mango

2008-01-03T22:22:00.000+08:00

Mango moved! haha...XD

www.mangoland.wordpress.com

Ppl..do re-link mi! XD

THX! =]

2007-12-18T00:52:00.000+08:00

OK!!!

Happy Be-lated Birthday to Mr. Purple Guy!!

Post as requested!
Mango jz purely entertaining u~ hahahaha!!

May u had an enjoy-able 18th Birthday..=]

2007-12-16T16:07:00.000+08:00

Boo! Mango is here again~~

Happy Birthday to Mr Sun Wen Bin!!! XD

May u have an enjoyable day ahead..XD

Birthday Song for chiu~

*Happy Bithday to u~~*
*Happy Birthday to u~~*
*Happy Birthday to Mr Bin~~*
*Happy Birthday to u~~ XD*

2007-12-05T23:34:00.001+08:00

haha....blog here~~
wanna wish banana didi a happy happy happy 17th birthday...
hope tat he enjoyed himself today~~
XD

mango gone
11:32pm

2007-12-02T17:34:00.001+08:00

mango changed! XD

2007-11-30T23:55:00.000+08:00

hmmm...today...another avg day i suppose?

woke up at like 6.30? n went back to slp till 8.30? end up i late? hahaha!
i woke u up...but i ownself didnt wake up...funny hor! hahahaha...
ok...skip STAT tutorial~~ i don mean to skip! hahaha..=x den jz went down sch for pacc tutorial haha...went fc4 to eat..i was damn hungry cz i didnt eat anything at home n rush down to sch! haha...erm...den went library look for chelle...get some papers from her..n off to unit~~

hmmm... cadet reach le..haha..is like...4 of them? so early? den tok to TO drag drag abit..den go learn how to tie flagstaff le~~ hahaha! den another 2 came...n another 1...n another 1...haha~~ currently only 7 man? omg la! how to form a team n go competition la! zzzz...
ok..pitch n unpitch n pitch n unpitch..LOL~~ pack up n off to suntec!

haha...had dinner at a place(i dunno where)...n walk ard...walk n walk n walk....
nth much of a day i suppose..XD

hmmm...tot of sth...u said yrs ago...but it does not matter anymore...XD
it all end-ed yrs ago too...although yrs ago..i could still remember those little bit n pieces of the memories...
however..one thing for sure....u arent the one anymore....XD
the scar is jz a scar...scar tat heal n has no harm anymore...

tired mango
12:39am
sometime i wonder...do u really appreciate and need my presence...mango shall not think too much...
mango have to trust chiu~~
mango don be lost!!
jz trust mi a little more..will u?
sigh...

2007-11-29T18:36:00.000+08:00

today was a so-so day~~ blogging...n toking on phone~~ haha...
mango is guilty...suppose to be in sch by 11 to help out in CSSP! but i slp till 1045? LOLx! haha... busy morning... haha~~ den i rushed all the way to sch..which cost mi a gd $12!!! haha..poor mango liao lo..=x opps! hmmm..many present to buy....hmmm..wad to get?
mango pocket gonna have a big big hole! thiam si!

today rush down to sch...reach at 1230 or so bah...hahaha! den CSSP! LOL~~stayed till the end..thx to bastian for helping mi! hehe~~ XD den went to library met classmate...hmmm...den hang ard..looking at cooking books! hahaha..but i only wan cookie! =x hmm..have alot junk food at home..happy mango! cookies~~ chips~~ donuts~~ most imp...seaweed! LOL..jelly finished! haha..=x alot hor... eat till mango pui pui! haha..=x

after tat went for pacc lecture...dunno wad he toking abt..i was listening~~ to mp3! hahahah..=x opps! n copied la...it was damn cold inside! haha...den went for 1 hr interval? LOL! break la...hmmm..had a can of green tea~~ LOL~~ n played moon's psp~~
a psp cost a max of $400!! omg~~ i will eat grass if i get one! LOLx!
den went to lecture...n i slp~~ slp till damn shaung! hahaha....den wake up..went back home..haha..

trip home was long n bored....msges came..which kill little of my time...XD haha!
although none was from u...i noe u were busy~~ so is ok! haha...=x
haha...nx wk...tues, thurs and fri..first aid...wed crs make up lesson..friday noon CC training..
haiz..time gonna be damn little~~ hmmm...but still...smile~~ =D
all i need is to feel ur presence...
XD

have to do tutorial..copy notes! hehe...mango cant skip lesson~~ n tries to listen in class! mango endure!!!
go go go..jiayou!

slack mango!
6:54pm

probably going to have many such nites...
have to get use to it...
sigh...
felt the ouch...
didnt trust mi after all..='(
at least over such issue..
mango understand...but feeling suck!
sigh...

worse thing...when u noe sth...n have to act as if u didnt noe...
put the smile on ur face...to cover all those worries n anxious...
the smile to pretend i didnt noe anything... to carry on...
i have the urge to tell u..i knew everything long ago...
sigh...will u be fine...will u be alrite...
it don seem tat way to mi..=(

tired mango...
2:31am
give mi more trust will chiu?

2007-11-28T19:58:00.000+08:00

it seems like a pattern each wk...XD
mon - happy day...
tue - extreme down n emo day...
wed - avg to happy day..
LOLx!

hmmm...as times goes by...jz wait n c how it goes..XD
gonna be a busy wks ahead...mango should start studying too! do tutorial! LOL!
slack mango!tired mango!

Finally! CSSP will be over!! yay~~tml is the last day! haha...cant wait for it to be over~~ wonder how many CCA point will we get~~ LOLx! =x

Campcraft training! sigh..how to train when is like...cant get the ppl down! ok..i shall start calling!! hahahaha....

mango only have a wish...for u to be happy once again...for u to overcome..for u to understand... given a choice again...i will handle it in a better way...mango is sry...
maybe u feel tat...but somehow is not wad i feel...u definitely will alway mean someone to mi...regardless of anything...
birthday wishes...one of it...for u to be happy...the smile on ur face always..

man guo will jiayou jiayou jia jiayou!!
she need to smile more...XD

trying mango
8:11pm

2007-11-27T22:08:00.000+08:00

blog-ed in class jz now... since i am totally lost for frontpage... but personally felt frontpage sux! not nice leh...use to learn b4..but forget all le~~

today a day...i pass thr today without any feelings..at least to the minimum..
sigh...happiness...sad..sweet..bitter...wad is everything...where is everything...
i am sry...

mango should jz stop everything...
she should jz disappear n be gone forever...
*poof*
one word..depression...

2007-11-27T09:01:00.000+08:00

had a wonderful day yesterday..but a sucky nite...=(

noe sth yet have to pretend i didnt...how tough can tat be...how great can i feel...
things were weird..jz seeem so...

stop asking...stop!!!
carrying on asking will only have one outcome...
i will go out daily...
i will stay out late...
i will choose not to go back!
so jz stop asking mi y!
stop all of ur assumption...
don prompt anymore!!!!
i will run away!!!!
so jz stop!

sry for flare-ing up..
mango is sry...
but pls don prompt anymore!
jz let things be wad it is...
let mi do wad i wanna do...
i have a mind of my own...
i noe wad i wan...
don worry...
i will be fine!

i have alway been so independent...
i have also let them have the least worries...
so don have more worries now...
i will still be hu i am...
jz stop asking...

things were seriously damn down yesterday nite...
if not for mi! it all wont happen...
maybe i could have handle it in a better way out...but i didnt...
n now is all in a mess..

sigh-ing mango~~
9:05am
mango cant let go...if she could..things wont be in this state now...maybe time shall decide...

2007-11-26T21:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm...wad a happy today..XD

haha..slp at 2..woke up at like 5plus n half awake till 7! omg~~ cant slp la..i wish i didnt noe so much things...make myself scare nia! =x opps!
mango mz be brave...
brave mango! haha..XD

hmmm....went sch..stat lecture...ok..i bring spss instead of the stat lecture notes..=.= omg~~ how blur can i be! haha... did listen...undertand-ed...but still do Q still help more i suppose~~ haha...den off for crs? hahaha! stone-ed..nth to do bah...presentation~~ haha! heck la crs..=x opps!

mango have been very slack thr this sem...sooner or later grp-mates will get irritated by mi not doing my parts! opps!
mango shall stop slacking...XD

after crs...is...break! wanted to go fc4 to eat...but end up at fc5 n tao bao kfc...not mi..my classmates! haha..i jz ate a waffle~~ den off back to fc6 they had their meal..i went to c the food impulsion or wad...is damn gross..=.= stuffing food into mouth..siao! lao si jiu you!

went for econs tutorial..i tried to listen..but zzz monster lure mi to lala land! zzz monster so powerder ok! haha...so i slp for awhile when may said... 'sw..bu yao shuai leh..' haha! den i woke up..copy copy..den may head drop..n she fall aslp..=.= haha! she slp till damn shuang i suppose! hahaha..=x den last Q...she close her tap...i close mine..pack n stuff...n b4 she said she dismiss the class..*mango sling her bag..stand up n said...bye~~bye~~ byebye~~ n she fly off!* hahahahahah..=x they will thinking tat...omg..where am i rushing off to la...probably have some imp things to do..ya..is imp! haha..XD

mango fly~~

hmmm...enjoy-able day...happy day...memorable day...XD
smile~~ mango simply love today..XD
happy day...happy~~ happy~~ happy~~
she is happy thr the whole day...XD

hmmm...went home...check my mail...damn shocking...read everything...mango is found to be guilty...she seriously is...cz she is the cause of everything...='(
sigh...give mi a choice again...i will not choose to even start years back...at least...things may be better now...selfish thinking of mine again...but...sigh...
mango is sry...
she is guilty...
but somethings cant be force...

confuse mango
10:09pm
reading it seriously makes my heart fill wif guilty-ness...

2007-11-25T16:34:00.000+08:00

mango is bored~~ haha...ok she is tired~~ very tired instead~~ haha...

it has been actually a mth....great changes...many changes...
life changed for us~~
his life have much more changes compared to mine...
i noe how he feels...
i am found guilty...
some things jz cant be forced...
appreciated everything... =D
is my fortunate to noe u...but is it ur mis-fortunate to noe mi?
end-ed~~

Hectic wks ahead...omg~~ how to manage my time~~

first aid course (4,6,7,11,13,17,18 n 19 - 6.30 to 9.30) *haven pay~ OPPS!*
Campcraft Competition Training ( Wed & Fri)
Dateline for project cum presentation =( FOM!!!

waiting for holiday to arrive~~
hmmmm...should i sign up for kayaking course for the 15 & 16 dec?
consider-ing...
mango should constantly gaining more skills...
mango wanna improve herself...

studies? sigh~~ is time to start somewhere i suppose~~ hehe! n oh yesh~~ she cant skip any lesson any more!!! If not she will be nag like nobody business! hahahahaha~~ poor her~~
wo zhi dao...ni shi wei wo hao~~

sms boom last mth~~ 2314 msges!! omg!!! haha...control sms! mz worz!
many ppl birthday approach-ing~~ hmmmm~~ zw..banana...purple guy...bin..hmmm~~

mango off
4:44pm

mango is tired..mentally n physically...energy lvl drained...
make peace alrite...XD
thiam-less...

after project went to west mall~~ haha...walk ard...went read some books n so on~~ haha! XD
haha...den walk all the way down...n went out to sit~~ haha...hmmmm...XD
it was damn cold inside the mall..so i went out to sit~~
haha...mango skip her dinner today! jz feel so bloated bah...
went off back home~~
enjoy-able trip home i suppose..XD

u used to be the someone i loved...but it all ended yrs ago...u choose to gave mi up...
don ask...cz there wont be any...
don bother...
i don need..
memories stay...but mango move on...
she will nv accept u ever again...only as friends..XD
13/11/03 - 15/12/03

happy mango..XD
12:21am
she is happy..she met u..waiting for chiu is all worthwhile... appreciate mi...XD i noe u do n u better be...opps!!!!!

