today... XIE XIE NI...hmmm...it seems like is they taking training lo..LOL..=x i dunno...is like suddenly npcc got life in our unit again...haha..=x i dunno la..our unit has being like so dead for nearly 1 yr plus liao...bu zhi dao where the source of prob... maybe is really the prob lies within the instructor...i learnt some points for kor n dage also.. they did advise on some points too...anyway really a v big thx to u two..=D xie xie...

bin korkor take training tat time..n when he is himself tat time...WAHH..=x so different leh...LOL..=x haha....i dunno..=x v different lo..his language...haha..=x but nevertheless..still my kor alway..LOL...seen his other side..=x haha.. thx for coming down so early...rest well...=D

william dage....haha..=x ur pharse 'if we walk u run, if we run u fly,if we fly u TELEPORT' LOL...=x xiexie dage for helping mi out today wif the squad... i am sure our cadets enjoyed themselves wif u all lo...

salute wenbin korkor n william dage...=x i hope korkor n dage enjoyed urself today also..=D
i will reflect upon myself...really thx alot..=D

after training went pw... wanted to eat sake sushi buffet but mz wait till 3pm...we is all hungry till wanna die liao..so in the end went eat pasta...haha..v the lame leh..=x no fork...n they need use 10 min to wash the fork..haha..den later i went check have fork...BUT 3 only...LOL..=x haha..den later all our food come liao..haha..den 3 fork i gave bin korkor william dage n chelle meimei to use...i eat using spoon first...LOL....=x haha...lame..den later fork wash finish le den can eat normally liao...den wenbin kor kor is add alot seasoning...=x LOL...n guess wad happen? haha..after eating we sat there chit chat exchange pointers...not consider exchange la...=x is korkor n dage advising...lol..=x den later kor stomache...LOL...x= come to think of it..sometime is really v lame n funny lo...=x haha...alway enjoyed myself when i am wif them...haha..=x haha..i dunno..=x jz funny..LOL..=x

OHYA...today slack inside our npcc room after training also..haha...den later i took bin korkor hp n zi lian..LOL..kor i wan the pic...GIVE MI..=x i is v tired today cz slp for like 1hr 30 min nia..=x haha...power..=x den mz do more rubbish things to keep myself awake..haha..=x den later kor went beach rd..i went home took the same bus wif them..haha..reach home c bed so nice...den slp liao..haha..=x slp slp till ard 8 den wake up..LOL..shuang...=x haha...today is needa burn oil liao..haha...mango JIA YOU...=D tml still have training..sian...can it be wad it is today? i doubt so...but nvm...i will still jia you...thx korkor n dage once again...at least i noe our unit is not hopeless yet...u shown mi the hope in them...=x haha...=D thx thx thx a million thx... haha..=D

didi don be sad..don be stress...jia you...=D jie be here for u alway...haha...
i dare to say...wo fang xia le...

take care recover faster...u wont wan to be sick during the big day do u? haha..bleah...don have to say sry for not having time for mi...i will understand jz like how u understand mi...is ok...cz i noe i am inside ur heart...n u r inside mine...=D do take care...u fall sick cz i didnt take gd care of u...=x take care take care recover fast fast worz..=x

mango off to shower n chiong aHHHHH...=x

sian sian sian..i wanna cry...anyone lend mi ur shoulder? LOL...i thiam my life to make u happy..=x LOL...pharse taken from bin korkor..i realise..i is kena influence by his language liao.. lol..=x sian...later after MST wk..EC i die...kor is ur fault ar...i don care...LOL..=x haha..today blog alot..i is don wan online after i reach home de...but cz of kor...i came online to clear his doubts...so everything should be ok liao...kor happy le hor...i thiam my life to make u happy..LOL... =ppp ok...things i do today...

