tutorial now..super sian...XD n ya..super cold too...today no jacket...LOL..XD so decided to upload some ATC pic...XD random pick..XD

mango loves him...XD

don say u like someone when u cant love the someone...
don say u love someone when u don mean it...

6:18pm

we start 3 yrs ago...wif u alway helping mi n guilding mi...showing mi care n concern..worried for mi...but those i didnt realise all along..jz like how u didnt realise i fall for u..years ago...XD u taught mi..guild mi thr alot of things...help mi wadever i needa help..i fall for ya...years ago...even until now...i am still loving u..XD
wad will happen if u leave mi down here once again...overheard u on the phone..i noe u be leaving for sure...=( i will be left here all alone once again..=( the tot of tat makes mi feel like tearing... holding back my tears...cz i didnt wan u to be in a difficult position..but i noe..my tears sure will drop again jz like afew yrs ago..when u left...haizzz...am i still able to wait for ya..to be back by my side once again...=( i dunno...all i noe is tat i love u...i don wish for ya to leave..but u have to...i cant hold u back n ask u not to leave...trying not to be sad...trying to be strong once again...but i don wish to...=( i jz wanna be a normal ger..wif u beside mi...i love u..only u...
being able to love u..to be beside u..is my bless...i nv once regret being wif u..XD

8:02pm

back from camp..XD LOL....super tired... ok...after all the end-less meeting...planning...worrying..LOL..is finally over..ok..now let mi concentrate on my studies le... lagging super far behind...XD

ok...for the camp..seriously...i learn alot of things..true enough learning experience..haha...XD
i realised alot things too...XD
will use this new experience to be a better instructor..to noe how to handle situation better...XD

for the camp to run as it is...really should thx my area CIs...those senior in guilding mi..helping mi...advising mi...3 cheer for all of them...XD

the first day of camp...quite cock up...so so so far behind schedule...but for second day..ok..not too bad...everything is in place...XD n third day...we r at first ahead of time...n den later sth really pissed mi off la...super not happy lo...but nvm lo..so be it lo...

ya...wenbin..i didnt forget abt u..LOL...thx for helping out in the kayaking activities too..LOL...XD n so last min..drag so many ppl too..xie xie ni...if not..i sure dunno how to find ppl le..XD haha...3 cheers~~~ =x paiseh lo...only 1 CAN OF cold pineapple..LOL..better den nth la..haha..XD n u got cut for one can of pineapple too..=x nx time carefull la...XD

CCHY CIs.....Jian Boon Sir....Xie xie ni..XD

KiatHong Didi...LOL....although u is help out in rafting which is not under my control...n u is injure yet i still run to find my first aider for u..although u is under HQ de...LOL..=x but is happen at my controlled campsite...so i should be responsible for it too...XD LOL...take care..

Finally...mango going off...XD she wan her bed...=x
3:36pm

=( super tired...LOL...tonite tml nite n tml tml nite...sure no gd slp de..XD haha..=x ok..haven been blogging...cz as u ppl noe...ATC...this wkend...which is tml..sat n sun...N guess wad? =x i have a MAJOR IDEAS presentation nx wed...n a TEN TOPIC test on friday...LOL...mango = KO..sure die till gao gao de...XD LOL...

past few days time pass v fast...u noe... IDEA presentation which mean more grp meeting...n i is really wanna die...spliting myself into 2...i got to focus on this two...

hey..ATC = an area issue...include EIGHT SCH...wif abt 150 plus campers on my side...is sth tat i have to plan n making sure nth goes wrong ok...if u think tat it is not imp..i tell u..**** OFF la... don come n bother mi...i am still so noob in all this issue lo...is not like as if i like it this way..i wan it this way..wif all many last min issue...=( ya..probably jz blame it on my in-capable...=( i am still learning ok...my first ATC as an instructor...haizzz...hu can understand lo...everyone looking at mi...waiting for mi to make decision..=.= decide on issue..all the so senior CI looking at mi...HAIZ.. how much pressure there is lo...=( u ppl wont understand...so don think tat it is not imp ok...don show mi tat attitude of urs...cz i have mine too... if u not happy so be it...don mean i have to give up for u ppl...arggg...wadever~~~~

ya...one issue cock up one after another...SUX...is not sth i wan ok... expecting alot hip-up thr'out the whole camp...deeply sry for the instructors..ESP those in my unit..cz i didnt arrow out..end up...is our unit bao finish...yet i cant assign job for myself...HAIZZZ...yes..i be evil...i be evil mango...HAIZ..how to do briefing...HOW~~~~ wad if my voice is not loud enough..WAHHH..KO la...=( so many things...i have no confident..i am afriad...but still have to put up a strong front..to overcome all this...it hide it...n not show ppl...i have to be make sure the camp run well..to put in my best effort for it...ppl if u all don appreciate i am fine wif it BUT DON SAY I DIDNT DO ANYTHING..cz i am trying ok...=(

v emotional now..XD HAIZ..mango pull urself together and jia you bah..XD GO GO JIAYOU... do ur best..put in ur best...yesh...i can do it...(i hope so) =x

SUPER SUPER BIG BIG THX TO WENBIN .. XD yes...he is helping mi wif alot of stuff..ya..will treat him better too..million of thx to him..XD

i am sry...i noe..i neglected u totally..i am sry...really need ur understand..i am sry...i truely am...will u forgive mi? not having time for ya...i am sry...forgive mi...i wanna spend time wif ya too...but sry...i cant...too many things...wish for ya understanding...forgive mi...is not tat i only look for u cz i am bored...don misunderstand...u r alway inside my mind...my heart...yue liang wo...XD

mango evil..XD
6:59pm

dui bu qi...=( yes...it was all my fault...can i still mend things back the way it should be? wadever tat u r feeling..i could feel it...i understand...i noe...it is my fault...it all started becz of mi...i am the cause of everything...=(

i love u..but i dunno wad am i suppose to do now....

ni kuai le ma?
i cant feel ur happiness...

i noe..i be hurting u again...silly tot run thr...should i let go...tell mi...how to let u be happy once again...to have the smile n laugher u use to have...not jz the surface smile...=(

sry...i noe..i cant give u wad i used to give u anymore....u felt tat...