2007-11-23T09:44:00.000+08:00

mango is bored! haha...no la..tired i can say...omg~~ i think for the nx few wk i GG liao! project dateline...first aid course...haha! cant wait for holiday....haha! but after holiday really laggi more GG! exam time~~ haha...time pass so fast! poly Y1 seem so fast lo! i don feel tat i learnt anything..haha! too slack le lo!!! =x

seem to have wasted a year~~ is like...=.= many changes..realise many thing..XD
mango grow up a little bit~~ learnt to be more playful...so on n for~~ haha...maybe should do some end of yr reflection? HAHAAHAHA! lame mi! bo liao mi! =x opps!

don use mi as ur chu qi tong~~ cz i wont be! i have my own feelings too~~

carry on later~~ off to poa!

mango miss chiu!
9:47am

ok...when i type off to poa jz now...abt to leave fc6 to class alrdy... mei called n said poa tutorial cancelled!!! damn~~ den i was like...har~~~ bloody hell~~ everytime cancel lesson no say one..stick one paper outside the door..wahlan!!! so end up..i went fc4 awhile..den i went home...too tired le la~ manog cmi! haha..=x oink mi! slp for an hr or so~~

ok..training later...weather very 'nice' gd for some practical CC..hehehe!! but i am lazy!!! OMG~~ how? hahaha..=x lazy mi! oink mi! =x but still have to do it!
i wanna ord too! hahahhaha..=x
will u look for mi today?
will u keep mi company?
miss chui!
mango
1:40pm

2007-11-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

mango is here again! haha..XD

happy mi~~
don think too much~~
happy mi~~
happy~~
happy~~
happy~~ XD

2007-11-22T13:43:00.001+08:00

mango is late for the first lecture! so she decided to not turn up..=x opps! haha..she don wanna go sch today...but still pull herself out of the bed...n will be going to sch for the 4 o'clock lecture! so wad is she doing here now? blogging? dunno..emo lo! =x haha..!

Purple guy jz bullied mi! he said i lousy~~ is not lo..is u random ok! hahahahaha...
Everyone has been bully-ing mi this few days! sad mi! hahaaaha..=x

Is my ah ma birthday tml~~ hehe~~ =x wish her a happy happy birthday b4 hand!
Mango love her dip dip~~ =x

Mango love zzz monster~~
zzz monster is her life!!!
haha...chiu willing to be her zzz monster?
WAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Mango only needs zzz monster! =x
Mango has learnt..is only need herself...becz...she wont forget how painful it is..when someone she needs is gone~~
crazy mango~~
the more crazy i am..only show...i am jz covering more sadness up...
hmmm~~ wad to do..wad to do...wad to do~~~
everything will be fine..i am sure of that...EVERYTHING will be!
remember to keep ur promise...i wan my chips! XD
HAIZ~~ wad can i do? wad can i do? wad can i do~~
day by day....noe-ing n c-ing suffering yet nth can be done~~
seriously hate such feelings~~
mango choose to fly away~~
thinking of chiu makes mi happy...
it has alway being that way..=]
mango only wans to think of chiu!
smile mango~~
1:41pm

2007-11-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

crazy mango!
Top Blacklist-ed : Mr Jon!!
hahahahahaha..=x opps! evil mi! =x

mango's healthy junk food -> SEAWEED!!
haha! mango love seaweed!
seaweed makes her happy~~ hahahaha...=x

Today jon asked mi...'sw...y u so happy todaY? did sth happen yesterday?'
Replied: 'Ya..sth happen yesterday but no happy ma...very ermm...attitude-ing? haha! craving for junk food was so bad! when at nite sista finally bought mi prata n i found seaweed n started eating...n i am happy after tat! i got junk food! hehehehehehehehe...=x'
Jon looked at mi wif the expression..oh ok....hahahaha!

ok..i applied my LOA for yesterday! haha..
ohya! i met Mr Gao! hahaahaha..=x while walking to fc 4 today...kena shock...cz didnt contact for sometime...stop at the middle of the road to chit chat for awhile...(middle of the road!!!) hahaha! den we drift to the side abit la! hahaha...DRIFT~~ TOO much boating le....haha!
having 2nd tot abt learning ppcdl..=x opps! haha..maybe....kayaking first will be better! haahaha..=x opps! un-decisive mango! =x

WILSON BULLIED MI!!! SAD MI!!! he killed virus for mi 2 days ago...n now he is bully-ing mi!! KILL HIM!! XD
yay~~ he suicided!!!
happy mi...WAHAHAHAHAHA
evil mi! =x opps!

mango is crazy today..from the content today..can tell hor? haha!
nth much of a day today...
mango don wanna think too much..
she is happy now...
being happy is all tat she asked for...
too much hope..will bring much disappointment..i shall stick to my theory...
don place hope...so there wont be disappointment...so there wont be sadness...
XD

recover-ing mango..XD
10:15pm
mango loves chiu!
chiu love mango?
HAHAHAHAHA!! crap mi!

mango forget to blog some things...=(
sad mi! getting weaker day by day...
he didnt even wanna tok to mi now..=( feeling sad...each day..c-ing him get weaker n weaker...yet nth i could do..=(
haiz...'lao ren bian' wad to do~~ sad mi?
sad got use meh! putting a strong front..where no one see the tears and ache....
10:39pm

2007-11-20T12:55:00.001+08:00

mango on MC today! haha..gd or bad? i dunno..super nua~~ going to be time for medicine soon! n tat sux..=( taking medicine is the worse thing to do..=( tot of taking medicine also make mi sad...=x

thx everyone for the care n concern...=] haha...
Special thx to Mr Wilson for hunting n killing the virus yesterday to let mi complete my work..haha!
Mango will be alrite soon~~ hehe..=]

sigh~~seem like condition worsen...wad to do? is all part of life? accept it...face it wif a smile...a smile is all it takes...said is easier den done...mango jiayou!

think for ITAB i got 50+? LOL! at least is a pass...=x should be happy...hmmm...econs i got 65~~ hmm..not tat bad either...afterall cant expect much from a last min studying rite? haha! the nite b4 the paper chiong chiong...haha..when will i learn my lesson n start studying..hmmm..maybe for exam...mango will study hard for it! JIAYOU BAH!!! GO GO GO!

miss my class photo taking session today..=( sad mi~~
treasure mi before it is too late...
don hurt mi...i bite...
sick mango
12:57pm

off for medicine.. =(

mango resting at home for the whole day~~ feeling better le i suppose..
less nua? haha...
sth seem so wrong today la..
can we like stop it? seriously hate it....
haha...sad mi! miss alot of stuff today!! damn!! ITAB! performance! class photo! mich honey water~~ OHMY!! sad mi..=(
but at least i recover? so i could play the nx few days!!!
to spend time wif chiu!
nua mango
5:05pm

2007-11-19T21:16:00.000+08:00

mango is dying..=(
she is too weak to blog now~~
too weak to chat...
too weak to do her work...
n worse of all...
Mr Loh bullied her!
sad mi!

oh man~~ how am i going to stay in sch from 8 to 5 tml...probably die b4 tat~~ maybe should choose to go in the morning n off after fom lecture? see how it goes...

mango seriously dying~~ =(

cant take it le!!!

dead mango~~
9:26pm

damn nua~~
body aching..=(
sad mi!

2007-11-18T16:09:00.000+08:00

boo! mango at je! hahaha...=x doing project~~ project = blogging? haha! opps! =x

haha...nth to blog today..but very lame..=x cock alot~~ haha! crazy mi! haha...seems like gonna rain soon...hmmm! wif chips, bubble tea..fries sure bring mi high! hahahaha..=] mango love junk food! hehe..=]

FOM FOM FOM!! cant wait for fom to be over~~ hehe! presentation! haha...ppt!

mango happy today? hyper? biong biong! haha..=x
SMILE SMILE!!! hehe...=]
don wanna think too much...
waiting for wed to arrive! haha...=]
mango off~~
4:10pm
miss chiu..XD

2007-11-17T19:07:00.000+08:00

haha...haven feel so free for a long long time! haha...slack mi! got things to do..but jz cant seems to get myself moving! haha...i dunno wad to blog...but jz feel like it..=x haha!

everything seem so dao to mi today..=(

sth seem to be missing....

guilty mango...
7:07pm

hmmmm...wad am i suppose to blog...ok...sigh-ing mi! i basically jz wasted the whole of today by slacking n enjoying myself!!! haha..=x have been a long time since i actually slack this way! hahaha..=x oink mango! had my chips n watch tv! slp for nearly whole of afternoon! yahoo~~ =x but now...i gonna be dead mango! things to clear..ITAB 2% assignment due on tues n a 10% project due at wk11...CRS group discussion...FOM meeting later on..oh my~~ tutorials!!! haha...nvm la..at least i slack n rest n enjoy myself..=x haha!

later in the nite was rather down side of today...sigh-ing more mango! but i don wanna think abt it...
it alway started wif thinking too much...n i alway tries my best to explain n express myself...

sigh-ing mango
2:45am
it seriously hurts...when u said those words tat were out of ur impulsive...

2007-11-17T13:36:00.000+08:00

16 Nov 2007

Busy day for mi! haha....tired myself like nobody business..=x haha! went sch...stat tutorial..learnt spss...but i was too tired! n he gave back test paper..n i failed! damn~~ i tot i could jz at least have a pass result! oh my! i failed 2 test out of the 3 test alrdy...damn!! sigh-ing mi! haiz! don wanna think..blame it on myself for not studying hard enough! =( den off to pacc tutorial..as usual..didnt do work..hai... for the whole morning..i feel so restless n demoralized!

Waited at T19 for the store to open to collect my HP chain! hmmm..yup yup...haha...came a call tat brighten my morning...tat jz bring a smile to mi! haha...=x fly off to fc4! hehe...n off to club room..really cant stand him man! asking things tat r alrdy stated in the purposal..basically is jz like wasting time can...=.= bloody hell! fund in a mess..yet still wanna think of way to raise fund? kick u away ah! settle the funds first la...ok..nvm...not my business! ok..=x hate it..when u alway find ppl to help u clear ur rubbish shit la! I don care if u get any tom,dick or harry! but not ppl hu i bother abt! =.= *mango relax..* haha! ok ok..den off to get some bread...was force to...=.= den off to sch....hmmm...

training was bad..sucky..i don wanna tok abt it..since i typed out in email alrdy! hehe..=x ok!

off back home! to mei's party! Hong Mei! Happy birthday!!! hehe...*am i abit late to only blog now?* but i wished her yesterday! haha...had a slice of pizza n ate half a donut...actually didnt wan to eat the donut de..but is u buy one...so aiya! at least half la..=x gd mango! hahaha...den off to mei's place! haha...ate quite alot...drink quite alittle! i still don like the taste of tiger and red wine! one word...BITTER! haha..=x played poker! haha...enjoying nite..probably! ppl called..so i went to a quiet place to sit..when mei came n ask mi somethings...n i told them...which seem so sudden n shocking to them..=x sry..i didnt mean not to tell u all..but i cant randomly said out rite? haha! yup..so everyone noes abt it alrdy...nobody asked much..only mich..but i didnt noe how to ans her...

ok..leave her place at ard 1115..took a cab back home! i was very tired...after all is a long long day for mi....
i miss u...sry for attitude-ing u...
To Mr Bin: Pls do have a speedy recovery...take care...=]
u look pale...n it hurts
mango emo-less
1:45pm

2007-11-15T20:34:00.000+08:00

today is a slack-ing day! haha...over slp as usual...woke up at 1030! haha..=x reach sch ard 1215 bah...hehe! CD was sian-ed! i was basically stone-ing...=x off to pacc lecture...hmmm...wad i am doing? i was like toking to jon? haha! mi didnt bully him! hahahaha...i jz played those very lame games! haha...=x den off to break..T19 set up stores..so mi c c look look..haha..bought one HP chain! haha..=x den slack ard...n to econs lecture! hahaha....lecture was fast! i was playing psp! when i stop moon snatch back.. guess wad! psp no bat alrdy! hahahaha..=x too bad for him! hahahaha..=x den i went off to lala land! hahahaha..=x when her lecture ends..i woke up..jz nice on time..pack n go! hahaha..=x standard mi..=x pack up = chop chop fast fast! hahaha...

ohya! i dirtied moon jacket today again! haha...(moon was sitting beside mei) so i told mei 'don tell moon i dirtied his jacket wif chilli sauce' hahaahaa!!! =x den she told moon 'kelvin...sw said don tell u tat she dirtied ur jacket wif chilli sauce..' hahahaha! lame lame lame! =x

ok..off to imm! haha...shop ard...first thing we went there..filled our stomach! haha..=x sweet talk! milk tea! haha...nice nice..=x haha...den shop ard...n bought something...share wif mr moon! haha....