as post earlier...u all can c tat i woke up early...bored n bo liao...post n upload afew pic also..=x haha..den went out..ya i waited for kelvin..=x but not v long..heng..haha..=x den went wif him all the way to boon lay...den go jp...mich n TPH late..LOL..is we early la..den played 2 rf4...SUX i failed..WTH..=.= nvm..owe kelvin $2...cz today got no small note..=x haha..den later walk ard..den later they come liao..we went fairprice buy somethings..den walk to kelvin hus...LOL..=x go there slack slack..den later listening to pin didi tok..den i fall aslp on his sofa..=x haha..slp for like 30min..i didnt even realise..wake up kena shock..=x haha.. den later i wake up..kelvin go his bed n slp..den nth much..den later i asked kelvin wad is his address..LOL..he woke up blur blur one..said 'i dunno...is near one area but i dunno the name...'LOL...after tat he went back to slp...LOL...haha..lame leh...=.= den later woke him up to do some stuff..den finish le..i asked him again..kelvin wad is ur address..he said so fast la...LOL..den i asked him if he remember jz now he slping i asked him sth...he don remember..=x hahahaha..damn lame la..=x ok..nth much den left the hus at ard 520? when suppose to meet other friend at outrum at like 530? haha..end up we so damn late..haha..=x nvm..den later meet le..go mac eat..haha.. remind mi of tat day when go pa..LOL..=x i tied the same hair style..haha..den went elaine's grandfather funeral...den sit there crap again..den play poker...den LOL...drink 3 cup of 250ml water...1 is cz i lost in the game..the other one is i drink b4 the game started..another one is i drink after the game..LOL...haha..bloated sia..haha..den later eat the food they provided..den slack awhile more den left le..haha..=x went home... i is v the pms...LOL..=x mood swing..maybe cz i am tired le bah..den kor still keep asking..i is v the sian..haha..=x but nvm...all settled liao..FULL STOP..CASE CLOSE rite kor...=x haha..bleah...but u is bluff mi lo..sad-ed...=x haha..

one whole chunk...=x lazy split la...=pp..kor u better tag sth...LOL..=x

when is not fated...is not fated..i am too tired to go against fate...LOL..=x
didi don be sad...JIA YOU...=D

wad is this blog actually for...for u to keep track of wad i am doing...i make it a point to blog so even if i have no time for u...u noe wad i am doing..how i am feeling..=D be happy..smile..=]

IDEAS grp

i dunno y i woke up so early also...jz cant slp lo...sian..later going to kelvin hus to do project..=.= sianed...i dunno y i cant slp...woke up so early la...tell mi y...LOL...i dunno...haha..=x still feeling sort of sian...i don have time to study liao...shit lo...i duno how...v depress liao... AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.....i don like the feeling of being unprepared... sad...i don wanna screw up my consider first test in poly....tat sux..=.= haiz...got to pull myself together...to get started to study liao...i don wanna have any more distraction...NO MORE...

i wanna study study study study study...mango depressed...sob sob...si liao...i is feel like crying...i is going to break down liao..haiz...T.T

everyone is equally imp to mi...i noe kor is understand mi de rite...XD

those feeling are fading away...jz wanna be wad we r now...i don wanna spoil the friendship..i learnt my lesson..

i will love my dear...wei yi yi ge...

MANGO JIA YOU....XD

wad a day today..=.= sian-ed...currently still in shock...WTH la...shock for wad...i type out the whole event for today first...ok...

slp at 6 woke up at 1...spnpcc starts at 1...so wake up le..don plan to go liao..bin mouth everytime damn zhun one..=.= LOL...den wanted to meet didi de...cz he coming to east area ma..LOL..=x ok...den later settle like don wan go sp le..den later bin reminded mi tat he help mi bring a book..den i OHYA...cannot cannot mz go down liao...cannot let him bring the book for nth...LOL..den i straight away go bath took a cab..rush down...$12 sianed...den when i in cab didi msg-ed said he finish liao..i diao~~~~ haha...den he wanted to go dover but in the end also nv...when is not fated...mean not fated one..haha...=x den later reach sp..i duno how to go clubhus...LOL..=x den chelle came n fetch mi...=x den went clubhus..i dunno wad is the objective of the meeting also...haha..tok so much end up nth to done.=.= SIANED but nvm...den bring one chicken wing also..LOL...end up give chelle eat..haha...