XD mango v happy today...cz i get to meet my dear...XD haha...but my ear kena pulled by him too...=( LOL..cz he said i didnt drink enough water..LOL...BLEAH~~~~ he is 24/7 love to bully mi one...XD and 24/7 loved to be bullied by me..XD mango is bless to have him...so she will learn to treasure him more too..XD

today i should be at jp library at 1130..LOL..but end up i woke up at like ermm..11..=x HAHA...so end up reaching jp at 115 bah..ard tat time...XD den do project..tok abt our product..so on n stuff..ya...HO called too..toked to him for nearly an hrs...haizzz...den later left jp at abt 615..XD haha...

didnt wanna blog today but my dear tempted mi to do so...XD LOL~~~~~

OHYA...guess wad...today my dear said tat i am TOO FAT~~~~ HUMPX =( he is damn bad rite...where got bf will like tat say their gf one...but i still love him to the max~~~~ =x haha..he keep asking mi go exercise wif him...XD so he got more chance to bully mi..XD

today post is v special to mi..XD

i got SOO PIC le..XD upload it another time...XD

Wenbin korkor...XD wanna thx him for alway listening to my prob thr the past few wk...n specially the past few days..XD kor is the best...XD

Wanna wish jeremy a happy birthday too...although i forget abt it..till evening...SRY~~~~ =x ya still wish ya all the best...JIAYOU...XD make a wish..i grant it for ya...XD

Banana didi...XD jiayou...such things i wont be able to teach u de la...XD use ur feeling...

chiong econs le..GO GO...XD

10:18pm / 10:53pm(missing ya...)

haizzzz...moody again...dunno wanna go till so far later anot...v sian leh....i jz feel like staying at home to study..to stone...don have those mood to go out n play..don ask mi y...but i jz don have the mood to do so...tired bah..i wanna slp slp slp~~~~ mango mood swing..

ping didnt replied to my sms last nite...wonder how is she..feel like looking for her...haizzz...

it seem like i am happy...yet i am not...haizzz..i is wanna die le la...bu zhi dao...=(

do u still trust mi as much as u use to trust mi? somehow...i feel different...i cant feel u at times.. cant feel the trust u use to have in mi...=(
sry...i noe it was my fault...to break the trust u used to have in mi...
breaking it for someone hu didnt even realise i once exist...dui bu qi...
if i can turn back time once again...i wont do the same thing again...i will treasure u more...
at least u gave mi my chance...for mi to turn back...to give mi the chance to carry on love-ing u...
i mend things back..although crack lines can be seen...i will fill those line wif love..to cover it up..XD give mi the chance to do so...
sry..i brought this issue up again...cz yesterday...i was toking to someone...similar problem..but no matter how hard he tried to mend things back...his gf refuse to trust him back once again...i am lucky...lucky to have u...i was foolish to tot of giving u up...
loving u more each day....XD

my final words for him...
i put down everything....i will not bother abt u...will not do anything..will jz treat u as a friend of mine...will not let u distract mi anymore...will not bother doing anything for u alrdy...i will jz treat u like my friend...a friend of mine...nth more den tat..NO MORE..no longer...for ya..i cant c my dear for a moment...but thr ya...i realise how imp my dear is to mi..how much he meant to mi...hey...don regret one day...treasure her...be gd to her...don let another party enter the world of the both of u...wish ya all the best in ur new relationship..take care...i will disappear from then...1mth13days everything ended ever since tat day...

5:16pm


mango super tired..ok my hp bill boom again..LOL $99.80 LOL..=x sms 2152 msges..LOL..mango KO...mother kp le..XD last mth sms 2100 plus...the mth b4 last 2500 plus plus...LOL...siao le la...=x i didnt even realise i sms so much lo...XD haha...how come will msg till so many..i dunno how i did it also de..LOL...=x

ok...waste of time...haizzz...the sec 3 ownself go call for unit atc meeting to tok abt campfire performance...without informing instructor/teacher..but inform the cadets..=.= WTH...den i called OC to inform him..sux lo..den i went down today to sch..to so called look after them..den the sch wanna close le...den they move to kallang mac..=.= aiya..WTH...end up is like nth is done? mon meeting up again..kaozzz..really waste time sia....haizzz...

mango wanna c firework..=(
no money... no honey... nobody loves mi.. =x (wenbin korkor wanna say i steal his pharse again le..XD)
mango lonely.....=(

XD...jz reach home...haha..i realise i haven been spend much money this wk...LOL..=x which mean gd la...can save more $$...hehe..=x

ok...today i skip lecture AGAIN...LOL..slp damn early today..LOL...early morning...=x i missed the whole topic lecture...LOL...=x mango gonna be dead shit...XD but sometime i feel i go also no use...cz i wont listen to her also...LOL...i don noe wad the hell she toking abt also...=x mango notti le...XD

went for MOB...den IDEAS? lol..i didnt realise today is actually our last lesson wif our IDEAS teacher...XD..haha..x= ya..he treat us PIZZA...LOL...$60 over...XD haha...den after tat went library study...LOL...nth go in la...den went for accounting test..LOL...is a killer paper..KO~~~~ lol..dunno how to do..anyhow anyhow try n error...LOL...cant balance..i noe i is do wrong le..cz hor..i dunno which item under which account..LOL..i c the Q first thing...SHIT LA...WTH...ACCRUED IS WAD..PREPAID IS WAD...MZ MINUS ANOT..LOL..=x lol..i dunno y...but i jz KO lo..den moon was beside mi..he is no better den mi either...LOL....we both jz tried our best to write sth on the paper...LOL...ya..moon lag la he...when cher said left 15min...he wait for like 10s later den said...HUH..LEFT 15MIN!!!!! LOL..=x lame...n he said **** not v loud..but loud enough for ppl ard him to hear...haha..=x den i jz replied him ya...den i laughed...haha..we siting quite close la...could jz c his paper actually but no point cz he dunno..n i dunno too...LOL... during the paper we did communicate abit too..cz he look at mi..i was like..stare-ing at the paper..dunno how to start...LOL..XD sucky paper la...sure KO le...hope a pass will do...XD

tat is more or less like tat for the day only bah...went home after tat of cz...XD

it has been nearly 3 wk since i last saw ya...=( missing ya..AHHHHHHHH...when u free..i am not...when i am free u r not...ARGGG... haizzzz.....=(

TML 20/07/07 is our unit BIG BIG DAY...finally...XD SOO PARADE~~~~ haha...
SAT 21/07/07 gonna mug for econ test...haizzz....
SUN 22/07/07 going to JP library to do IDEAS project..=(
MON 23/07/07 ECON TEST...
TUES 24/07/07 meeting up wif HO
WED 25/07/07
THURS 26/07/07
FRI to SUN 27/07/07 to 29/07/07 ATC going to be over-the-sea...XD

IDEAS project due nx nx wk...haizzz...=.= last presentation on IDEAS le bah..XD

oinkster wenbin korkor...LOL...XD

mango KO~~~~~ XD
8:52pm

she feel like crying...yet happy...she is crazy...having such mix feeling...but had to put up a strong front...cz she cant collapse at this point of time...she is happy for ya...but sad cz u r gone....she maybe saying it does not matter..but actually it does... she give u her best wishes cz she noes u r happy...n tat is all she wans from u...she jz needa noe tat u r doing fine...jz wanna keep herself updated wif ya life...but she noe she wont be given the chance to do so anything...cz u r gone...gone far away...
i be there to support ya..jiayou ok...pull urself together...i am here for u...no point holding onto things tat r not fated to be urs...XD

today boring day...quite cock up la...cz go training den attendance like shit... den is like wet weather programmed..aiya..bu zhi dao...screw up la...ask OC print idenmity form..end up..went sch he left le...den form nv print..=.= WTH la...sian..zz..den ok..went mac..den later beach rd to buy gloves...XD haha...more or less la...tat is all..XD

ohya..i haven study for accounting test...XD haha..=x tml gd luck to mi le bah...XD

mango is happy...XD cz she have her dear...her friends...orange jiejie..wenbin korkor...theng jie n so on n on..XD

mango off to eat...shower...nap? no time la..den study..CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG...XD

sian..so tired...XD nth much of a day to share...jz slp wake up..stupid..slp also mother make so much nosiy..=( cz was slping on her bed.. aiya...lame de la...den brota also don wan study...he die his problem la...he happy can liao lo..since he think he so power so pro..don need to study..den gd lo...i got no energy to bother abt him now...bloody stress out...=(