To Mr Jon! u hor!!!! better xiao xin yi dian!!! hahahahahaha...=x

To Mr Bin: take care...speedy recovery for u...=]
alway sick sick de...hai...take care...have enough rest n slp alrite...jiayou jiayou jiayou..go go go!
Today thursday le..this wk seem to pass so fast...but is an enjoy-able days for mi...=]
haha...gastric acting back..irritating...=(
miss u...
mango off
8:45pm

2007-11-14T21:57:00.000+08:00

tired for the past few days....hmmm...

tues - 13/11/07

hmmm..while typing for this post..i realise 13/11 this date...haha! this thing tat came to my mind...13/11/03...hmmm..4 yrs ago bah...memories...
ok...yesterday~ went sch..finally FOM presentation is over! hehe!! YESH!!! CA1 OVER! 30% although is not really very well done..but aiya..at least is over! hip-ups here n there..but still is done! presentation was long! boring n dry~~ i end up playing game..haha!!! play till damn ji dong can! haha..=x opps!
went straight off after tat..haha!! mango fly! haha..ate chicken talk...n i wanted honeydew juice! but honeydew juice = green colour rite! haha..but a cup of orange colour juice was place infront of mi..=x hmmm...so i ask wad juice is tat....replied is 'mango juice' for a moment i believe! haha..=x cz is like orange yellow ma..den i drink..is orange ma...but is suppose to be honeydew? hahahaha!!!! damn funny! esp when today...someone said...honeydew juice is green colour one la..if not orange meh!!! hahahaha!! i was like LOL-ing!!! haha..=x ok..after the 'honeydew juice', went off to the library~~ studied? abit la..haha!!! slp...yes i did! haha..=x is nice...very nice...happy too~ haha...beyond words of explanation...jz happy happy happy...
went home is straight KO! haha...jz slp n heck abt the rest!

Today - 14/11/07
hmmm..skip my lecture today..but went sch to submit the e-learning FOM report..haha...do like shit but heck! haha...this morning slp till very shuang! haha...haven had such long nice slp! hehe..=x one word...NICE! haha...hmmm..went sch for boating theory too! haha..70 over 100..ok la..not too bad le..hehe! some how...my first reaction was to send him a sms on the result of my test..haha...i dunno...jz first reaction i suppose...haha..off to club room to slack...i used my lappy..chat online..so on...is damn cock each wed..when go club room n slack..cz 'new' sport will alway be form...hahaa!! by mr sun! hahaha...damn cock la..=.= haha!
suppose to study today..but didnt..end up resting n more resting...haha....
simply jz love it....haha...=]
went home after tat....

home late since sun...but have being enjoyable nites for mi...
i am happy...cz i am wif u...
simply jz love it..=]

mango smile
10:13pm

2007-11-12T00:57:00.000+08:00

boo! mango is back!

ok...camp ended yesterday..but as usual i am tired..of cz! i also human leh..haha..=x

nth much to blog abt the camp...overall..i slack alot..=x opps! haha..=x poor chelle n ly...everything left for them to do..haha..=x promote 3 2nd class~~ LOL!!! ermm...LCP wif 2nd class? HAHA!! =x ok ok...will promote them ASAP! n soon they will be SGT!! =x haha...

todaY~

sry for being late~~ should be meeting 11 plus at je..but mi woke up at 11! haha...=x oink mi!
reach je ard 140..hmm..i dunno wad to do thou...but is expected..haha! but mi still wanna go...=x

went for dinner~~ n den hang ard je...
the nite wif u...alway no star one!! haha...cz u r the biggest star liao..out-shine all the stars! hahaha..=x
haha...went home later~~ hehe...
how tired...wif u ard...is all worth it..=]

happy mango
1:02am

sry for hurting u..for the cock i said...seriously...don mean it...
ouch mi! sry mi! don mean it...don feel like a fool..cz u r not....

2007-11-09T21:48:00.000+08:00

today is a tiring day!

econs paper seems ok ok..but...hmmm..mi no study hard enough...haha..=x tired mi...
slp at 2 n woke up at 430 to study~~ omg~~ n study study tilll go sch...den during paper...i probably didnt do my best too...haha...was too tired...day-dreaming~~~ haha..=x

after tat off to station waited for chelle n nigel..hehe...n Mr bin called...n he said he wanna come my unit~~ haha..help out..pitch flag staff... haha....

to be carry..

mango too tired to blog..haha!!

currently having annual camp~~

mango off
10:08pm

2007-11-08T15:23:00.000+08:00

08/11/07 - Thurs

hmmm..today is mugging day again~~ yesterday play too much liao...opps! =x
econs tml~~ YAY!! last paper..happy mi..=x haha...although i haven study..quite lazy..=x i mean very lazy..=x opps! haha...but ya...i shall rest awhile more den bath den study liao...mango jiayou..=] hehe...

07/11/07 - Wed...

mango = happy...
hmmm..accounts paper sux...LOL~~ i can barely do any of the Q although i tried my best la..=x opps! haha...off to fc4 n met bin n hk...haha...den head to fc3 for lunch...den to club room to slack..den xav came~~ slack ard..i very sleepy..=x tired ma..den ard 1 went off to gems class..hehe~~ ok..i listen-ed for the first half of the lesson...den later he give break..den i didnt listen le..=x haha!!! was playing puzzle bubble..=x mz break record! =x i shall try~~ after gems went back to club room to slack wif bin n xav...hk went for his extra lesson~~haha...wanted to study..but den..too tired la..heck~~ econs~~ LOL!! =x den after tat went for the farewell enter take a sit...den left..=x opps! hahaha...may get free CCA point jz like this..hahaha!! =x opps!

den went to city hall...no dinner at home~~ so eat out...haha...enjoy-able nite...
jz simply love it..=]

sry for whack-ing bin rite at his face!! LOLx! =x i didnt do it on purpose ar...=x paiseh paiseh....hahaha...=x

happy mango...=]
3:26pm

u filled my mind..

2007-11-06T17:09:00.000+08:00

Tuesday..=( somehow...seem like i alway have tuesday blue...=( simply jz hate it...

i woke up at ard 9 to 930 like tat...n oh shit! cz i haven study finish my STAT for one topic..i jump out la...HAI...did the normal routine...n climb out of bed...was seriously very giddy...tat i couldn't even walk properly from my room to the toilet.. =( sad mi...

studied abit n ya..rush off to sch...i was late for the paper...when i reach the class, they started alrdy...ya..so maybe i am jz afew min late.. haha..rushed all the way from dover to the class~~ omg...with my very not feeling alrite condition..sigh~~ wad a bad day today...

paper was a total different from last yr..kinda expected..=x haha...ever since the last mst/exam... i learn tat don believe wad ppl say..=x study past yr paper sure no prob...cz is not true!! haha..=x opps!

went home after tat..feel so floating...n i went off to bed... slp was not tat nice either...hai...probably fall aslp after a long time.... n woke up at 4 plus..but went back to slp again while waiting for a call...

many sms-es...but i didnt reply to many...lazy mi? probably...but also cz my sms gonna boom real high this mth...damn~~ control abit...
but i still wanna msg u...

all i wan was to keep in contact wif u...

moody mango...
6:39pm

unless i allow...
if not no one is able to step in...

2007-11-05T18:29:00.000+08:00

today is monday...n monday i am happy~~ haha....

i met bin today~~ he walked mi from station to sch of business today...LoLx! how nice of him rite~~ LolX! =.=
i was rushing to sch for test~~ n he was going home..=x i met him at the bus stop~~ hehe...
don have monday blue~ don wan monday blue also..=x haha~~
he climb the hill wif moi~ n he stop at the foot of the hill saying he was tired....wahahahaha~~ =x pig rite! hmmmm...had a can of drink...n off to class~~ jz nice on time...hehe...if late u noe whose fault le hor...hahaha..=x

ITAB test~ free from access...YAY~~ happy mi!!! LoL! although i dunno how to do the report..but i tried la..=x the rest those i can do..i do le...dunno how to do also anyhow do le..result also..LOL~~ wait n i will noe...=x opps! hmmmm....went home after tat....today i toked very little to my classmate..i dunno y...jz don feel like toking...
i was in my own dream land...haha~~ =x

slp n woke up...had dinner..time to chiong STAT alrdy i suppose~~ haha...

when will my last min attitude change..i think is difficult..haha..=x

i am happy...i met him today~ LoLx!
4 days seem short yet so long...

happy mango
6:31pm

off to study...

nv fail to make mi smile...=]

2007-11-04T20:20:00.000+08:00

end-ed...

hmmm...yesterday was CIP day~~ LOL!!! hmmm..presentation mz sian my way thr liao..wahahahaha..=x opps! ok...CIP = do saikang~~ LOL...i don mind actually...help other ma...zhu ren wei kuai le zi ban....correct? =x

hmmm..today i studyed STAT~~ LOL..not as difficult as it seems to be bah..hmmm...tml go pratice Q i think should be ok le...hopefully~ i don wanna fail~~ fail once liao..opps! =x

ok..access? hmmmm..i haven study..LOL~~ chiong tonite...hmmm..i seriously think i going to have problem wif access..=x haha..pask 5 wk lesson..no listen at all..=x wad was i doing? playing game~~ haha.=x opps..=x pls la..lesson early morning 8am to 11am..wahlan...boring like shit..n the lecturer is like...=.= damn boring...=x haha..=x

accounts...hmmm..tues den chiong la...wahahaha..=x

econs...hmmm...wed n thurs...opps! =x haha...ohya..econs notes i like haven copy during the e-learning..omg..i jz remember...jz!!! haha..=x opps! forgetful mi..

tired mi!

off to study stat n access...chiong chiong chiong...go go go...
LOL!!!
last min studying thou..=x opps!

new path...new way...
got to learn how to do so...

new mango
8:21pm

2007-11-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

slept at 4...woke up at 10..roll on bed till 11...LOLx! damn tired can...travel all the way to jp~~ moon!! how u gonna thx mi lo~~ haha...y travel all the way jz to help him!! i dunno leh...but since he asked for help..so somehow...i went down to help him...wei da bah~~ LoLx!

reach home at ard 730 i suppose...damn tired...craving for spicy food..but i didnt eat spicy food for dinner...sad mi! went to slp at 8 n woke up at 9 to watch tv~~ half aslp thou..hahaha..=x very tired ar~~ so after the show..here i am..blogging~~

i wont insist anymore...
i wont do anything anymore...
time will lead to somewhere...

wad is my feelings...
where is my feelings...
i cant find any...
ouch is all tat i could feel...
eventually...
i turn it numb...
cant feel anything...

i jz need some peace...
get over wif mst wk..
fom presentation...
so on n on...
i don wan bother abt other things anymore...
i am tired...
i have no energy to do so anymore...
let mi take a break...a rest...
leave mi alone...
i noe wad i wan...
i noe wad i am doing...
don make mi even more confuse...
at least...not now...
not now!!!
=(

breaking down...
leave mi alone!!!

numb mango
10:04pm

i miss u...
miss u...
n is u...

Ice...

