=( haizzz...today went for area meeting...should reach by 10 i woke up at 915..=( den woke up rush rush den went for meeting le..not v late bah...ermm..den dunno go down so early for wad...cz only ard 12 like tat den is the actual start la...=.= aiya..all this i sian1/2 to type le..but ya..woodland ring will be joing our area for atc..=.= haizz...currently waiting for nominal to be in.. =.= without nominal roll...i cant do anything..=.= ok..at first dunno hu to contact from the woodland ring sec..but i asked from gao ming cz since he from area 1 de...n he happen to be like some sort helping out in the unit de..so it makes things easier le...n the contact he gave mi is my atc grp mate too...so i hope things will be easier to work out now le bah..XD

i dunno wad else i have to do...abit blur n lost during the meeting today...but i think now should be ok..more or less the skelton it done alrdy...jz waiting for nominal roll b4 i can actually do or plan for anything else le bah...

although is 7788 le..but i still not feeling any better...i slept from like 4 to 7 plus plus... it was damn shuang...haha..=x

haven contact him so far since last nite the msg i sent him b4 i slp..=( haizz...i dunno..maybe one day i may regret...but i hope i wont...he probably be waiting...but i jz didnt contact him today yet...don ask mi y...but i jz didnt..n he didnt contact mi either...probably be waiting..=( haizzz.. i noe he understands mi...but i changed...i noe he could tell tat too...ever since i enter-ed poly..tons of things going on...no longer like secondary sch...at first it was...but as time goes by... it was not anymore..i don have time...plus SOO n atc happen to fall so near to each other..a different by a wk...wif our unit as Camp coor...as mi taking up the role...n is also jz happen tat is so near to test n exams too...my time became so tight...i could hardly breathe anymore...i have no air...each time u tried to contact mi...my attitude towards u is gd n bad...causing u to be hurt n feel sad...it was not my intention but somehow i jz did it...i noe i said b4..i wont neglect u..wont be selfish..wont be mean..will try not to hurt u...but all this i am jz doing it again...i throw my temper at u...showing u attitude...when u tried to console mi, show care n concern...i shut u off.. yes..i noe i am evil...i am sry...i am sry..sry..sry..is all i said to u....=(
when u r free..i arent..but when i have the time for ya...u arent free...
i have changed...but my love for ya is still there...but can u still be able to feel it?

my love for npcc is growing too...NPCC is becoming part of my life...

wanna thx uncle chin for helping mi out too..XD guidelines...from his experience..=x

banana didi...ya..i noe...these r the things we get back....tat y i said..only another CIs will understand y we bother doing so much things for npcc...XD normal ppl wont understand our passion for npcc...when we tries to mould our cadets to become outstanding leaders...XD but my passion n love for npcc arent as strong as urs..LOL... glad to noe tat u pulled urself together...starting a brand new path of urs le...ermm..does ur new path have mi inside? LOL...XD

Wenbin korkor...really thx for helping mi out...esp when npcc stuff is concern...LOL..XD i alway call u to pester u...haha..=x u is ever ready CI..=x millon of cheers for korkor...haha..=x kor is alway there to lend mi a ear...but i don wanna say too much to him..cz even if i said le..he also cant help in anything..but jz to listen...although he will try to help..esp when it come to NPCC issuse...hehe... tat y i said million of cheers for korkor...=D

My life is filled wif NPCC...My Friends....My Kors, Dis, Jies, Meis XD n of cz wif ya...

still trying to hold on..to not let go...to treat u better..to give u more time but i cant find any..to love ya...i noe u didnt wan mi to be sad..to be stress..jz wan mi to be happy..like how i wan u to be happy...but somehow i jz cant do it..still wanna say sry to ya...

mango off
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