ATC all needa be upload by tues...i did nth..the pre-camp briefing n stuff...so i don upload tat..the unit CI got nth to brief on their cadets...so cannot last min also...AHHHHH...first thing i said to HO when he tok to mi online...'yesh? i am stress out alrdy..pls don give mi any more work..' LOL...den jz nice...after i replied..my senior tok to mi too...the first thing i said..'yesh? i haven touch any of the ATC stuff yet..' LOL... haizzz...toking to them make mi feel laggi more depress...=(

WED...mango = dead...i think i wont be able to handle alone la..=( siao..take parade...plus doing the ATC admin stuff..sure KO de lo...den thurs got TEST somemore..OMG...=( i wanna die le...sob sob..haiz..life sux sux sux...MANGO STRESS OUT...=( YAY...i shall KO b4 my camp starts...LOL...wahahahahaha...XD

nearly 8 n i haven eat my dinner..OHYA..my face look damn tired too le...=( eye ring..OMG la...eye bag is only a matter of time liao..=(

OINK-ER OINKSTER OINK-ER OINK~~~~~ LOL..=x

oink-er oinkster oink-er oink~~~~ LOL...

i am out of ur world n life long ago alrdy...i should have accpet it..i noe it..zai bu xiang..there is nth i can do also le...i will disappear..n only appear when u needed mi...the memories...is short yet sweet....wo fang kai le shou you....XD

banana didi..jie jie zhu ni xin fu kuai le...XD mz be happy worzzzz...XD

don say u love someone when u don mean it...
don tell the person u like them when u cant love them..
i learnt my lesson...

MANGO PULL URSELF TOGETHER...JIAYOU JIAYOU JIAYOU...GO..GO...GO...
MANGO GO...MANGO GO...MANGO GO GO GO!!!!!!
*3321*520*
time 8:04 / 10:51pm

currently online chatting wif bin korkor n eating chips..LOL...suddenly jz feel like eating..=x haha...

xin qing abit down...but still have to pull myself together to go study n do tutorial later...=( bo bian..MANGO JIA JIA YOU~~~

i noe u r tired le..sick n tired of hearing mi saying all this to u...repeating myself wif the same things...so u rather jz don do anything...but to be there watching over mi...i didnt said anything...but don mean tat i didnt understand...i noe..i understand..u didnt wan to add more problems, troubles n stress to mi...u wanna help mi..but u didnt noe how to help mi...all i can is..i am sry sry n more sry to u...u didnt wan mi to be worried for u...u jz wan mi to be happy...to not be stress...i noe...i am trying to too...but i cant...wif ATC..SOO...TEST and Projects... haiz....bu zhi dao....don wanna let go...don let go too..jz one more mth...go thr it together ok...XD

wishing ya all the best....i am jz nth to ya...in the past...present... n future...i am nth...i shall be nth for now n forever...all the best..jia you bah...XD

mango off to study...clear tutorial...study for test...XD
5:20pm

YAY~~~3cheers for jeremy...HEHE..xie xie ni for helping mi out..n giving mi all the information...XD LOL...i don hate u le...LOL...3cheers for ya..XD

today is uncle chin birthday le...LOL...HAPPY BIRTHDAY...=D alothugh i am not the first one to wish u..but...i hope tat u could feel my wish for ya..XD haha...enjoy urself today ok...XD

remembered the nitewalk...LOL...is a v v v memorable nitewalk..haha..wif my 2 uncles...XD it was raining...n dark n scary..LOL..=x once in a life time walk bah..XD haha..water lvl till knee there...XD slopoe...mi n uncle chin slip..but uncle kai didnt..cz uncle chin informed him abt the slope but he too slow..i too fast..so i slip le den he told mi..LOL..=x haha..bleah...tat nite..i wont forget...XD

feeling better le..mean can do work le..XD hehe..=x big thx to jeremy bah...XD n today is chin shushu birthday..so mz be happy also..haha...XD

i noe...i am out of ur life alrdy...u will no longer turn back to take a look..or even realise i was standing there..once looking at ya....but it does not matter anymore...zhu ni xin fu kuai le...

in the end...i msg-ed him first...XD

=( haizzz...today went for area meeting...should reach by 10 i woke up at 915..=( den woke up rush rush den went for meeting le..not v late bah...ermm..den dunno go down so early for wad...cz only ard 12 like tat den is the actual start la...=.= aiya..all this i sian1/2 to type le..but ya..woodland ring will be joing our area for atc..=.= haizz...currently waiting for nominal to be in.. =.= without nominal roll...i cant do anything..=.= ok..at first dunno hu to contact from the woodland ring sec..but i asked from gao ming cz since he from area 1 de...n he happen to be like some sort helping out in the unit de..so it makes things easier le...n the contact he gave mi is my atc grp mate too...so i hope things will be easier to work out now le bah..XD

i dunno wad else i have to do...abit blur n lost during the meeting today...but i think now should be ok..more or less the skelton it done alrdy...jz waiting for nominal roll b4 i can actually do or plan for anything else le bah...

although is 7788 le..but i still not feeling any better...i slept from like 4 to 7 plus plus... it was damn shuang...haha..=x

haven contact him so far since last nite the msg i sent him b4 i slp..=( haizz...i dunno..maybe one day i may regret...but i hope i wont...he probably be waiting...but i jz didnt contact him today yet...don ask mi y...but i jz didnt..n he didnt contact mi either...probably be waiting..=( haizzz.. i noe he understands mi...but i changed...i noe he could tell tat too...ever since i enter-ed poly..tons of things going on...no longer like secondary sch...at first it was...but as time goes by... it was not anymore..i don have time...plus SOO n atc happen to fall so near to each other..a different by a wk...wif our unit as Camp coor...as mi taking up the role...n is also jz happen tat is so near to test n exams too...my time became so tight...i could hardly breathe anymore...i have no air...each time u tried to contact mi...my attitude towards u is gd n bad...causing u to be hurt n feel sad...it was not my intention but somehow i jz did it...i noe i said b4..i wont neglect u..wont be selfish..wont be mean..will try not to hurt u...but all this i am jz doing it again...i throw my temper at u...showing u attitude...when u tried to console mi, show care n concern...i shut u off.. yes..i noe i am evil...i am sry...i am sry..sry..sry..is all i said to u....=(
when u r free..i arent..but when i have the time for ya...u arent free...
i have changed...but my love for ya is still there...but can u still be able to feel it?

my love for npcc is growing too...NPCC is becoming part of my life...

wanna thx uncle chin for helping mi out too..XD guidelines...from his experience..=x

banana didi...ya..i noe...these r the things we get back....tat y i said..only another CIs will understand y we bother doing so much things for npcc...XD normal ppl wont understand our passion for npcc...when we tries to mould our cadets to become outstanding leaders...XD but my passion n love for npcc arent as strong as urs..LOL... glad to noe tat u pulled urself together...starting a brand new path of urs le...ermm..does ur new path have mi inside? LOL...XD