den later as planed went to marina sq meet up wif my classmate n ate at seoul...haha...didnt eat much la.i duno...too lazy to cook n eat..=x den nth much sat down there n tok abt ghost story n stuff..=.= sian...i is feeling scare lo...=x LOL... den later went arcade...sian-ed also...play n play...den i jz c only..den later called didi tok to him awhile...haha..but is didnt tok much also one..=x den later walk to city hall took train wif kelvin den nth much...den meeting him tml at kallang to go boon lay..haha..=x kelvin..u better don make mi wait for u...=x HAHAHA..=x den ok...drop at kallang wait for bus...den go home...i go inside lift wif another couple la..den later suddenly got one malay guy walk in also...so nvm..didnt think much..den later the couple leave the lift..den left mi n tat malay guy..den later...reach my floor liao..i go out..den suddenly the malay guy leave also...WTH...ask mi wad this place is...=.= i is WTH tot aiya nvm..maybe visit friend..den later ask..i jz wanna be friend wif u..=.= i is WTH liao...den ask mi i how old..wanted to lie but didnt..den later ask mi study where..i fake him lo...siao..=x den keep asking wanna be friend anot...i keep saying don wan..den said later bf angry..LOL..=x hahaha..i is really kena shock like siao la...den later i jz said don wan..den i turn n go off liao..sian dao~~~nvm...den now feel even more =.= after wad kor told mi...LAGGI more sian..=.= HAIZ...=.= WTH...life sux la...=.=

sian-ed...whole of july kena eaten by SOO training...and preparing for ATC..T.T haizzz...jz now was on phone wif him...den should be meeting him later which is on mon..but in the end nv..cz go for spnpcc meeting..den also cz at nite needa go celebrate mich birthday...haha..so nvm bah...den our timetable totally crush...sob sob...v the sad...whole of july...after tat HAIZ...when am i gonna be free n have time for myself n him...n for my friends too...sob sob..=x life sux..its so sucky la... wad to do wad to do wad to do....

MST wk coming..but still struck in no where...HOW~~~~

i am stress..STRESS STRESS.....T.T
i wanna shout out LOUD~~~~

wo ming bai le..liao jie le...zhi dao le...but nth can be done...NTH... lets jz be wad we r now..=D

don wanna hurt my dear anymore....sry for not having time for ya...i hope u will understand...=D

LOL...new blogskin..haha..=x no songs now..happy? =x haha.. =p better take care hor..ah bo i don wan go out wif u le...=p haha..=x

yesterday studied n went out wif wenbin korkor..kiathong didi...theng jie...william dage...haha...i dunno y we meet up yesterday also..fun? maybe? sian..OF CZ...LOL..haha...kor n di hor..tok tat time forever is got !@#$@ come out de...baddie..=x haha..but i alway enjoys myself when i am wif them..haha..bleah...=x yesterday we met at city hall..dunno go there do wad also..den later go look for my sista...den tok to her abit..den later ermm..keep standing at a place to decide where to go..haha..=x...di keep wanted to eat steamboat..kor keep don wan to eat steamboat...LOL..haha..x= kor is wan go ecp cycle...di is don wan go there cycle...cz later too late...LOL..=x haha..=x haha..so end up walking to suntec..i went to play rf4..=x skill drop like siao..miss those day playing n learning wif ping..i wonder how much we spent for tat last time..=x LOL =x haha...

den after tat william dage came find us..den we eat at pepper lunch..n banana didi n wenbin korkor..nv heard of tat b4...n i realise banana didi don like eating beef either..=x haha... den after eating..we went citylink sit sit..den tok..banana didi tired..so he closed his eye n listen..=x den i was sian-ed..so i wanna take a pic of myself...but my hp cam position capture mi n didi together...LOL...not tou pai hor...=x is angle wrong..haha..bleah..=x our head both resting on the same metal bar...don wu hui...don jealous either...=x den later we move to another place sit n tok till ard 1138 den left to city hall to catch last train..haha...bleah...den went home...study abit...tok to didi...den later tok to korkor..den go slp liao...haha...toked to him too..LOL...=x nth much of a day bah...

ohya...uncle kai msg msg mi last nite too..=D haha..kai shushu don worry...i will try to study one..=pp..=x bleah...hope to cya soon...=D

sian..no time to study le la...zz...nx wk plans
18/6/06 - study den out?
19/6/06 - project?
20/6/06 - SOO training den out?
21/6/06 - SOO training den study?
22/6/06 - SOO training den meeting?