2007-11-01T19:43:00.000+08:00

hmmmm....negative mi? nah~~
i am jz being realistic...
is not becz i wan to..is becz..i have to...
who don wish to live in a world of fantasy..
seriously..i love the days i spend in fantasy world...
but how long can i stay in there...
how long!!!! =(

the word trust...
haha~~ simply too difficult for mi...
y? becz i stop trusting at the age of 10...
lol~~ so many years back isnt it? how time files...
it was only till 14...i trusted again...
but wad happen to the trust i placed in...
i was hurt...badly....
silly mi!! yesh..i was...tat is y..i will alway remember tat particular person...
n make sure i hate him!!!!
haha...but still...sweet came after all the bitter-ness...
trust build up slowly between us...probably took u a yr plus to 2 yr i suppose...
tat is life...
end-ed but the trust will nv end...=]

probably...only 3 person i trust now...

congrats to Mr Bin for passing his ppcdl theory test..=]

miss-ing mango
8:17pm

when i think of u...
i dunno wad to do...
when will i c u again...
i miss u like crazy...
even more den words can say..

i am so down..
when u were not ard...
i miss u...
miss u like crazy...

you were all tat i wan..
you were all tat i need...
cant u c how i feel...
cant u c tat my pain so real..
when i think of u...
i dunno wad t o do...
when will i c u again...
i miss u like crazy...

feeling down the whole nite...
don ask mi...
cz i dunno either...
ache is all tat i could feel...
having a mango pudding tat is totally taste-less...
oh...my~~
sadist mi...

hurt mango
4:00am

2007-11-01T13:04:00.001+08:00

hmmm...i dunno wad to blog nowadays....haha....
wad is happening in my life....
hmmm...i dunno either....
changes...change...more changes...haha...
hmmm...somehow...
i enjoy the free-ness...
ermm..maybe jz more time for myself...
to do things...
participant in things....hmmm..=)
wadever it is....shall not think abt too much either...
hehe...

ok...e-learning wk is ending...n i haven finish...maybe should finish by today...discipline..=x self control...ok..jiayou!!! haha...
mst wk coming...n i studied NTH!!! OH NOOOOOOOOOOO~~
i am slacker this sem..damn!!!! haiz..how? i dunno either....
i need more time..less distraction...less emo-ing...haha!!! =x
still jiayou bah...
wk8, FOM presentation....first thing..i am sry..i haven done the ppt yet!!! ok la..is have complete it..opps! but still will dig some time out!! yesh...n i will n i mz!!! =x ok..believe mi..=x
nx is boating theory...hmmmm....25% e-quiz..=.= zzzz... can i not have it? LOL!!! sure GG liao...study till thiam..=x hmmm..looking at the things i have to do...maybe i will only be able to study it the nite b4 the quiz! haha..=x opps!! wadever la...i seriously lack of time..=x haha...

hmmmm....
smile because it happen...don be sad cause is over...
i feel more peace noe-ing tat u r better now..=]

time to clear my e-learning n study le... =]

tired mango
1:06pm

somehow...u filled my mind these day...
i miss u...
really do...

2007-10-31T00:58:00.000+08:00

mango is happy today....haha..=)

hmmm..e-learning...i clear crs, cd and boating...haha!!! hmmm...5 more to go...
damn i hate access!!! ok..tml shall practice in sch.. mango jiayou!!! what should i do tml? hmmm...FOM e-learning bah...n access too~~ HAI..access sux..anyone willing to help mi? haha..

lazy to blog mi...LOL...

feelings n word beyond explanation...

2:00am

2007-10-29T22:35:00.000+08:00

sigh-ing mango...=(

hate it each time when u said don wan tok to u le...=(

birds of the feather...thiam si jiu you...=(

3 sad face...3 un-happy-ness...
but i still miss u....

simply love every wed...=)

jiayou jiayou...gd luck hokay? =) believe in urself...u can do it..all the best..study hard..n score!!! hehe...i is believe no problem de hokay? jiayou jiayou go go~~ smile smile bah...=)

crazy mango
10:36pm

signs of depression...
don give mi any more blows..
i wont be able to take it....
don let mi step into deeper depression...
i wont be able to take it...
i will lose control over myself...
Mango JiaYou!!
a smile is all it take..=)

2007-10-29T15:17:00.000+08:00

i don even understand wad i doing now....
words cant explain...
feeling cant be express...
i wanna fly away...
tat could be the easiest way out...
take all the pain...
absorb all the pain...
throw it all down...
i wish i could numb myself forever...
tat marks the end of mi...
the feeling of numb-ness...
seem so great yet so pain...
hu is there to understand mi...
noone...
cz i don even understand myself...wad more abt others...

i wan wad i wan...
i don wan mean i don wan...
so wad is my wan n don wan...
i don wan anything anymore....
i wanna fly away...run away...
to a far away land...
i wanna be left alone...
until a day..when i noe...
hu i am...

numb-ness mango...
goodbye...
3:26pm

2007-10-28T20:22:00.000+08:00

hmmm...ppl alway say...
an apple a day keeps the doctor away...
i ate 2 green apple today...so does it keep the doctor away for 2 days? hahaha!!!
crazy mi...

boring day today...somehow..head seems to be in constant pain...don ask mi y..cz i am not the doctor!! haha...
love to slp nowadays~~ hehe...
simply love slping...wahahaha..
oink mango..opps!

project time!!! lazy mi..opps!!

crazy mango
8:22pm

25/10/2007
my mind was set...

2007-10-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

sigh-ing day i suppose...=( moody mi!!

i let my whole life enter a state of mess...
i destroy everything wif my own hand...
i let my mind take control...
i don wan anything now...

reasons tat were un-speak-able...sigh...
hu is there..tat i could share wif...
i long for one...
but sry..
i let no one noes...

stop Stop STOP...
stop pushing mi...
stop pressing mi...
stop forcing mi...
let mi do it at my own pace...
let mi announce it when the time comes...
don force mi anymore...
i will breakdown...
i will run away from everything...
i will withdraw from everyone...
i will disappear forever...
STOP!!!!!

mango enter-ing state of depression..
11:33pm

let mi clear my homeworks...
let mi do my project...
let mi clear my test...

i should not have flare up at them...
should not have being so un-professional...
i don deserve to be one...

2007-10-27T02:34:00.000+08:00

26 October 2007

hmmm..friday...nth much of a day... i went sch..STAT n PACC tutorial...hmm..STAT when i went into the class..is like only half the ppl? i wonder where is the rest, i was late ok. haha..=x den later one by one came in...question mark all over...i tot they meet n maybe when buy some food den go class..but sadly..is not..haha...some late..some pon! LOL..=x unexpected leh...=x ok...den as usual..i didnt do my tutorial...n den as today so little ppl...Mr Ken has no one to called...so...sadly...he found out tat...so many ppl didnt do his tutorial...so there goes my CP marks!! damn~~ sigh..=x opps! haha...

ok..off to PACC...where we waiting outside the wrong class...=.= LOLx!!! ok la..jz a room different..=x den no do hw also la...jz went in to copy ans..hehe..=x hmmm...wasnt really listening too..haha...den later off to home~~ friday..yet nth to do..hmmm..i dunno y...i didnt go fc3 wif my classmates...i jz went home..probably not in the mood either bah...went home to slp!! hehe...i didnt eat la...i dunno...=x opps!! slp from 1 plus all the way to 5 plus...yahoo~~ enjoy...hehe..=x mango simply love slping..hehe..=x den woke up...get ready off to pw~~ LOLx...meeting...not really meeting bah..nth much is done..dinner wif chelle? probably..seem long since i last had dinner wif her...haha...busy us! =x

off back to home~~ sigh~~ not until then i suppose...

okie..got no time alrdy..i have wasted the whole of this wk! time to do somethings..hehe... study..study study...np..projects..projects n projects..hehe...
time damn tight now...plan for the up coming wks...

27/10 -> Project
29/10 - 4/11 -> e-learning wk

31/10 -> spnpcc
3/11 -> CIP

5/11 - 9/11 -> MST WK..TEST TEST TEST!!!
9/11 - 10/11 -> CAMP!
13/11 -> FOM Presentation

ok...more or less..tat is all tat i could remember for now..sigh...busy days ahead..i long for a break~~ hmmm..CC team forming~~ training CC team..LOL!!! oh man~~

tired mango
2:39am

hmmmm...i have phobia uploading pictures into blog alrdy!!! hahahahaha...=x who noes wad may happen to those pictures la!!! so pardon mi for my wordy blog..=x

2007-10-25T22:36:00.000+08:00

today is thursday...should wake up at 830..but i overslp..LOL...=x 9 plus wake up...paiseh~~ =x don mind mi..=x sms sms sms...hmmm n goes on n on...i still said in the end...sry...

miss pacc lecture...went sch at 3..met wif purple guy...hmm..thx for ur present...hmmm..not bad bah...but u didnt noe..i prefer long long earings..haha!!! =x opps!! but thx anw..is nice..=) hmmmm....went copy-ed pacc notes..n photocopy STAT tutorial...thx sohpia..hehe...=x den off for econs lecture..hmmm...she finished topic 14...n started 15...n i was half awake le..so when my friend said..i should not have came sch today...since lecture also half listening n the topic 15 is e-learning wk..n will be upload-ed at BB...i straight away switch off le..haha!!! =x opps!
n went out for dinner....hmmm...yup yup...

off to home...sry...is all i could say now...
wad will life going to be like now...starting will alway be hard...
jiayou bah...

lonely mango
10:43pm

2007-10-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

Wed~~ today...i skip accounting lecture~ LOL..

story for today...

woke up at 630 n back to slp till 7 plus? hmmmm....den i woke up...i went to my lappy...i stare at it blank-ly..cz i dunno wad to do...LOL~ they noe mi..but i dunno them...haha...=x den i went to wash up n stuff...back to my lappy..ard 750 le bah...late late~~ but accounting lecture got no motivation to go..cz is very boring...n i wont understand wad the hell he is toking abt at all!!! hai...but i end up going to sch at 845? when my lesson starts at 9? n i need 45min to 1 hr to reach sch..haha!!!!

hmmm...wont be tat late today...but i left sth at home....so i went all the way back home to get the cd when i alrdy reached the over-head bridge...climb alll the way up n down..LOL...still don have the habit of carrying the mp3 ard...LOL~~ almost every day rush to sch one leh...haha~~ ok...i went sch...n went to fc4...sat there..took out the cca record form...i didnt photocopy...HAI...old mi~ so i went all the way to fc3 to photocopy..n went saa to filled it up..hmmm..LOL!! i noe how to walk from saa to fc3...but from fc3 to saa..i walked a circle..=x opps! blur mi..=x haha...went to submit..she wasnt ard..so i jz leave it on her desk..haha...n off to fc4..i copied my lecture notes...hmmm....1 hr..he went thr like 4 5 pages only? wadever...study on my own...hmm..i wanna study..=) i will alrite...ok ok...
after tat..jon was kind enough to help mi buy my food..but sadly..i think i ate less den 1/2 of it..n threw it away...cz i jz basically don feel like eating...bad sign! den i slp at fc4 while waiting for the time to pass...den went to walk outside the conventional center there..den off for FOM lecture..hmmm...FOM lecture is alway the best..hehe..=) i am sure those hu attend-ed the lecture noes wad i mean! haha..=x enjoyment...although he sound abit emo today... =x haha...
off for gems~~ took his car down...yay~~ save alot of walking time n save my leg from the suffering..hehe..=x lucky mi..=x went to class...n sian-ed..hmmm..a course tat able to learn finish in one day...hai..how is he gonna drag for afew wks? LOL!! wadever la...=x slack mango..=x

after gems...off to clubroom..hmmm...bin n hk went play badminton..i stayed in the room..nth to do...so i went to slp...HAI...when i woke up...moody le...hahaha!! head damn pain..even until now..hai...almost lost my balance jz now...poor mi!!! n off to home...i didnt attend the tok today..=x cant be bother la...HAI...cz i don wanna go...i wanna .. ...

wed is a day i look forward to each wk...=)

hmmmm....i need a dentist...=( LOL!!! too lazy to go visit one..=x opps!

oh man!!! tired mi...lazy blog le....boring story today..cz is all wad i have encounter-ed...hmmm...

i am happy today too!! becz...i received 2 more present today~~ one from Mr Ice...n another from someone..=x hmmm...if the someone...gave mi maybe 4 yrs ago? i will be damn happy..n over the moon...but i am happy to c a gift from him thou..haha...=) not forget-ing Mr Ice...haha... =) hmmmm...3 words...i love it....hehe...=x

go rest le...poof~~

mango poof~
8:37pm

2007-10-24T00:16:00.000+08:00

23 October 2007

hmmm..i seriously hate tues..x= I alway have tuesday blues...haha!!! =x

lesson at 8 to 5...hmmm..ITAB...so usual..i was gaming...LOL!! noe nuts abt wadever she taught...bless mi for the ICA...LOL! followed by econs..ok i listen-ed but i am lost too far away to catch up..so i jz copied down the notes..but yup...den break~ hmmm..tomato almost cz mi to vomit! haha..=x although i still try to force myself to eat..but the taste of it...yuckx! haha.. so i still removed one in the end..at least i ate the another one!! hehe..=x den to FOM lecture..ok..i am lost..i listened but nth go in..but at least FOM lecutre is alway the best of all...enjoying bah..hehe..wont sian..if only all my lecture like tat..i sure happy till over the mood..haha!! sure everyday motivated to go sch..but sadly is not...haha!!! ok.. next...