Wenbin korkor...really thx for helping mi out...esp when npcc stuff is concern...LOL..XD i alway call u to pester u...haha..=x u is ever ready CI..=x millon of cheers for korkor...haha..=x kor is alway there to lend mi a ear...but i don wanna say too much to him..cz even if i said le..he also cant help in anything..but jz to listen...although he will try to help..esp when it come to NPCC issuse...hehe... tat y i said million of cheers for korkor...=D

My life is filled wif NPCC...My Friends....My Kors, Dis, Jies, Meis XD n of cz wif ya...

still trying to hold on..to not let go...to treat u better..to give u more time but i cant find any..to love ya...i noe u didnt wan mi to be sad..to be stress..jz wan mi to be happy..like how i wan u to be happy...but somehow i jz cant do it..still wanna say sry to ya...

mango off
Time 8:35pm

jz had my dinner...today is a friday..but it don seem like a friday to mi...becz today no training..XD

haha..today i overslp...i didnt go for econ lecture...haha..=x cz yesterday class rep said accounting lecture cancelled...so today have to be in sch by 10 for econ lecuture which mean i have to wake up by 8 la..haha..=x i dunno wad happen...i woke up n went back to slp thinking tat 9 den have to wake up...so i happily fall back to slp..den nine i wake up..i think..ermm..i have to be in sch by 10 rite..so i should be leaving my hus by 9 rite..how come i jz wake up..LOL...so nvm..decided to skip the lecture n jz go for tutorial at 11...cz no point la..haha..i rush down also will be ard 1045 like tat...so might as well jz don go..XD haha..=x den during MOB tutorial..=( ok i get back my paper..stupid...one Q over 9 i get 1.5 only..=.= n guess wad...i didnt get the marks is not cz i dunno..is cz i didnt explain cz i didnt read Q carefully..=( but aiya...i still manage to pass.. jz pass...LOL..=x but aiya...nvm...will try not to be so blur anymore..XD haha...ermmm.. den during tutorial stupid lo...JEREMY SAID i didnt do anything for ATC...=( sob sob...i is damn sad le...he in camp dunno anything den jz make a comment n said i didnt do anything... although i noe he is joking de...but i still feel so ZZZZ la...den after tutorial i CALLED HIM...stupid...like tat say..WTH la..I HATE U AR..HUMPX..u this baddie baddie...=x but ok le la..haha..=x fa xie finish jiu ok le..but tml c him...sure say him again one..XD don care...u baddie...HUMPX...
wo de ku zhong u will understand meh...=(

ok..den STAT tutorial...den later after STAT our class when moberly karaoke room to SING SONG..LOL...i didnt sing much la..haha..quite tired... plus so limited songs...alot is i dunno one..LOL..haha..but ya...the bean bag v shuang..i can jz fall aslp on it le..haha..XD sofa was nice too..LOL...but sadly got cam watching us de..zzz..no freedom..haha..XD den left sch at ard 8...reach home ard 9 bah...had dinner den here i am blogging..hehe..=x

b4 i slp today..i needa finish camp schedule...n those you de mei de...I DO IT FOR JEREMY TAN...I THIAM MY LIFE FOR HIM OK...so don say i didnt do anything...HUMPX..=x

mango tootie..blur-ie..n damn careless..XD

feeling v bad...cz i don have time for my dear...=( aiya...bu zhi dao..i don wanna think n bother abt it too much either...wad can i do...i dunno also...aiya..don wan think...i am sry...

today JX asked mi...i spent so much time doing npcc issuse n stuff..wad do i get in return...LOL.. i stun..i dunno how to reply him...haha..=x i dunno y i bother doing all this things too..haha..but jz do lo..LOL...interest? passion? reponsibility? i dunno...probably no reason as in to y i actually do it..haha...hmmm..is not i bah..should be WE, CIs...LOL..=x is jz probably only CIs understand y..or those instructor from NCC n other unit...don really have a reason y bah...haha..
NPCC is my life~~~..XD

i wonder...den do u understand? i dunno...XD

ok...go do my npcc stuff le..XD LOL... JEREMY...FOR U...LOL..make u feel guilty..XD

time 10:00

mango v tired...LOL...she wanna fall aslp le...but still have to do tutorial...XD MANGO ENDURE..XD jz reach home not long ago..LOL...i thiam my life for npcc le..LOL..today sch n lesson n stuff...i went to unit after tat...ok...another thing to add is tat...i have another grp report to write~~~ WTH...sobsob...n due on nx thursday...den nx thursday also got accounting test...n on top of all this, i wed gonna solo the whole LAST FINAL REHEARSAL...n it sux lo...=( kaoz..i scare..=x i no confident leh...sob sob sob..=x haizzz... so many things..so little time...MANGO JIA YOU...i feel like crying le..=x LOL..i dunno y...but have the feeling of droping tears..but i cant...don ask mi y...but i jz cant..LOL..=x

today i learn the whole parade procedure...things to say..command to give...n learning sword drill...n mine is like shit..cz is damn un-stable..=.= WTH la...i dunno how..but still mz do it...haiz... mango life damn thiam le..=(

OHYA..tues i cant go down unit..have project to do i jz remembered...=( HAIZZZZ...wad to do wad to do...sian...no choice lo..bo bian...

mango thiam her life for npcc..=(

mango feeling v stress...project..ATC CC...reserve PC...test n exam...AHHHHHHHHH...=(
MANGO JIA YOU..GO GO...XD

maybe to some ppl probably don understand y bother to spend so much time on npcc...but i am sure CIs do understand y we willing to spend so much time on NPCC...
maybe true tat i am spending too much time on NPCC...but no matter how much time i give up for myself to NPCC..how i tired myself for NPCC...is jz worth it....we r CI...we have our responsibility to take...things to do...
don say i am wasting my time on NPCC...cz i am not...ok...in NPCC...i'm alway enjoying myself...don ask y...cz i jz enjoyed...LOL..=x haha...

yes...NPCC is imp to mi..but so r my studies n project work so on...i wont neglect my studies n project work for npcc... may be busy...but i still will have time to do project work or study...XD i will jz pack myself wif stuff..XD i am willing to give up my time for npcc...=x

jz sry...i didnt have time for ya...