lol..sian..i need more time time time..=x

those bit n bit of feelings fading away...converting it to others...friend always...=D

sometime i don noe wad u r thinking...tired of guessing n thinking...y wont u jz tell mi...wad the hell r u thinking..a person patience has its limit...don expect mi to do things for u till tat extend...cz i WONT...

today nth much happen...woke up...online awhile...went out for meeting...i dunno wad is the purpose of the meeting either..LOL..=x haha..sian sian one...after meeting...ermm..went pw...bought something...i hope i wont regret? LOL..=x n mi n chelle spend 2 hrs plus doing sth...LOL..patience~~~~...do till damn ZzZZz..but still finish in the end...haha...=x not as easy as it seems to be...LOL...=pppp haha..den went for dinner den went back home..alrdy so late le..after this post..i gonna study n rest...haha...nth much bah...

i wonder if kai shushu come back le ma..haha..=ppp haven seen him online..LOL...

i let no one step in...only u...no one gonna step in..=ppp...haha...

smile smile more more...better be smiling when u reading this..=D

mango off to study..=x LOL

sian sian...fang xia..fang xia...fang xia...fang xia...it all takes time...LOL...too bored n tired le...haha..=x i wanna SLP SLP SLP...=x haha...=x

MZ STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY STUDY...i will ok..n i MZ..=x going for area meeting soon liao...sian-ed...

tired tired tired...jz came back from vivo duty...sian...take charge...LOL..can die..=x but at least it was a learning experience for mi...but bad timing...blur n confuse...couldnt give instruction properly...sian sian...my mind arent working today...tired...is only a day taking charge of this minior event n i can go KO liao..wad more abt being a CC...wahh...sian...i dunno..reallly not having confident liao...but still i will JIA YOU...i will still try to do my best..n give my best...
area meeting tml..sian again...maybe gonna read up some past yr atc proposal..if i have the energy to do so...waiting for chelle to send in the proposal too...cfm is damn tired one.. go out for awhile only..sian..should i go out n study after or b4? lol..c how first bah..i think i will be too tired to do it...LOL...

today duty at vivo..=.= no comment..gd thing is tat i have echo ppl to crap n lame ard..haha..

sry sry sry..tons of sry to u too...i didnt handle it well enough...i am tired..so many things has happen in the past few days...i could hardly have any gd slp..sry...is not tat i didnt care..is jz tat so many thing jz happen...things to face n so on n on...everything is choking mi down...i jz wanna have some air...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH..shout out loud....LOL..=x
sry..but pls don treat mi this way...it hurts...i jz hope..we still can be friends...u as my kor...

jz now downstair my hus.. i met my sista...she asked mi if i wann go clubbing...LOL...in fact when i at vivo i tot of calling her to ask her if she going clubbing tonite anot..den i wanna tag along...LOL...should have called man..=x haha..but i rejected her...i told her i was too tired to go liao...haha...TIRED ar...=x haha..should have called her when i at vivo man...LOL..=x but nvm..i will have my chance..=x haha..nx time i will go..haha..=x

sry echo ppl for this result of the duty...but nevertheless...i still hope all for u enjoy the duty despite the long standing hrs n patrolling ard vivo..thx for helping out ya...how often do u all get to wear full uni..eat n walk n tour ard vivo city..LOL..=x haha...n sry...i will feedback to jocyln mdm abt this too...
n pls don misunderstand...yes i do noe jocyln mdm thr my HO...i am jz helping her out tat all...haha...

my mind totally switch off when the duty ends..i dunno is how many nites tat i didnt slp well liao...LOL..of all thing kena gastic too...sian...but nvm..is all over...i learnt..i jz got to be firm...

wo hui ba ni fang xia...

sry... i wont leave u anymore..

mango damn tired...I WANNA HAVE A GD NITE SLP!!!!

