=( super tired...LOL...tonite tml nite n tml tml nite...sure no gd slp de..XD haha..=x ok..haven been blogging...cz as u ppl noe...ATC...this wkend...which is tml..sat n sun...N guess wad? =x i have a MAJOR IDEAS presentation nx wed...n a TEN TOPIC test on friday...LOL...mango = KO..sure die till gao gao de...XD LOL...

past few days time pass v fast...u noe... IDEA presentation which mean more grp meeting...n i is really wanna die...spliting myself into 2...i got to focus on this two...

hey..ATC = an area issue...include EIGHT SCH...wif abt 150 plus campers on my side...is sth tat i have to plan n making sure nth goes wrong ok...if u think tat it is not imp..i tell u..**** OFF la... don come n bother mi...i am still so noob in all this issue lo...is not like as if i like it this way..i wan it this way..wif all many last min issue...=( ya..probably jz blame it on my in-capable...=( i am still learning ok...my first ATC as an instructor...haizzz...hu can understand lo...everyone looking at mi...waiting for mi to make decision..=.= decide on issue..all the so senior CI looking at mi...HAIZ.. how much pressure there is lo...=( u ppl wont understand...so don think tat it is not imp ok...don show mi tat attitude of urs...cz i have mine too... if u not happy so be it...don mean i have to give up for u ppl...arggg...wadever~~~~

ya...one issue cock up one after another...SUX...is not sth i wan ok... expecting alot hip-up thr'out the whole camp...deeply sry for the instructors..ESP those in my unit..cz i didnt arrow out..end up...is our unit bao finish...yet i cant assign job for myself...HAIZZZ...yes..i be evil...i be evil mango...HAIZ..how to do briefing...HOW~~~~ wad if my voice is not loud enough..WAHHH..KO la...=( so many things...i have no confident..i am afriad...but still have to put up a strong front..to overcome all this...it hide it...n not show ppl...i have to be make sure the camp run well..to put in my best effort for it...ppl if u all don appreciate i am fine wif it BUT DON SAY I DIDNT DO ANYTHING..cz i am trying ok...=(

v emotional now..XD HAIZ..mango pull urself together and jia you bah..XD GO GO JIAYOU... do ur best..put in ur best...yesh...i can do it...(i hope so) =x

SUPER SUPER BIG BIG THX TO WENBIN .. XD yes...he is helping mi wif alot of stuff..ya..will treat him better too..million of thx to him..XD

i am sry...i noe..i neglected u totally..i am sry...really need ur understand..i am sry...i truely am...will u forgive mi? not having time for ya...i am sry...forgive mi...i wanna spend time wif ya too...but sry...i cant...too many things...wish for ya understanding...forgive mi...is not tat i only look for u cz i am bored...don misunderstand...u r alway inside my mind...my heart...yue liang wo...XD

mango evil..XD
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