mango off to do tutorial..XD
time off 9:43pm

jz reach home..today is a damn busy day...haha..=x stress n tired but i enjoyed...LOL...ohya.. guilty too..=x

woke up at like 930..when i suppose to be back at unit at like 1010...LOL...manage to reach sch by 1015...LOL..den bus left for HTA at abt 1025...hmm...reach hta at ard 11..XD ok...the sucky thing is tat...our unit draw uni from 11 to 130..=.= WTH...the store ppl damn bu shuang le lo..draw finish number one..den draw number three also..n OC didnt inform the store ppl abt it...n ended we kena nag by the store ppl...worse thing is tat...some cadet name not under NPCC HQ...den cannot draw..=.= WTH...OC didnt update the HQ...zzz lo...damn troublesome...den ya..by the time left hta is 130 le..meeting ly n chelle at sp..at like ermm..145? den suppose to go for my tok which is at 3 but i didnt go in the end...LOL..don ask mi y...but i jz didnt go..=x haha...ohya...today i walked ard sp wearing CI shirt..=.= LOL..lame lo...but nvm...HO said..mz have pride..LOL..=x den we left sp at like 3...den i manage to get the poster from the HQ liao..put it in spnpcc clubhus le..haha..alot lo..=x but aiya..nvm..=x reach unit for training..LOL..reserve PC..but i haven learn how to do sword drill yet...LOL... nx wed i gonna to take cz HO wont be going down..=.= sian...i still so noob lo...den is the last try run also...n worse thing...thursday i have TEST...=.= sob sob...haizzz...MANGO THIAM HER LIFE FOR NPCC.. LOL..=x SHE LOVE NPCC...XD she sold her life to npcc le..LOL..=x training was greaT? no too bad la..haha..=D after training..is dinner at kallang KFC..haha..so usual...XD den tok abt on ATC stuff..den home sweet home...so here i am blogging..LOL..=x

ok...one whole chuck is all abt npcc stuff..=x cz today my life is fill wif npcc stuff only..haha..=x

i am guilty...=x sry...although u keep saying nvm..but i noe u mind de..=x u said it is not my fault...but is cz of mi tat y kena till...dui bu qi...=x make mi feel bad n guilty..=x cz of mi..tat y..=x anw...wo xin ling le..XD

Wenbin korkor..=D haha.. xie xie ni...LOL..i dunno for wad also..haha...today keep distrub u..LOL...call n hang up call den hang up...LOL...=x haha..XD how many time did i called u...=x haha...bleah...yes..i noe i v stupid...v toot...i dunno how to walk from the library back to fc4...but don need say mi ma..how often do i use tat half of the sch lo..XD but i still manage to find my way there..LOL..but i took the long long way..LOL..bleah... 3cheer for kor kor...=D

mango off to showe n study le...=D

i thiam my life for u all..LOL...

mango life damn thiam le...=(

things i have to do

• SOO (20/7/07)
• ATC (27 - 29 July 07)
• POA test (19/7/07)
• Econs test (23/7/07) --> i think is this date..=x
• IDEAS Project (due wk 5/6) --> if i didnt remember wrongly =x
• SPNPCC CCA-Drive (Planning)
• SPNPCC FOCamp (Planning)
• Sem Exam (After National day Wk)

ok..first few news to share....i did quite well.. for accounting n ITAB(excel)...82 n 83...hehe... gd news bah..afterall i did my best..esp for ITAB..=.= mango don wanna do last min studying anymore...=x she learnt her lesson....=x but it seem like..she have so many things to do...n mz find time to study too..her life is damn thiam le..=( but i think MOB i gonna die..=.=

i hope u be feeling better...esp after ur test...u said u did fairly well..which mean is gd bah.. i am trying to hold on tightly..to not to let go...so don let go of mine too...=x i'm trying..no matter how tired how tough it is...i am trying...trying to hold on n not let go... i cant let go of ya...i am sry..but i really have too many to do..i cant give u a day where i be free for only ya...sry... really needa ya understanding...520

i got no time for other things..so i don wanna have any distraction too...

banana didi ... ...
i dunno wad to type..LOL... u will still come across my mind each day...even if we don contact...

Wenbin korkor ... ...
LOL...salute bin korkor..=D

Orange jiejie save mi..=x

MANGO JIA JIA YOU...she needa ya support for her...be happy...smile...tat all she asked from u...=(

mango v depress again..=( it jz seem like the things i have to do is nv ending one...haizzz...i am tired...i am stress out...i feel like crying but i cant...=.= haizzz.... screw this whole world...it is jz simply moving so fast...each day past jz like tat...i am still trying to catch up...trying hard to move wif the pace..=(

i am sry...but i really really really have no time for ya...sry..=( hope tat u will understand....u, npcc matter, studies n project...studies n project come first...den npcc matter n u...sry...i have my responsibility, things to do...really needa ya understanding.... tons of npcc matter going on, SOO n ATC...=( wif SPNPCC CCA-drive n FOCamp...all the planning n stuff...wif test n exam n project approcahing...u noe...i can barely breathe anymore...totally stress out alrdy...hoping to clear everything ASAP...=(
i dunno wad i can do...i jz cant balance my time...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...i am sry...haizzz....
n it really sux to noe tat u r sad...=(

i understand...i noe..i realised...things cant go back to wad it use to be...i noe from yesterday conversation...i did tried...but i couldnt do any things...i had the intention to msg...but i didnt...don ask mi y...but i jz didnt...=( u r probably stress out too...wif everything going on n stuff at home...i don wanna add anymore things for ya...let jz leave things as it is...probably one day...things n fate may decide to bring us back...wishing ya all the best...

mango VERY VERY SUPER TIRED..=( cant take it anymore...

Wenbin korkor...yue lai yue xing shan ni le...LOL..forever damn zai...lol...3 cheer for korkor...=D hehe...

Banana didi...a sms speak a thousand words le bah...don be sad...

i really cant think of wad to blog alrdy...esp after u call...screw this whole thing...it make mi feel laggi more worse...life jz simply sux...SUX...i wanna cry out loud...to scream my voice out...to shout out loud...T.T

leave mi alone ppl...JZ LEAVE MI ALONE...=(
time out, 10:34pm

nth much of a day today bah...so nth much to blog...but still wanna blog abt my feelings today... XD

he msg-ed mi today again...LOL...refering back to our past... he could still remember so clearly...but i cant...i could only remember bit n pieces of it..i am sry...XD i noe i cz a huge impact on ya...for tat y u remember so clearly...probably being a long long time since we actually last contact le..XD but u r still as sweet as ever to mi....sorta miss those old days...where we hang ard together...wish to met ya again..but probably be damn werid bah...wanna noe how u r now...wad have u become to...probably to make up for ya too...although u alway said i don have to...but i do feel guilty towards u...it was cz of my inmature n childish-ness...tat cz all those to happen...if i could turn back time..i am sure i wont repeat the same things ever again...
i remember there was once...we were looking up into the sky at nite...stare-ing at the stars...n wif u..chatting wif mi...haha..i could remember tat nite...i still remember the sence..i could recall tat v nite...XD everytime when i am upset or pissed or wadever...u be the first one to come to mi...to be there for mi..no matter how busy u r, doing ur stuff...u will cast aside everything for mi...to rush down to accompany mi...XD
haha..those were the days bah...memories tat no one could take away from mi...XD
for all the bad, bitter n sad memories...i don wanna remember any...i jz wanna keep the happy n sweet one...XD
give u my best wishest ever..=D

is all in the past le...jz my tots n words for him..don be jealous alrite..XD...haha...u r still the one in my heart...i am now in the present..not past...i understands n noe...all i need to noe tat...i have u...tat all..i jz wan u to be beside mi...to have u...n for u to be happy..to smile...tat all le bah..haha..=D love ya...=D mango wanna meet ya soon..asap...but i dunno when will tat day be...=( i jz wanna stare at u...=D