hmm...wad to say...my words for u...i am sry...sry for breaking ur heart...sry for hurting u...sry for not taking gd care of ya...sry sry sry for everything...action speak louder den words...i will prove it to u...tat i have woken up...=x trust mi...
our path carry from this v moment all over again..not on 8 july...i cant promise u..but i will try my best not to hurt u anymore...don be hurt..don be sad..cz i will be able to feel it...i wont be evil..wont be mean..wont be selfish again..believe mi...


my words for him...u didnt noe i was toking abt u all along...we didnt contact much either...u don have time for mi alrdy...it was my foolish n sillyness...everything is gonna end... THE END...no more...u didnt c mi..u couldnt c mi at all..
cz of ya..i couldnt c my dear for a moment...but now i really have woken up...i will no longer c ya...
thx for all the memories u gave mi..it is sweet n bitter...i will remember and keep it somewhere...tat is all..1M13D FULL STOP....


i noe my focus..wad i wan n wad i don...no more of a bgr problems...i gonna to have 2 main things to do now... my study...MST wk coming..NPCC stuff...ATC n SOO...tat all...n of cz he will alway be keep inside my heart..

sry orange jiejie..i noe my mistake...

going vivo for duty later...sry echo ppl for i wont be meeting u all at je...sry ppl...i wanna get a little more rest...

mango sign-ing off...DEAD TIRED...

u didnt noe..u couldn't c mi at all...but is all gonna end from now on...

didnt slp much last nite...woke up early by a call from the red cross side...den started calling afew ppl but to no reply...den i jz gave her a number of 28 ppl...LOL...=x sian..

yesterday 12th of june...i went to vivo city..to do project...LOL...damn mood swing also..sry to my grp member..den moon n elaine damn high together...i dunno y..haha..=x den later i recieve a call n i needa my lappy to start mass calling ppl..but i am outside..n big thx to bin korkor...cz he helped mi...=D lol..den i didnt really care abt the project..LOL..but i did try to help abit here n there...which mean my hp bill will bao more this mth..so i should try to sms lesser n call lesser... lesser gd nite msges to ppl..LOL...=x

den after project he came n find mi..we went dinner..shop shop...c some stuff...n so on..haha..great nite..i told him everything...but i didnt end our nite as a gd one...i dunno..somehow..i jz needa sort all my tots n feeling...i wanna give him my 100% but now i cant...he showed mi sth yesterday too...a thing tat i almost forget abt it...i am sry....is sth from mi to him yrs ago...i started tearing as i go thr it...is sth tat no matter how much money u have...also wont be able to buy...it is filled wif my love..my care my misses n everything for him...is all inside it...is priceless..
i started asking if is it tat i don love him as much as last time...or is it tat last time i was too innocent...i dunno...all i noe is tat i still love him...i wanna give him all tat i have...

i am gonna return to u...to start a new path wif ya...8 of july...i will give u my 100%....

I FORGET STH IMP...=x

Mr Chin Liat...happy 19th Birthday to u...haha..honour har...i wrote a post to wish u a V V V happy birthday to u..=D haha..bleah..

can u feel my wish for u?

haha...hope u will enjoy ur birthday...cya k...present give u some other time..haha..bleah...=x

enjoy enjoy..one yr older le...ur last teen le..haha..smile more..enjoy urself more..n of cz..study hard too..=D

To Siew Wen,

A chatty girl whom everyone loves. Daydream at times, energetic when not. Love for NPCC which is not constand but strong.
You have grown from been a cadet -> NCO -> CI. I hope you could excel in you cadet inspectorship.
All the best in everything you do!

All the best with sincere wishes
P/H/INSP Hong Guan

My HO words for mi...LOL..=x

wad a day today..i didnt study much? sigh..i dunno how..gonna plan my timetable n make sure i better study sth le...went for meeting...ATC unit meeting...as a CC i dunno if i really able to do it anot..i have no confident in myself...i realise many things today...my jie knock the sense out of mi...