FOM tutorial... first wanna thx moon for helping mi to clear my lappy rubbish..haha..thx!! he is nice to mi for the past few day...LOL!! opps!! so i shall be nice to be in return..haha!!! he is nice to everyone la...esp to gers~~ LOL...Jon is nice too!! he help-ed mi carry my lappy today..cz i was too lazy...=x hehe..lazy mi! n of cz...becz of the tuesday blues... ok..FOM tutorial..i did nth..beside asking moon wad is this..wad is tat...LOL!!! =x noob leh..den while waiting for scan finish...he went to play game..n got screw-ed by mich!!!! LoLx!!! i noe nuts abt FOM now la..=x haha.. but..aiya~~ wait..when i get serious!! don look down on mi!!! haha...=x had abit of grp discussion...haha...don step on my tail..n i will be fine...=]

after FOM i went to look for Dr Sun at the clubroom!!! haha... he was doing some sp npcc matter bah..haha...den i asked him to help mi check my lappy too!! haha...we went...i dunno where...=x a place where ppl studies...haha...den ya..he do this do tat..do tat do this..aiya..dunno wad he doing also..haha..end up my laptop now how le? LOL..better? more lag? i dunno..seem like more lag lo...hahaa!!!! opps!!! nvm la..wait n c how it goes...if cannot den mz send to Dr Sun for repair le..hahaha...=x we stayed till ard 9 bah...haha!! hmmm..my tuesday blues were gone after sch...don ask mi y..somehow..it jz disappear..haha!!!

haha..conclusion for the day..i am down in the day till evening...n i am happy from evening till now...LoLx! But I am tired since morning till now!!! haha..=x

my head hurts..i think i knock onto somethings while slping last nite..sad mi...jz lightly touch can feel the pain!!! OH NO!!! =x haha....=x
One happy thing is tat i get my room back!!! YAY~~ finally...i get to slp on my bed...after 1wk? or so..YESH!! happy mi..haha..i love my bed~~ hehe...

hmmm...taking note of my diet these day...sigh~~ JiaYOU!

got to eat into my own saving once more~~ Sigh...mother told mi...she not enough $$ liao...due to..well..the change in TV n air con at home..=.= haiz~ n my brota HP bill tat reach $110 this mth...n i screw-ed him upside down! am i wrong being strict on him? sigh...wad can i do...sometime i wonder...should i jz close my eye..n let him do wadever he wans...wad can i do to help him? it seems like...to him..i am jz being evil n mean n bad...but does he even noe..y am i doing so...

un-appreciated mango
12:39am

2007-10-22T20:57:00.000+08:00

BOO! Mango is happy today..=) no monday blues~~

no one has the rite to say anyone smile is ugly..wad-so-ever..becz as long as is true smile...is alway the best..=)

don stop smiling becz of other's ppl comment becz they simply don have the rite to do so...=)

i am nice..=) lol...

hmmm...i mz remember to do the CCA record form..haha!!! =x drag one wk liao..mz get it done by wed bah...REMEMBER!!!!

Lazy to blog..=x

Oink Mango..XD
9:53pm

2007-10-21T00:39:00.000+08:00

20/10/2007

hmmm..i got a new nickname? pink ger? LOL!!! cz i wore pink tat day..=.= LOLx!!! i don remember his name actually when he add-ed mi in msn...i mean i noe his name but i dunno he hu...so i asked him his shirt colour...he said was purple..haha...den i remembered him as the purple guy...haha!! so in return he call-ed mi the pink ger..=.= LOLx..lame leh...i still prefer mango...haha..=p but is ok la..pink ger jiu pink lo...HOR..purple guy!!! haha...

i had a very very nice slp...haha..woke up at like 2 plus today? LOL...i slp for 13hrs!! hehe..woke up at 730 thou...at a look at my phone...stare at it for a moment..u told mi not to call u...i wanted to msg...but decided not too..so i fall back to slp...n woke up every now n den hoping to c some msges...LOL~~ in the end there was but arent from hu i wish...so i sent out an sms...LOL.. i replied some n poof...i fall back into lala land...when i woke up...i saw 4 msges recieve...LOL~~ ok...so i fall back to slp again..n finally at 2 plus plus going 3...i decided to wake up...hehe..=)

i am only a 17 years old ger...
maybe cz of the surrounding now...
the tot of settle-ing down is drifting further n further...
in fact...i don even wanna settle-ing down...

sometimes...i dunno wad i am thinking... sometime jz very contraditing too..hmmm...aiya... wadever it is...i don wanna think le...i think studying is more imp more... rite? i am happy wif wad i have now...

long lag inbetween the blog....cz i told u wadever i was feeling....=) at least...i didnt wanna keep from u anymore....
i am sry...
at least tat was how i am feeling....
hmmm...=)

i miss him....

2:15am

2007-10-19T19:08:00.000+08:00

mango is here once again~~ LOL...active blog leh...=x

haha..first thing i wanna say..is i am sry..=x i didnt go down for training today...haha..=x somehow..i fall aslp on my sofa this afternoon when i am suppose to get ready to go down for dragonboat...hmmm...don ask mi...i cant recall how i fall aslp either...haha!!! evil mi...ps-ed ly..=x opps..=x when i woke up is like 4? LOL..wanna chiong down liao..but ly told mi is ok...haha..they going to be dismiss le..opps..=x really paiseh ar...i don mean it!! LOL...am i really tat tireD? probably... haven been slping well the whole of this wk...haha... really sry ar...hmmm...oh no!!! there will be camp~~ although i have the urge to go camps..but den...HAI..not when MST wk is nearing!!!! haha...damn~~ but well..i still have to...mango jiayou!!! hehe...

ok..carry on..17 Oct 2007 dinner...hehe...
hmmm..left sch n head down to orchard...had dinner at sushi tei~~ hmmm...gerald was as lame as he alway have..or rather more lame..haha..super di siao lo...haha...more beng..probably... he wont give up his hair n nails for the course one la...haha..opps..=x a 'guy' indeed..haha!!! hmm...he changed..don seem the gerald i used to noe..haha...ya..everyone changed..=) so hai hao la..haha...gerald gerald gerald...hmmmm...haha..=) memories...
haha..chelle n mr chew~~ hmmm....bring backs alot of memories bah..haha...but...smiles...memories...hehe..=) hmmm...somehow..i missed those day...yr of 2004... haha...cz tat is where all my memories stay... tat period..was my happiest part of life...haha~~ it all started june 2004... haha...=)

somehow i missed those feeling..probably becz...i cant feel them now anymore...ppl changed..surrounding changed...hmmm..i understand more things now...seen more things...haha... i used to think how much i noe n understand..but actually i didnt noe anything...haha... childish mi~ haha...powderfoolish~~ LOL!!!
i changed...is tat sth gd or bad? i don noe either...but does not matter either...life stills carry on...

hmmm...is alway so tired to insist on doing some things...so y do i still bother to insist on doing it...i dun noe either...somehow...there is this factor to let mi insisting...haha...=) i still tries..no matter how tired...

currently chatting wif may n mich..n was toking how this sem modules weightage...bloody hell..damn heavy lo...HAI...wasted 1mth alrdy..mango going to jiayou!! wanna study...haha..=)

Mango jia jiayou...go go!!!

Mr Ice...LOL~~

8:04pm

hmmm..feeling emo~~~ ok ok ok..tml wake up be a better day...ya...no emo-ing...
study study study..i wanna study..=)
jiayou jiayou jiayou...
no distraction...no no no~~
haha..=)
smile smile....
i will...
hehe..=)

nitez...
12:57am

2007-10-17T17:22:00.001+08:00

boo n away~~ haha...today is a happy happy day...n i shall let it be a happy day..no matter wad...haha~~ =)

happy cz ppl remembered my birthday...haha..=) actually..jz a simple msg will do...or a simple call..haha...is more den enough le...haha...

started at 12am...haha..i had my first cake...lol...first present...thx..=)
came to sch..meet up wif classmate at th station..haha...hmmmm....ok..lecutre starts at 845...we reach at like 9? n i forget to bring my lecutre notes despite standing infront of my table...thinking n making sure i bring everything..haha!!! tooo tired le bah..=x opps...=x
almost everyone in class wish-ed mi!! haha...
thx to jon,ph,moon,mich,elaine,may,mei,lt,jx...did i left anyone out? doubt so rite..haha...thx ppl..=) really xie xie...haha...n also mich n mei for giving another seperate present..haha.. thx thx..=)
had another cake at fc5..haha...thx to my classmates..=) haha...luckily no stun!!! haha..lucky mi..hehe..=x
off to FOM lecture...hehe...i slp..=x haha~~ n came down to clubroom to meet bin,xav n hk...hmmm..i didnt take the car leh!!! i walk to find them here...LOL~~~ =x

gems was boring..not listening at all..haha..=x after gems...off to clubroom...hmmm...
n now..waiting for the nite to come...dinner!!! hehe...=x

ohya..today i ate shroom bugar meal..n left the whole bugar untouch-ed..cz i was too full when i finished the fries...hehe...=x

CD presentation still not done thou...finish it when i reach home tonite..haha..=x hmmm... =)

today...17/10/2007..=)
birthday use to be nth but normal day to mi for yrs...but it has no longer been normal day since 4 yrs back...haha...this yr..is one of the most special one..=)
to other's birthday may not mean anything...but to mi...
birthday mean the value u mean to the someone....=)
haha...jz a simple msg from them...is enough....hehe....
spending my birthday wif...i only wanna spend it wif ppl i wan n wish....haha....of cz noe hu rite... haha...XD
haha...wo hui guo today happy happy de...no reason to be sad either...haha..=)

omg..so many happy face smile...haha...first post wif so many bah...hehe..=x cz i really am...
at least...i noe...how much i mean to others....haha...=)

present is nth....is the tot n heart tat counts....haha...such thing...i can feel it..=)
true feeling cant be hidden...
c wif ur heart...
feel wif ur heart...
understand wif ur heart...
think wif ur heart...
it will lead to somewhere...=)

5:35pm

thx for all the presents n wishes...hehe..=)
i apperciate...seriously...i do..
haha..

thx...thx...thx...=)

2007-10-15T18:13:00.000+08:00

today....hmmm...i didnt go sch...slp at 3 yesterday...n woke up at 6 when my mother woke mi up...=( she asked mi to faster go c ah gong...i tot wad had happen...he cried once again...hai...seem to be in pain..all i could do was to sit there n look at him...decided not to go sch today...he couldn't wake up...no matter how we tried to wake up...he jz didnt wan to...he jz keep on saying don wan...n jz lie still down there...open n close his eye constantly...but was too weak to do any other thing...=( sigh~ sat by his bed for an hr plus or so...fearing tat his breathing would stop..=( later i couldn't take it..due to the lack of slp n meal...i went to get some rest...=(
sighing...i let my tears roll down this morning...i am afraid he is going to leave...i don wan tat to happen..=(

hmm..after tat..he is feeling better...hopefully....

sry to ph,mich,moon n lt...not able to meet up for project today.....will be there tml...
thx ppl..=)

did abit of CD..hmmm...i hope the background will be nice..if not do again lo...content wise..LOL~~ still doing..will finish by tonite...hopefully...hmmm...i wonder how it is progressing..

had a new TV today...cost like bomb can..=.= although it looks gd..but cost of it? LOL...hopefully is worth it la..although i dunno y my mtoher choose to buy tat..=.= really need such a big screen?LOL..

hmm...cousin is so cute...lol~~ 4 yrs old only...how nice being a child...no worries no problem..jz play play play..not noe-ing anything...being so innocent..haha...creativity...haha~~ hmm..seems to have endless energy...keep playing n jumping ard until my another cousin(21 yrs old) so tired le..den wanna let her slp..so she will quiet down..LOL~~ i fall aslp too.. she really is cute...=) kids innocent..playful-ness...wad more can be more valuable than tat..
i wish..i could go back to mine too...

i was bullied by bin today..=.= omg la~~ curse him! curse him!! curse him!!!! humpx!!!

off to do CD..
6:31pm

sry theng jie~ not don wanna meet..but time really very tight...one day alrite..=)

sry..i got no mood for any celebration...

i have many many birthday wishes...will it all come true?

will my wish(es) come true?
greedy mi...