wenbin korkor...=D haha...i is v respect him...damn garang...damn zai...damn power one..haha...=D kor helped mi in alot alot of things..esp when it come to npcc stuff..XD haha....3 cheers for my kor kor...=) meimei look up to u...but not to those vuglaries u use...LOL...BLEAH...don use too much la....no gd de...=P

orange jiejie..LOL..mz post abt u..ah bo u later say i forget u again...haha..bleah..=x wait one day...i more free...i will summon u to come online to chat wif mi...LOL....v v v long didnt have a gd chat wif u le hor...haha...=D mz wait till have prob...u is alway auto come find mi de..XD haha..but i don wan any prob..=x but i still wan u to come tok to mi..hehe...=p

kiathong didi...pull urself together...JIA YOU BAH...don be sad over such thing la...=.= no meaning de...haha...if cannot..den go find one lo..i am sure..u can find one easily de...=x opppss...=x haha..don alway so sad la...later the tress in singapore no more leave le...cz each time u sigh the trees leaves will drop...haha..XD bleah...JIA YOU JIA YOU..GO..GO...=D

mango off to study..CHIONG CHIONG CHIONG....haha..=D
Time off, 8:27pm

08/07/07 12:44am

jz reach home at ard 1230...left city hall at ard 1130... waited for train n bus n stuff...ya...b4 i go home..i went 7-11 to buy some chips...jz have the urge to eat some chips now..=x feel emo bah... =x LOL..this few days v emo la..bo bian...

i suppose to meet suresh at 5 at city hall today, wenbin n william at 6 at city hall, theng jie will join us at 7...BUT in the end....i was late...i left my hus at like 520...haha..hg fetch mi to city hall today...cz he jz happen to be at my hus area...cz after his powerboat test he took express way to go back...den needa pass my hus..so he offered to send mi to city hall...den ok lo...=x haha...den met wif suresh...i feel werid la...cz i dunno...jz don really like..den wenbin korkor overslp...6 den wake up..WTH...den he n william dage reach at ard 740 bah...den later theng jie 8 reach...den wenbin korkor n william dage went to find her...so end up...8 ma..firework show.. in the end i watch fireworks wif suresh...wenbin korkor n william watch together..n theng jie alone..LOL..=x lame leh..i is wanna watch the firework together...haha...but nvm la...i still get to watch my firework...haha...up in the sky...u were looking up at the same sky as mi...see-ing the same thing..thou u arent beside mi...

i manage to catch the stun lo...is damn damn damn cool...got explosion also leh..haha..=x is v nice..damn nice..haha...=x

after the fireworks...we went marina sq...kiathong came n meet us too..LOL...den we ate BK...den tok crap n laugh as usual..haha...later i dunno how come suddenly suresh n william dage wanna drink...so end up going 7 - 11 to buy 2 bottle nia...haha..no kick la...2 bottle 6 ppl share...den went back to esplanade by the river to drink..den not enough..suresh n dage go buy 2 more bottle..LOL...den later drink n tok..aiya..den went catch train liao...=x

i am happy..cz i get to meet up wif u all today...haha...=D nx outing i dunno when also le...busy busy busy..LOL..sian la...=(

feeling damn tired...i think i wanna slp soon le bah...haiz..

i also not ur anybody...tat was wad YOU said..wad YOU think...wad YOU feels...den so be it lo...i cant do anything either...

mango v emo n tired le..wanna rest rest only don wanna think anything le....

Time out: 1:19am



07/07/07 3:53pm



mango going out later..suppose to study first la..but i didnt..=x OINK..too tired le lo...even now also feel like slping..=x LOL...although i woke up at like 3...ok la..b4 tat got wake up den slp den wake up den slp...damn shuang..haha..=x ok...y i 3 den decided to wake up leh...CZ I AM HUNGRY...LOL..=x XD

mango abit mood swing today...quite emo...LOL...i dunno....nvm la...=x

be meeting wenbin korkor...william dage...theng jie...suresh later..maybe yini too..haha..long long time didnt c her liao..=x but i be meeting suresh first...LOL...=x

Mango loves fireworks lot lot..XD

don be sad..don feel sad...sry..past 2 day didnt contact u much...=( i don wanna throw my temper at u...u should noe y too ma..=x hope u will understand wo...didnt contact u much...but i am still urs..=x u r still inside my heart...safe n sound inside there...hehe..=x missing ya..wanna meet u soon...=D

wenbin korkor...=D LOL..OINK OINK...kor is shen..=x damn power one..meimei salute u...=x i is v jing pei ni...hehe..=x =D korkor mz smile smile more more also worz....each time i c/meet kor..i is sure laugh one..LOL...=x BLEAH...=x

i hope didi be feeling better le bah....i dunno wad i can say to u...LOL...a sms speaks a thousand words...LOL...JIA YOU BAH...take care take care...stay happy..don be emo la...smile more more..jie jie like to c didi smile smile...=p =x

mango off to bath...late le..=x haha...meeting at 5...=x opps...YAY...putting some make up later...LOL...=x
time out: 4:13PM

ok...i failed my STAT..=.= 40/100 LOL...nvm la..expected...my theory...i think i get 3 marks nia..LOL...den gd thing is one section i got all correct which is 30 marks...den one section i got 2 out of 25...cz i left the whole graph BLANK...LOL...cz my first step is WRONG..=.= n the last section i got 5 marks...lol..tat is how i get my 40 marks..LOL..=x nvm...mango will be an internal locus of dunno wad..LOL...i will strive harder...to study harder..to work harder..to mug harder...MANGO JIA JIA YOU...XD

den after STAT...i met wif wenbin korkor..LOL...he is damn funny de lo..=x haha..i dunno..each time i think of him..i is feel like laughing to myself..LOL..=x i dunno...jz funny correct le..LOL.. haha..=x ohya...THIAM = wenbin korkor language..LOL...=x haha...ok..today meet him cz...after my tutorial i went mrt wait for chelle...den since kor wanna leave sch also le...ask him pei wo wait for her...lucky he come pei wo...ah bo i is rot till can die le...=x (cut short story...) LOL...but he is funny la..LOL... i dunno..jz feel like laughing...LOL..=x wenbin korkor alway make mi laugh de..LOL...haha...think of korkor i is smiling de...cz kor thiam his life to make mi happy one...haha..rite rite? =x

den went meeting after chelle came...i today v moody...v attitude..mood swing high n low one...LOL...yup yup...=x den walked to sch...today i wore mini skirt..den walk to sch v werid lo..saw some cadets...haha..=x den like sooo wrong the attire...haha..=x but i jz wanna wear skirt today...but all my skirt is mini one..LOL...so bo bian lo...haha..x= den ya..went pw for dinner..=x den ya meeting too..LOL..i shall not go into the detail of tat..haha...too =.= lol...den after meeting HO sent mi home so usual...yup yup..tat should be all abt it for today...