U said those things that makes mi feels tat i really did let u down...i am sry i neglected u...
when u asked mi...will i ever leave u....i couldnt give u an ans...i dunno y..i noe u r hurt..yet i jz pretend i didnt noe...i am sry..i really do let u down...i am trying to mend things back....is time for mi to wake up..n do sth alrdy...JIA YOU


u r so alike to him...maybe tat was the reason y i fall for...but is all gonna stop from now on...cant carry on any longer...do remember to take gd gd care...cant be there for u anymore...but my support will alway be there for u...remember tat..ok =D


i wanna do sth to change the present...
i don wanna hurt u anymore...i will mend things back the way it should be...great thx to my orange jie jie..=D
i wont neglect u anymore...i will try my best not to...

gonna be busy for the nx two day...maybe uncontactable unless imp issuse...sry ppl..i got some imp stuff to settle...=p

last but not least...bin kor kor asked mi to post abt him..haha...so a short one for ya..=D

korkor is a v loyal guy..haha...gd n great...haha...=ppp kor mz rest n recover faster ok...until now still coughing..haha..slp early..have enough rest..=D take care take care..=D
korkor alway like to say he got no money one...dunno real or fake also..haha..bleah...=x haha..meimei wanna go off liao...=ppp

mango sign-ing off...

Things i do when i sad

• eat damn spicy stuff - it makes mi cry
• put on make-up b4 going out
• eat all sort of rubbish food
• stone-ing
• crying
• to be alone

i am sry i didnt handle the issuse welll enough n end up in this situtation...pls don be hurt...i will feel the pain in u...don carry on...wish to go back to wad we use to be...but i noe is impossible...jz let those memories accompany us thr...i am sry kor...

1mth10days all the memories stay wif mi...i will keep it deep inside mi...buried inside..hidden inside...where noone will noe..noone can c..

baddie mango...

i shed tat tears for ya...not anyone else...but u didnt noe at all...

how did i let myself ended up in such a state...i dunno either....

i wish my tears for ya will be dry..OUCH OUCH OUCH...

at first tml plan was to go study at sch den head down to pw for meeting...but seems like having a slight change..instead of going to study maybe i be going down to HTA for lmsc den leave at ard 3 or 4 to head down for meeting..but i dunno can leave anot...dunno go there do wad also...y did i go in the end? cz everyone flys bin korkor kite....n those kuku cannot make up their mind n make mi freaking pissed off now...n in the end..conclusion..ALL NOT GOING? left wif kh? dunno..don wish to noe either...but i am not going...sigh-ing...
i have tons of words to say to u..but each time i jz said the otherwise...i dunno y....i am sry....

sigh-ing...cant think of anythings to blog...haiz~~~~

needa start mugging for nearly 3 wks, MST wk in jz 2 wk time...

25/6/07 - Econs Paper
26/6/07 - Statistic Paper
27/6/07 - Accounting Paper
28/6/07 - ITAB ICA
29/6/07 - MOB Paper

School Official Opening Ceremoney Parade intensive training

20/6/07 from 9 to 12
21/6/07 from 9 to 12
22/6/07 from 9 to 12 n unit meeting after tat
26/6/07 from 3 to 530
27/6/07 from 3 to 530
28/6/07 from 3 to 530 (first combine rehearsal)
03/7/07 from 3 to 530
04/7/07 from 3 to 530 (combine rehearsal)
06/7/07 from 3 to 530
09/7/07 from 3 to 530
11/7/07 from 3 to 530
12/7/07 from 3 to 530
16/7/07 from 3 to 530
18/7/07 from 3 to 530
20/7/07 - THE BIG DAY

so many training, i doubt i can make it back everyday...

beside the MST wk, SOO, planning for ATC also in progress n i am the camp coor for the sec 2...which mean more responsiblilty, more job...haiz...am i able to do it? i hope so...gonne try my best to do my best and make sure things go the way it should be....

ATC - 27 to 29 July 07

wif so many things to do n so little time...i am feeling tired...

gonna quite busy for the nx one mth or so...i don wan any more distraction...cz i noe i wont be able to take it anymore...

missing,caring,thinking...but u didnt realise...
at least i noe i have the memories to move on wif mi...sigh...

i am sry...i cant give u wad u gave mi...u didnt wan mi to let go...i am trying hard to hold on...but it hurts when i noe i didnt have time for u...

my first post in this blog... first blog that i gonna let ppl noe...LOL..

took mi quite some time to get this blog done...haha...i too noob le..=x

one day, i will change the blog address...