2007-10-14T21:23:00.000+08:00

13th October 2007

event went smoothly( ok ok la..) and ended...tat should mark the end of spnpcc induction day 2007...=) it started raining once we were abt to set off to first station..damn!! hip-ups along the way..but was resolved one by one..thx to nigel, Xav,chelle,hk,amy not leaving out jw,leslis. sy leh? ok la...he did help out too..=)
but mainly thx to nigel n GLs to keep having to think on the spot! act on the spot..=x opps!! n esp to chelle her friend for taking part to make the event carry on.

after event ended, dinner at vivo food court, and den toking session at sky park!! n off for ice cream...hehe...=x n home sweet home...was damn bloody tired can!! haha..=x

14th Oct 2007

hmmm...today..bad day~~ i couldn't wake up despite slping at 1 yesterday, sry for letting may,mei,elaine,mich,lt for waiting for mi for nearly an hr...off to elaine hus...but shortly, my sista msged mi..saying ah gong was crying...saying he going to die soon...i called her back...i told her i was doing project will go home once i finish...den later my mother called again to asked mi to go back home...i told her i will once i finish...den my brota called saying mother wan mi go back to c him...i told him i will once i am done...hai...i went back to the room to carry on doing..when elaine asked mi...izzit tat sth has happened...i wanted to stay on doing the project...but they advise mi to go back..n leave it to them...i was reluctant to go..but i still went off..thx ppl...=)
rushed all the way back home...hai...when i left, he was still gd n great..when i reach home...he looks pale n weak...complaining it was painful...nth i could do...something..jz so beyond control... many ppl came today too...sigh...

i tot of my childhood..when my ah gong looked after us..played wif us..so on n on...giving us our nickname...haha..XD den taught mi how to play chi chess...n so on n on.. n slowly...i forget when was the last time i actually really tok to him..until recently..when he fall ill...sigh...how many yrs did i lost wif him...neglected him..didnt bother abt him...i think back..i regretted...the time lost cant be return...=(

he is in pain...but nth i could do...sometime i wish...he could leave peacefully...free from all pain...
trying hard to hold back my tears...but sometime i wish...i would jz let it roll down...
nth i could do...but to try to be happy...i really don wan him to leave...what will it be like...each day i leave the hus...i would said 'gong gong, bye bye' when i reach home... i would said 'gong, wo hui lai le' asking if he had his meal...c-ing him sitting at the sofa...wad will it be like...i don wanna think...i don wan him to leave...=(

projects in hand..=( CD, FOM...i cant concentrate..but somehow i have to make sure i do sth abt it, sry to my grp members...i will try to do wadever tat i could..i will control my emotion...sry once again for being late n leaving early...

so near...yet so far...

9:59pm

2007-10-12T11:26:00.000+08:00

boo! lol...emo emo emo...not emo..but hungry n tired n sleepy now...haha!!! but i dunno wad to eat...at fc4 now...LOL...doing research n decided to blog first...LOL...=x feel like slping~~

this morning i met Mr SUN!! LOL...jz happen de la..izzit? LOL!!! no la...cz lesson starts at 8 one ma..so yup yup..arrived at station plus mius will be same time...haha..but actually today i only needa reach sch at 830 la..LOL...XD but i still woke up early like 8 o'clock lesson..LOL...cz lazy change time to wake up...=x lol..blur liao~~ wake up no wake up..LOl..=x dunno wad i typing also...LOL!!!!

den went sch for SPSS test..hmmm..hopefully i didnt do any careless mistake or read the question wrongly or sth...hehe..so still ok ok..ohya..!!! i set up my laptop...getting ready to start test le..den poof came JX!!! n guess wad...he trip-ed over my wire n there goes my lappy..=.= cz i took out my batt..den i have to wait for it to set up all over again..=.= den ok ok..finish quite fast...ok..n i taught jon how to do recode..LOL!!! JON wanna return mi the favour by treating mi...but i told him i don wan..LOL!!! y leh? cz i wan him owe my the favour...Wahahahaha..evil mi..=x but actually...real reason being...nvm la...jz help help lo...no harm..=) although is a test...but hu cares~~ LOL...

off to accounting tutorial...LOL..waiting outside the class for nearly 30min..cz we were too early? LOL..den hmmm...i didnt do the tutorial as usual...LOL...=x den here come the cher asking mi to ans the Q...she go by class number la..so ya...b4 my name..i asked mich..LOL..she explained to mi..so i jz repeat wadever she said..LOL~~~ x= den after tat off too fc4..where i am now...LOL..blogging...hmmm....

things tat i have to do here...

FOM research
CRS articles
Watch bu neng shuo de mimi...=x opps~~
CD short meeting? LOL...
spend my last free friday doing nth..=x LOL...
ohya!!! by today mz get the amazing race logistics for tml ready...LOL!!! =x

tat is all bah..hmm..yesterday damn stress n haiz..=( but everything is well n gd liao..hehe..=) hopefully..mango jiayou bah..=) wo ke yi de..jiayou jiayou...

super duper iron mango..
is not tat i wan...but is cz..i have to...
wo hui guo de hao hao de..=)

thx mr bin..hehe..=)
mango off to do work~~
11:43am

2007-10-10T23:31:00.000+08:00

don give mi expectation n waiting...hopes n wishes....
den trash it all down...
if this is the case...
i rather not have any then...

shi wang yi qi wang....i had enough....
so don let mi have any expectation...
i be happier this way...

hate waiting...
waiting for ans...
waiting for replies...
waiting for msges...
waiting for calls...
but somehow...patience grown through the years...
waiting has been a common thing...
being understanding have become part of my life...

one phrase i saw today..forget from where le..=x
'is ur life or my life more imp, ans is mine...'
ppl normally jz take the first part....but the last part is...
is because..ur life is as imp as mine...

but my ans will be...other's life is more imp...
because..my life arent imp at all...
in my eyes..other ppl is more imp...
esp those i care....they mean more den anything to mi...
if they hurt..i be more hurt...
if they sad...i be more sad....
hurt n sad becz of mi..i be in hell...
if they r happy...i will be the first to be happy for them..=)

silly mi? probably....

12:04am

2007-10-10T16:15:00.000+08:00

hmmm..today is a wed~~ LOL..one more wk!!! LOL..=x hmmm...

ah gong fall down again...HAI...woke up at 5 plus this morning..when my mother came n ask mi to help support my ah gong to stand up...cz she don have the strenght...haiz...alway so stubborn...=(

went back to slp after tat..at 7 ah ma called mi up..didnt wanna go to sch..but the tot of gem....pul myself out of the bed to sch...hmmmm..PACC as usual...i didnt listen..i noe nuts abt it..HAIz...FOM..not too bad..somehow this sem...wadever the cher teaching..nth seem to get in...hmmm...should start studying le..i will from nx wk...=)

sry...lots of things running thr...i didnt pick up....

i tot it through...read up some stuff....i noe..i should do sth...mango jiayou!!!!

chance should only be given once...once miss it..is gone...multi chance reduce the value of chance alrdy...i shall be back to believe-ing...chance can only be given once....once given up...it mean...too bad...there wont be any way or path back.....

i will be happy...n live happily..n 'thiam-ing' LOLx!! enjoy life..enjoy the things i have to do..the smile tat stays wif mi..=)
nv noe wad will happen the nx moment..hu noes...one day...i might jz get a serious illness...n poof~ i be gone for gd...LOL!!! =x opps...should not curse myself!! LOL..=x
wo hui kai kai xin xin de..=)

spending time wif u only means one thing...i miss u...=)

hidden meaning
hidden thoughts
hidden pain...LOL!!

throat sore-ing again...zzz..=(

tired mango
4:20pm

thx everyone hu showed concern to mi..
i am fine..=)

2007-10-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

today was a avg day..not so emo nor happy day..LOL...STAT lecture i slp!!! LOL..damn nice...shuang!!! =x off to CRS where we had to debate...LOL..is omg la...=x break! lunch hr break is forever so crowded! sigh....econs tutorial...LOL..i end up wondering ard friendster...playing games n chit chatting...cz i didnt do the tutorial...n i noe nuts abt wadever she have taught! LOL... so is time to get started...soon! after tml access test...which is so diao!! n friday SPSS..hmmm...still ok ok..hopefully..hehe...=x

went striaght home after sch cz i was too tired...the nap was nice!!! LOL...=x

trying to figure how to do access now...sigh...torture...=(

brota exam ending...i dunno how is he going to make it thr...bless him...i didnt help much...cz haiz...in 2wk or less..expect mi to teach him the whole yr studies..sry..i not shen..i cant do it...wait n wait n wait...haiz...unable to help..all those knowledge turn-ed rusty too...hmmm..but i still enjoy wadever i used to learn..at least..better den wad i am learning now...=x

miss-ed those days...pestering the teachers for papers n ans key!! LOLx...=x doing papers after papers...LOLx...=x those were the time..=x

CRS, CD, FOM project all lining up...HAIZ...MST wk after e-learning..OMG!! save mi!! CIP during e-learning wk too...oh no~~~~ test test test..project project project...ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.....

crazy mango
8:23pm

u said u hope to c mi back to wad i used to be...
carefree...happy...un-stress..simple...
i wish i could too...
but i doubt so...
i once said...i cant be wad i used to be anymore...
time has changed...
responsible changed...
workload changed...
but one thing haven changed all along...
is tat...
i still love u....

u said i have alway being trying...
but no result...haiz...
i am sry...
but i am still trying...