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...=( ATC..SOO..CA2...SEM EXAM...SO MANY SO MANY SO MANY...i gonna be stress stress stress AGAIN...AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....=(

if this is wad u wan...den so be it lo...i cant do anything...nth i can do...u said u don need mi to do anything either...so wad more can i say..wad more can i do...nth lo...i really dunno le lo....i also don wanna think liao...
i jz be there...watching u...

time now 07/07/07 12:16AM


12:25PM

having tutoial now..LOL...but i am blogging...haha...i dunno..think later reach home wont blog..cz having unit meeting later....haha..sian...ATC..=.= sob sob..2 wks time i did nth...n hor...i can die liao lo..CA2 also coming up le..WTH...after lesson de..sob sob..stress ar..laggi so far behind how to catch up... but nvm..still got time to jia you..=D

today theng jie came my lecture..haha..she sat beside mi..LOL..ohya..i was late today for the 2nd time...cz theng jie LATE...LOL..=x but nvm la..hu cares abt the lecturer..haha..its accounting...i didnt catch or learn anything during the lecutre..=x haha.. followed by econs..=x haha...nth go in also...aiya...nvm..=x don care don care...haha...x mz find time to study liao..haha..=x notti mango... XD

last nite v moody...=(

didi v sad...=( but he only said he sad..but dunno y he sad also..den nth i can do also...den i don like it when i cannot do anything to help him...den he asked mi to leave him alone...haiz...orh ok lo...i sent i think at 4 or 5 sms last nite b4 i fall aslp...but he didnt even respon to a single one...aiya...i dunno wad i can do also..=( jz leave him alone lo...wad to do..wad to do..u tell mi lo...i thiam my life to make u happy..u happy can liao le...tat all ma...
sad or happy..life carry on....it wont stop for u...the world wont stop cz u r sad..the time wont stop for u...nobody life will stop cz of u..it carry on no matter wad..pull urself together...JIA YOU JIA YOU...

mango hyper today...i dunno y...haha...i wanna be hyper hyper hyper..i don wanna be sad sad sad...life still carry on de lo....things i have to do still carry on...i cant afford to let myself fall once more...i cant..n i wont...mango will be strong...u will give mi the strenght to do so...u r the one...=D mango be tough for ya.. for u...i will...n of cz...for myself too...i will live life to fullest for myself..n for u...XD

=D today is a happy day...i dunno y also...haha...jz feel happy bah...but i am VERY VERY tired today..=x haha...woke up late...den let uncle they all wait for mi till like 805 den leave hus...sry~~ =x cz he fetch mi to mrt station almost everyday..as long as don need to rush for work...haha..=x

met CL at paya lebar..haha...xie xie ni...alway help mi print stuff..den have to go sch early jz to meet mi at mrt station to go sch wif mi..den can pass mi my stuff..XD hehe..xie xie..u the best liao..=ppp

econ lecture was BORING...i dunno wad the hell she is toking abt at all..LOL..lagging behind...she at topic 8 le..but i still at topic 4..LOL..=x followed by 2 hr break...not break la...was rushing IDEAS power point..edit abit here n there..do abit here n there..den time pass so fast..=x mob tutorial...ok ok..role play...den when go into activities 2...which i did last nite le..but sadly all WRONG...haha..=x but nvm...when is the 'free time' to so call do the tutorial...i recieved a call..LOL..lame...noe i having lesson still call..but i still picked up..LOL...but jz said i having lesson den hang up le...but like so evil..so i left the room to call him back..LOL...ok...more or less tat is it...

nx is IDEAS presentation..LOL...can consider gd bah..i hope? lol...wif all the effort...it actually paid off le bah...n tat video..WAHHH..i is damn paiseh lo...SHY~~~~ LOL...i think i blush..i dunno..haha..=x nvm...but it was a nice video? LOL... bleah...i wan the video...hehe..=x ok..den later EC make up lesson..go in all damn tired le..whole day of lecture n tutorial le...cant be bother..cher toking i spamming ppl...LOL..=x den later...c friendster..chit chat wif friend...tok cock..haha..n i realised sth...don tell u all wad...=x bleah..=x den later lesson is end le..but we stayed in class to tok till 6...den went to fc4 to c them eat dinner..LOL..i don wanna eat...cz at home got dinner..i wan eat ah ma food..LOL..=x

left sch at 7...ok...den i feel damn tired le...so tired tat when i was in the train...standing la...i close my eye can like wan to go lala land liao..haha...got abit of eye bag also liao..sob sob..=x den reach kallang...took bus back home...hehe...

one more gd news...i jz got my pocket money again~~~~ LOL..=x hehe...last mth one haven spend finish also..gd gd..can save $$ liao...i wanna save $$ so cannot anyhow spend i hope..=x haha...

today our class is damn high~~~~LOL...

gonna slack tonite bah...do tutorial den slack ard den oink liao..haha...BLEAH...

mango happy...=D

sian...i don wanna be sick again..T.T i hope i wont bah...throat pain liao..i hope it don sore...*pray* =( today took parade...reserved PC ma...wad to do...sian..shout till wanna die liao they still say too soft...WTH...=.= 3 full run leh....SIAO...kena bully lo...shout till damn xin ku....XD i dunno the parade step n marking also..cz i didnt turn up for the whole of last wk ma..sian..=.= den first round i screw up like shit lo...kena malu in front...LOL..but nvm la...all this still ok...but don wan throat to sore...=(

i woke up at 10 plus reply msg-es...den fall aslp at like 11 plus..LOL..den wake up at 1..=x den prepare..wash up den go sch liao..reach sch nth to do...i brought my lappy..so did my project..den training start le...den is all training le lo...n ya...b4 the first round... HO said he dunno the march pass command..he haven remember...i was like WTH..den i called ly..asked her to send..=x den later haven recieve till...n i called her back..den guess wad...her phone low bat..=x haha...ok...den i msg banana didi n wenbin korkor...KOR told mi marching command..=.= den i called di n asked him..cz he said he dunno how to say in sms...LOL...den later call le...HO keep saying things..ask mi faster..=.= den he said he cannot cfm...should be..asked mi ask bin korkor..LOL...so i called bin korkor too...n ya...ok...more or less like tat..=x

den went mac wif sir for dinner since he no dinner at home den jz eat wif him lo...haha...don think too much or misunderstand...he is jz like a da kor kor to mi..haha..XD

today kept in contact wif him..ever since the day he suddenly msged mi...haha...he have been msg-ing since den...LOL...i cant said i miss those old days together..but i wanna say..i am sry for how i used to treat u....glad tat i am forgiven...XD hmmm...gd luck in taking ur bike license...don fail worz...haha..jia you..=D u said i can be ur first passanger...LOL...but will i really be? i doubt so...haha...=x take care take care ya...all the best to u in everything ya...JIA YOU...=D i will try to take care too..to not overwork myself..but i doubt so la..haha...=p thx for trying to cheer mi up too..=D

mango off to do work n bath n OINK~~~~ =x

almost done wif IDEAS powerpoint...jz needa add abit effect n such to complete it..probably do it after i wake up later on....after IDEAS ppt down, i did my ATC nominal roll..=.= sian...hardwriting like shit...WTH..=.= tell them write nice nice liao still like tat..later going down unit for training...if enough time...i will also ask them to check n stuff...ya...which mean..bring my lappy down...sian~~~more or less tat is it for later on...IDEAS n training...cant wait for IDEAS to be over~~~~ ARGGGG....getting v irritated by it..=x LOL..=x

i am tired...but i refused to slp..enduring...but i guess i have reached my limit so after blog is SLP~~~ =x tat is it le bah...i will leave the rest n everything to fate...