2007-10-07T14:02:00.000+08:00

had a whole day of trial amazing race yesterday..i was damn bloody tired...after tat went pw...wanted to get the phone..but i realise it was so damn ex...$268..probably promotion is over..hmmm...plus the phone was out of stock..so i shall wait alittle more longer b4 i decide if i should spend the $$ in changing my phone..XD went sake for dinner...hmm..i wonder...when was the last time, mi, sista,brota,father and mother had our dinner together...LOL! probably...mths ago? or even i don even noe when! LOL...=x but ya...having dinner together was great..wonder when will it be the next time..LOL..=x

studies r like so much things to do...zzz..n i am not doing anything..tot of it..jz made mi so zzz..=(

i found sth damn shocking...i dunno wad i should do thou...leaving it as it is now...or i should do sth abt it...i got no time, is jz excuses...maybe is jz mi, too afraid to know the truth...hoping is jz mi thinking too much...hai...i dunno...leave it for a moment first bah...shall wait n c how it goes... JIAYOU!!!

dis-charge alrdy...but hai....still as weak as he is.. or laggi worse...hai...heavy feelings..but wad can i do?

hmmm....fulls of tots...un-express-able...

i wanna go learn powerboat..since i alrdy am learning the theory...first aid...n then kayaking..hehe...of cz..swim first! LOL..=x cannot scare of water leh...mz jia jiayou!! LOL..=x i think think..say say only..but will i? LOL! =x

fly away~~~

eng getting from bad to worse..damn!

i miss u...really do...

hidden meaning...

mango
2:22pm

sry...i noe...i shouldn't ask more for ur understanding...cz u alrdy have lots of understanding...
i am sry...but i really...don noe how...time...studies..npcc...so on n on...wad am i suppose to do?
i will try..but can we do it? having more confident...but the truth seems so...shall not think too much...
live in the present..not the future...time will slowly lead us to where we should be...
be happy...=)

2007-10-06T00:21:00.000+08:00

5th October 2007

yay!!! i got pic-s i wanna upload..but den i oink oink..hehe..=x one day la one day..=x

feeling damn tired...today i had 3C/4C BBQ...although only half the class turn up...quite sian..but is alway nice to meet up wif old friends...

mrs lim was there too..hmmm...she motivated mi...hopefully..i am able to change somethings? LOL!!!

hmmm...today...=) i am happy...

although is not wad i wan..but i don wan it to be cz of mi....
wont feel gd abt it...
rest more..=)

tired mango
12:33am

2007-10-04T13:38:00.001+08:00

wo hui kuai kuai le le de!!!

being emo n down does no help in anything...
i rather choose to be happy...XD
endure endure endure..go go go!!!

chatting yesterday n someone said somethings to mi "i live in the present not in the future.." hmmm...well...it probably makes mi think through somethings which is quite true...
forget the past...live in the present...create ur future...

sad or happy...downs or ups...life still go on...

i wont 'thiam' for u...but be happy instead...=)
time...chance..fate...all lies in our hand...

smile smile!!! =)

mango endure..
1:40pm

2007-10-02T09:25:00.000+08:00

now is ITAB!!! thiam-ing like shit can! bloody hell early morning 8am lesson come learn how to use access..=.= is ok if manage to learn sth..but the problem is i don understand!!! LOL...=x hahaha..wadever la...=.= 8 to 11 kaoz!!! hate tues!!! straight after ITAB is ECONs lecute which mean another slping time too!!!! sad-ed sia...i hate tues..hate hate hate tues!!!! worse of all...is only 1 hr break today too!! but having FOM lecture..hehe...den tutorial! n home sweet home!!!! cant wait till the day is over!!! but den still cant slack! should do quite alot of revision esp when having more n more modules i don understand!

hmmm..should i get a new phone for myself? E65!! $88 wif contract! should i spend this amount of money??

mango irritated!
9:28am

ACCESS is driving mi crazy!! follow book also don understand...thiam liao!!!

2007-10-01T20:55:00.000+08:00

finally...i am home!!! today went sch n home n blah blah...

today's lecture...i was slping when i suddenly 'jump' up..=.= i was like having a feeling tat someone poke mi!!!!! =.= hai...so i woke up n stayed awake ever since tat! LOL... nx was crs tutorial...=.= bloody hell...i hate tat..is like ec la..=.= eng again...zzz...1 hr break...hate lunch time break..forever so many ppl! LOL...den econs tutorial! i didnt listen at all..didnt even noe wad she was toking all abt la..=.= I NEEDA REVISE!!! =x okie..i mz one day!!! LOL...den off to saa to look for miss karen! submit proposal! i asked her how long does it need to be approve...she told mi..as long as everything needa is in...it will jz take 2 to 3 days..=.= LOL!!! n off to fc4! slack for awhile wif my classmates! used jon lappy!! hehe..=x left at ard 4...hmm..went sgh...sigh...reach at ard 440? didnt noe it will take so long...maybe i walk too slow! haha..=x stayed there till ard 8 plus when my father came fetch mi home!

hai...so stubborn..keep wanna come home when he still don have the energy to even sit up...keep wan-ing to get off the bed n walk..hmmm..wad to do...but imagine lying on bed for like 6 days alrdy? hmmm..but see-ing him eat today happily..hehe..=x imagine no food for past 6 days! =x but yup yup..he is recovering..hopefully..=)

tml lesson at 8..OMG..ITAB!! sigh..so early sia..zzz...

my wkend was enjoy-able days...=) hehe...

i wont bother abt ppl hu don bother abt mi...
i wont care for ppl hu don care abt mi...
i wont do thing for ppl hu i don care...
i don bother abt ppl hu i don care...
if i am willing to do n care, it means, u mean sth to mi...
if i am willing to do n care to the extreme, it means, u r imp to mi alrdy...
don hurt mi..i bite!

tired&crazy mango
9:24pm

don leave mi if u r imp to mi..cz it hurts!
big hurt small hurt it still hurt!

sometime somethings is jz simply beyond control...it can only be hidden...

i wanna hide it all...covered n buried!

i will accpet slowly...n den... i will....

2007-09-29T01:24:00.001+08:00

28/09/07

hmmmm.....woke up late...didnt wanted to go sch today..but the tot of handle-ing proposal made mi wake up n go to sch...HAI...reason for not keen of going to sch today...i noe the tutorial will end very fast...n ya..true enough it did...wad more i was late..=.= after class dismiss, our class still stayed in class n tok abt some CD stuff n class t-shirt..hmmm...n i went fc5 to meet nigel..n today karen was not ard..=.= so i haven submit yet!! SIGH~~~

met up wif sun for awhile? n off to sgh...stayed there from ard 130 to 730...6 hrs...sigh...it jz made mi felt so heavy each time...he got tied down for trying to get off the bed...it was so tight tat injure his arms...he couldn't eat nor drink...jz on dips...when will he recover..i wish and pray for his speedy recovery...

went to chinese garden after tat..n to je for supper...i skip my dinner...cz...i dunno y either....

today was consider quite an enjoy-able day for mi...haha..=) although my leg is hurting like nobody busniess now!! haha...but...=)

i wont do it anymore...at least i try~~ haha!!

tired mango
1:26am

2007-09-27T22:13:00.000+08:00

jealousy kills...so don be jealous! XD

i dunno wad to blog... went look for bin after sch today...met karen too...had a short tok wif her...n dinner wif bin...n off to sgh..=(

in no position to either...=)

pale n skinny face...wif few tubes ard...arms tat seem like bones...sigh...i remember how he used to carry mi in his arm...the face..the smile..couldn't eat or drink anything...pamper-ing him like a small kid...maybe tat was how he used to pamper mi last time...hurts when he tried to listen to wad the doctor was saying...watery eye of his...jz felt so heavy...

at least...i have an ans in mind...

i wanna be strong....cz i have to...n i mz!!!
don wanna depend on anyone..cz they will leave sooner or later...n i seriously hates it...
the fact of accpeting ppl into my life is easy...but the fact for them to leave...i cant take it...so back to mi...i choose not to let anyone to enter den...except for a few...

hate the feeling of saying goodbyes...

but gd things alway come to an end...

emo mango
10:37pm

2007-09-26T22:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm...3 day since sch started...hmmm...seems like alot of things have happen...haha~~ but i dunno wad happen either..SP NPCC...Unit NPCC... studies...aiyo~~

hmmmm...there is this guy...hu we met each other at UG conferrence...=x hmmm...not same grp..didnt tok..no nth..but somehow...he remembered mi..for hu noes wad reason..haha..=x fate bah...LOL..at first i jz find him familiar....but i tot..is jz maybe meet him somewhere at sp..den later he came to mi..LOL..n said UG conferrence blah blah...tat is how we really started toking..LOL..damn weird rite...haha! i remembered him is becz he speak up for one of the tok..n damn lame..LOL..but i dunno y he remember mi..=.=

hmmmm...today i met wif banana didi...william dage....Mr Sun...Xavier! LOL...actually cz mr sun wanna meet for dinner? LOL..banana didi n william dage went for kayaking course today..LOL...hmmm another 4 days for them i suppose...haha! jiayou jiayou..XD

today moved the spnpcc room into spncc room...LOL!!! hmmm..big thx to wenbin, xavier and hong kuan! haha...all their effort n hard work in moving the room..n clearing all rubbish! haha.. i didnt help much leh...tried to do those little bit of things...but den...LOL...at least i don wanna be their fu dan!

haiz...wanna go down sgh...hopefully nth happen..praying for the best...wish for the best...*wan for the best...*
is not tat i didnt care or didnt bother...but sometime...wad can i do? sigh...

today...tired...very tired bah...hmmmm....went for pool at JE! bloody hell..wanna check if i am above 16 anot..wahlao..only mi kena! HAIZ...remind mi of 1st may! haha...tat day...hmmmm... after tat day...my life carry on....XD

hmmm...i realise...one of my weak spot...hmmm.....probably jz realise recently...gd or bad i dunno...hopefully is gd...

i wanna rest more...study more...play less..slack less..haha...

i don wann think too much!

my life is very fine now..i am happy wif everything tat i have now...don let mi demand for more...don wanna lose any either....XD

mango ko-ed
11:15pm

take care ok...=)

2007-09-24T22:04:00.000+08:00

first day for sch...sch reopen! LOL...could not wake up to accompany CL to sch...haha! last nite cant slp till like 4? LOL! went bed at ard 130..n jz kept rolling n rolling...till 4..HAIZ...woke up at 6..n roll again..cz suppose to meet CL at 715...den cant get myself off the bed..n jz keep rolling n rolling..LOL..till 715 i decided to climb out of bed..or i be late! CL sry..for ps-ing u today~

went sch...STAT lecture..hmm..i actually listened! LOL..=x den CRS tutorial it sux! ENG..SIgH... break...i drop by at the booth...but den...nth much to do..my presence does not make much different..so i decided to go for my lunch instead...could not eat either...so jz had a prata and a drink...hmmm...den walk back to SB, took the short cut back....late for lesson..but hu cares~ tutorial end early...so i went to the booth early too...n happen to be no one? LOL...i dunno...den shiyong came n go...bin was at i dunno where..dunno doing wad either..LOL...CL accompanied mi thr...LOL...n so on n on...too lazy to blog abt the event......emo today..probably bah...

i dunno wad went wrong..but sth jz went wrong...maybe nth was wrong either....jz thinking too much..aiya...guess guess guess..think think think.. also no point...cz nth will be clear thou....so be it...fate may one day decide where it should be...=)
haha...expected situation again? probably...
the feeling of it is laggi more sucky...

i should find the solution....

received a call today...hmmm...do wad u wish to do...don give up becz of mi...the youth is still urs..=) i will support wadever decision u made..=) i understand...=]

i will be strong...n stand on my own....at least...i am trying to....

being strong n independent is sth i nv like doing since last time...but situation alway let mi have to do so....becz this is wad the world is like...damn sucky...i hate it...

emo-ing mango...
10:26pm

wanna have a gd nite slp..which i noe i probably cant....

promise to take good care of urself....

2007-09-23T15:34:00.000+08:00

BOO! LOL...first thing...who is bullies hu tag on my blog? LOL...name urself! =x

22th September 2007
hmmm...nth much of a day..=x i slp till evening...LOL..ok la late afternoon bath n went out..carry on wif the recee on bugis area...finally is done! hehe..=x proposal is 3/4 done..only left wif picture..HAIZ...sian-ed...okie! after tat...went catch a show n home sweet home...hmmm....happy day..=)

nth much to blog... tml sch start liao..=( oh no~~~ holiday seem over so fast! wad have i spent my time for the past 4 wks? hmmm..let mi c...i dunno either...it seem...most is for npcc..LOL..=x if not is slack at home...or go out play! LOL...

nv like the feeling of waiting...

mango tired
4:03pm

jz now cousin suddenly came...so end off blogging..haha~~ hmmm....got nag by jeremy for scoring so low for my GPA....haha..x= hmmm...n there he was telling mi how imp each test, project n exam was..hmmm~~ LOL...sry lo..=x i will try to work harder nx sem...hmmm...should chat less..online less le bah..MUG! GPA 2.5 quite bad bah..i realise tat too...hmmm...motivated to work harder nx sem...study more..slack less..play less..HAIZ..no life again? probably bah..haha...
life in poly is slack-able..but for gd result...hmmm...not easy too le bah...mango jiayou jiayou for nx sem..GO GO GO~~~
try to be less lazy..work harder..hmm..can i do it? play less study more! np less n study more too~~ LOL...hmmm...i can think..but can i do it? LOL! so sucky...=x BLEAH...

i slack thr today...instead of doing the things i should do...like amazing race proposal...flyers...packing my tables....LOL...i basically ended up watching tv n chatting..HAI...hmmm...time to get myself moving le bah...