not gonna do anything...not going to wish or hope for anything...get back nth but endless waiting n disappointment...not gonna put myself thr all this again...i will let go n fang kai...

don wanna depend on anyone anymore...nv noe when the person chooses to leave u...

no more...no longer...

carrying on wif my life wif all these memories...=D

mango off~~~ Time: 4:15am

ok..ya...jz now after finish-ing the ITAB PBL finally...haha...is a load off alrdy..hehe..=x so i uploaded the pic...=x today is nth much of a day...boring..i feeling v v v tired today...probably slping after i blog finish b4 i do the IDEA pp..n my nominal roll...haha..=x sian...n ya...econs get back result only..haha..hmm..c the marks kena shock...moon asked mi..i happy anot...i said ok ok la..but not true la...i am V V happy..LOL..=x shock too...didnt expect tat i will get till 78.. yup yup...so nth much of a day le...

during break...mich..elaine..was toking abt how they wan their wedding to be...LOL...den i didnt tot of how i wan it to be..den later they were saying...let it be sth special yet simple..haha..n guess wad i said i wan for myself....LOL...i wan FIREWORKS...LOL...display-ed meant for mi only...LOL..=x at least a 5 min one...WAHAHAHA..=x hmmm...is like during tat nite..tat moment...only the two of us...den suddenly..boom boom boom..LOL..COOL~~~ haha..=x aiya..don think too much..haha..is impossible de...XD watch too much dramma le...haha..=x bleah...=x lame~~~

on the way back home...i took train wif may n mich...hmmm...they were toking abt their sec sch life....i tot of mine...n i said...i cant remember much...LOL...maybe cz there is nth for mi to remember bah...hmm..can say is no life la...i dunno...i noe i slp alot..=x i recall abit...
sec 1 -- ermmm...not a gd ger...v notti...alway hang ard pw..doing nth...but slacking wif friends.. haha..high profile...no gd no gd..LOL..=x but those friends...i remembered them...ya...XD
sec 2(mid to end) -- spend alot alot of time wif bf....boh didi...ly....spend lot of time waiting too..other den tat is study? n ya..NPCC(fancy drill) XD
sec3 -- ermm...most of my time go into NPCC(fancy drill team) n other NPCC activities..cant remember le..=x den go out wif ping? rf4? LOL...
sec 4 -- head of the yr npcc..later step down...den is make up lesson n stuff...
mid of the yr....a turning point....i realised alot of thing...worse break down ever..XD
end of the yr...MUGGING for Os(not prelim =x)
After Os -- CIBTC...where i meet alot of great friends..=D den..work at fairprice online...seen abit of the working life..n noe a great friend...=D

more or less should be like tat la...but is all in the past liao...does not matter anymore...haha...i noe now is different alrdy...wif u ppl ard..=D haha...

don ask mi abt my past...i can only remember those happy n memoriable ones...i don wanna think n bother abt the past anymore...is the present n future tat i am more concern wif...

mango tired..off to oink~~~ XD

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Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

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The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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boo...now still in sch blog..cz i think go home wont have the time to blog le..haha..or too lazy la..=x hmmm..ok...
i didnt slp well last nite...i keep waking up every now n den...=( i dunno y...woke up c time den go back slp...but nvm la...hope tonite will have a better nite...hmm..den woke up at 7 plus...went mrt station den went sch....
first tutorial POA..=.= last nite did abit on the tutorial but really no mood to do..so didnt bother le...jz go n rest...=x haha...den 2 hr break...slack at fc 4..erm did abit of porject bah..haha...now also waiting... for my friend to eat finish den do project..reach home also is late le lo...sian...still needa go ppt and ITAB...=( my lappy batt also cant last for long...hahaha..=x sian sian..=x bleah..den ermmm..ya..after break EC...sian...hate tat module..=x den during the tutorial...have an unexpected person msg mi...haha..=x so random n sudden...didnt expect him to msg mi lo..haha...he is still the same..still kinda sweet to mi...haha..bleah...sry for all the past ya..XD ok..den msg kill abit of my boredom..=x den later MOB lecture..haha..is feel like slping lo..haha..=x but i manage to pull thr..n wif him msg-ing mi..LOL..yup yup...den lecutre end so here i am at fc4 blogging..haha..bleah..=x

i have some pic i wanna upload in my blog..but i abit lazy..wait till one day when i have time bah...bleah...=x

ohya..today i eat alot alot alot of JUNK FOOD...haha..from POA lesson..pass sweet n more sweet..den later cookie...den later chips..haha...bleah..den later go lunch? haha..den later EC..is HELLO PANDA..haha...N MORE SWEET..haha..=x den later MOB lecture? ermm...is a dunno wad china product sweet from the lecturer..haha...quite nice la..bleah...SO SO SO MANY FOOD TODAY...hehe..=x going to put on weight..LOL..=x bleah..=x later take laggi more time to recover..haha..still keep cough-ing..=x opps..=x

boring life...

AT HOME
i am home like 44min ago..LOL...den don wanna post new one..so jz add on..LOL...lame~~~ =x jz love eating junk food this few days...y leh..cz i am stress n troubled..LOL..=x tat is the few reason y i fond of eating junk food...=x is eat alot alot worz..=x ok...off to do my things now...lol..feel like oink-ing liao..XD bleah..

i am tired...v v v tired..should have expected n knew it....not gonna bother abt it anymore... i gonna carry on wif my life...i will n i mz...jz let time n fate to c where it led mi to...i will no longer do anything...FATE is the word i use now...jz be happy alrite..

mango off to bath n clear tutorial n project...=.=

life jz simply sux la...T.T i am stress out...i am breaking-down...i need some air...T.T haizzz...

yes...life sux n i sux too...

today went vivo to take video...den went meet him...sry ppl for not able to stay wif u all the whole of today...i really cant afford the time...i cant disappoint him today...dui bu qi...mark mi down if u all wan to...i will try to help out more at the presentation part bah...sry ppl...

watched tranformers today...yes i can say it's a nice show to catch..worth the money to watch... i do enjoy myself today...but toward the end of the day...i feel damn zzzz..cz i have so so so many things waiting for mi to do...haizzzz...

i am stress...v v v stress...i am feeling v depress too...sob sob..haiz..life simply sux...i cant pull myself together....AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...=(

feeling v irritated...life sux..i need time time TIME~~~~

wenbin korkor....banana didi...take care take care...=D

ok..b4 i end..orange jiejie complain i didnt blog abt her...=.=...JIE JIE~~~~~ u alway no online..i no one to turn to for help de...SOB SOB..=x ya i noe u laggi more busy den mi..haha...teach mi....how did u manage ur time so well la..=.= i am dying~~~~~i damn lack of time now..HAIZ... =( more test coming up soon..AHHHHHH..=x happy le ma? =x

leave mi alone..=.=