JIAYOU JIAYOU GO GO!!!

action speaks louder den word bah...hmmm...

no more bgr problems...no more you de mei de problems...concentrate concentrate concentrate...=) my focus...don wan distraction...studies..np...=)

can u not leave..no u cant...
do u really have to...yes u do...
how much un-willing...i still have to accpet the fact...
went thr once...one more time...will i able to take it? hopefully...
learn to be independ...to stand on my own!

5:32pm

2007-09-21T02:56:00.000+08:00

now wad time le? still blog..LOL..duno leh...lazy do proposal le...brain dead! LOL....
*cough cough*
haha...hate being sick n have to do things..lucky i am not v sick..if not..i sure dunno wad is going to be like mi liao~~ haha!!!

20th Sep 2007
meet nigel n CL at 815 at paya lebar mac...we have breakfast n started toking abt the amazing race for SP_NPCC...left there at 1030 n head down to sp clubroom..hmmm..for the banner thingy bah...wanted to leave after lunch which mean 1 or 2 like tat...to go for recee..but in the end..we stayed till 530..haiz...started recee at our first station at 6? HAI...6 to 9 recee lo...walk n walk..think n think..n of cz..slack alot too! haha..=x den we went have dinner at marina sqaure since we stop there...den we stayed at the food court till ard 10 plus den walk to city link to think of our last station to recee...but shops all close le..so we sat at a beanches in city link n toked all the way till 1130 n off for last train as usual...LOL..

banner painting were great although tiring n hot! LOL..maybe cz someone was not ard? LOL!! =x evil mi..=x but had a great time paint...hmmm..xavier art power leh~~ LOL...long long time didnt do 'art' stuff...kinda miss it..alway enjoy design-ing or making things of my own..has alway been sth i love to do...those days...doing art at late nite..trying to chiong for exams...LOL..nice nice..=x tiring but i alway feel a sense of happiness whenever i drawing/colouring or wad ever tat has to making sth of my own...LOL...nice nice bah...now..time not tat flexible liao...cant really spent alot time doing anymore either..haiz...but is still ok...free time = still can do..hehe...

not choosing art when i was in secondary..may or may not be a rite choice...but is all over...i still love doing art...=) in poly didnt choose designing or arts stuff...n choose sth else..i hope is the rite choice too! haha...XD

i still love arts..=)

was a great great day...=) wif bin ard...sure bring the mood higher...LOL! Joker as alway...
LOL...at first things were quiet n smooth sailing when suddenly he come...LOL..tat is where all the nosie lvl come..LOL..lame-ing n cock-ing..haha! as usual...laugher...haha!!

nv fail to smile so far....=)

mango love art!
3:07am

GG mode...

I can only love one person...n tat person is u...=)
In the past u were...
In the present u are...
In the future will u still be?

2007-09-19T16:47:00.000+08:00

hmmm..GEMs selected...Introduction to seamanship and boating theory...hopefully i wont regret...its my fourth choice! LOL...

First GEMs registeration experienceCL helped mi..click click ok..EPI class 8...LOL....check time table..mrs ng..my reaction...OMG!! CL..drop it..(first reaction when i saw her name..first thing in my mind...DROP IT..) by the time choose the rest..all gone le..so i took the seamanship..LOL... hopefully i wont regret! haha.. XD

hmmm...i didnt go for sushi either...wanna rest at home! LOL...craving for sushi!!! DAMN! y mz i be sick at this time! HAIZ...i wan sushi..sushi...sushi!!! LOL...

Got to recover fast fast! hmmm...got to chiong CCA Drive man! zzz...HAIZ..do it for the responsibility...bo bian leh! stupidly accpet-ed to chair this event! LOL..but arent doing a gd job cz i didnt do anything till the very last min....hmmm...ownself make my life thiam only...HAIZ...
nvm~ WILL JIAYOU JIAYOU GO GO! haha..=x

super duper iron mango! nv say die attitude!! LOL...=x

currently hungry! but got no food...HAI...cant take my medinice either cz i haven eat....hmmmm...shall go dig for some food after i blog! haha...but waiting for my dinner to come!!! hehe..=x

i am happy..cz i have U...cz i have u..cz i have them...cz i noe u...=)

i dunno wad to blog...

IMU..ILU...LOL..tat all i have to say...XD

missing mango
5:08pm

2007-09-18T03:13:00.000+08:00

17/09/2007

Hmmm...yesterday...exactly 1mth away from my Big Day! HAHA!! BLEAH...=x hmmm...
bday has alway been nth but normal day until ... ...

haha..so i don wan only my bday to be the only one tat is special..but everyone ard mi bday to be special too! esp for those i care!! XD haha...

went for meeting..LOL...hmm..kinda srcew-ed up wif mi nearly 3/4 dead! mind cant work properly..so i learnt sth today! hold meeting when u have the energy to think! haha..
plus...so cant really concentrate bah...meeting goes on n on...den all the things i type was gone! cz i haven save n xavier went shut down the lappy..HAIZ...bo bian! haha..try to recall wadever i could during the meeting...

after tat went lunch n club room to slack! haha...dunno wad to do..sian sian..so end up using clubroom desktop..went online re-type everything..n send email...LOL...fall aslp on the table too! haha..=x den later Mr. VP came! FINALLY! haha..den later i dunon doing wad..they playing game..i slacking? stone-ing? resting? i dunno..LOL..slack all the way till 8! haha...ard there la..den head to vivo for dinner...n went outside the vivo there..the sky garden i suppose along there found a place n sit...sea was nice! windy..LOL..jz sat there chatting n lame-ing...haha~

enjoy-able day...=]

i was bullied!!! HAIZ!!! thiam lo...keep kena bully..hair kena mess up la...WTH..=( haha!

feeling sick now...probably going to slp le..cannot make it liao!

i noe u wanna say i didnt take care le..haha..alway don listen..keep slping late..haha..BLEAH..=x but still I Love U..although not as much as u..but i still do..=)

Smile smile...=)

sick mango
3:30am

i don wanna be happy alone..i wan everyone ard mi to be happy too~ esp those hu r dear to mi..XD

2007-09-16T18:10:00.000+08:00

over-rated..over-reacted..over over over...
line drawn...limit drew...
i still care...

... ...

mango emo
6:17pm

(someone complaint tat it was too small..LOL..)
I LOVE U...

2007-09-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

Photo upload-ed.. Request granted! XD

15/09/2007

it was NPCC service day! LOL..=x went down unit at...ermmm 820 like tat...i could not wake up in the morning..LOL...drag myself up after 30min...haha! bath n eat..go down...n so on n on...i think i sent in ard 50 names to them...but in the end only 30 turn up..so now our unit is like have one whole stack of booklet leftover! HAHA! den suppose to set off at 10 but we set off at 1030 n finished everything by 1115? LOL! head back to sch...n give out civil defenc n safety first..LOL...salute 28 times...den 28X2=56 times! LOL..cz needa return salute ma...haiz! LOL...give till i beri zzz also...but den still mz act zai! haha...den left sch..n went hawker center eat wif LY~ LOL...den i went home...haha..so many ppl sia...n my uncle came! LOL..normally only c him during CNY...he fly back from malaysia de...haiz...but reason y he fly back..was due to my grandfather i suppose..=(

bath n changed n went out...haha...had a great day..but tiring..cz i jz had a 3 hr slp! LOL...

don dao mi!

mango loved
1:39am

I LOVE U!

2007-09-15T02:26:00.000+08:00

blogging at this hr..i dunno y...but feeling emo...

i am sry..sry..sry..i really am sry...
don misunderstand...
wo xi wang...wo men kuai kuai le le de guo mei yi tian...

i is don like the helpless...wo neng de man guo!

i wish those ppl beside mi is happy..can be happy...esp for those i care n concern for...
ppl hu meant someone to mi...=)

emo mango
2:35am

2007-09-13T16:04:00.000+08:00

no training tml either...probably gd too bah...

empty empty...

i wanna go out for a walk...

air ard mi is suffocating mi..

goodbye...

dead mango
4:03pm

i ... ...

2007-09-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

crush --> like --> love
this is the process...
able to have many crush... lesser like n only one love...
crush can be gone w/o effort
like can be gone with effort
love can nv be gone no matter how much effort u put in...cz there will have a large impact on u...can let go n overcome...but nv able to forget...it will alway be there! fixed!
may have more den one love...but each time in ur heart there can only be a love at a time...love may change but nv forget..
don be sad cz is gone...be happy cz it once happen...
is all in ur memories~~
they may be gone..but will alway be in ur memories...u once have them..nth last forever...
gd things alway come to an end...treasure it before it end...

love someone is jz wish for tat person to be happy...will do everything at ur own expense for the someone to be happy...the smile on their face worth more den anything else...the smile on their face will led to a smile on ur face no matter wad...love-ing someone is not abt being wif tat someone 24/7 but to keep tat someone in ur heart n mind 24/7...love-ing someone is to be there for th someone when they need-ed u no matter wad...

love is a complicated things tat words r unable to explain...use ur heart to see...ur feel to sense... ur action to prove...XD

emo-ing mango
9:12pm

haiz..brota flunk his mid yr badly...SIGH~

2007-09-11T13:06:00.001+08:00

UG conference over~ LOL..went for class chalet for yesterday n today..LOL..is only a 2 day 1 nite chalet...hmmmm...wenbin having his class chalet too! LOL..different venue..at first i tot it was quite far away..but in fact...i realise is rather near bah...haha!

hmmmm....yesterday suppose to meet my classmates at pasir ris at 130pm..LOL..have lunch n buy stuff den head to aloha loyang..correct spelling? think so..haha! but in the end...i only manage to reach pasir ris at 4..LOL! i told them to go first la..cz is like..ermm..i noe i sure late one..so ya..nvm lo...y late? cz was in lala land n toking on the phone? LOL! slp toking bah..=x abit ah..=x LOL! den reach le...big sia...i nv go there b4 de..alway go downtown east of costal sand de...but the chalet was great~ big...have stoves 2 rooms n so on! LOL....=x

when i reach...some were playing mahjong alrdy...den some in room chatting...i went first thing was to the bed! LOL..=x slack ard awhile..i think i went c them play mahjong..n played afew round..b4 slacking in front of tv..n started watching..n they were comment-ing on the tv programme! LOL..=x n den..i went back to bed..LOL...try to get some rest bah..feel tired bah..cz it was a double deck one..i love the top..so i was resting there..when one guy from my class came in..Mr JX aka auntie! LOL..=x came in w/o noe-ing tat i was in the room too...den later i pop my head out while he is abt to leave the room..=x LOL...den he was like shock? LOL...n went out of the room saying there is someone in the room! LOL..=x ya...called cz BBQ going to start..so everyone going to leave the chalet to the pit..is quite near la..haha..so i went down n head to the pit..hmmmi didnt BBQ this time round..i ate! LOL! they ordered from ezbz..correct name anot? i dunno..but i think wholesale food taste nicer! LOL..=x opps~ but ya..food ate...den were play some games n having forefit..LOL!!!! indian poker...LOL...n some other lame games..haha...made alot of noise..LOL...one of the forefit is having to pose in a *** position..=.= LOL!!!!!! cock..end up 2 guy kena! HAHAA! damn funny can..after tat all didnt play liao! Haha..=x den went back into the chalet...(sound short rite..cut short ma..=x) den played mahjong n watched tv...(i don really noe how to play la...) den after tat played PSP..watch tv...n off to room to play more games n drinks...tried some dunno wad 25% alchol super not nice la! LOL..=x YUCK! haha..=x jz drink abit only..cz i don like the taste..haha...jz drink bit by bit when i lost in the game...haha! den played murder-er...hand hold type bah..LOL! to increase the challenge..=x n later guessing number...follow by truth n dare..LOL! kena one damn lame forefit...n truth Q..LOL...

followed by toking ghost story.. LOL..scary sia! haha..=x i was on my 'bed' n here comes moon besdie mi n later jon...at first was wif laitheng...aiya..we jz keep moving ard...haha! but i stay on the bed la..=x lazy move down..haha! den when the ghost story abt to end...(i was sticking my leg out of the bed) den my friend from below pull my leg!!! LOL..i got the shock out of my life la! LOL...scream-ed n grab-ed onto moon...LOL!!!! pls la..really scary leh...haha! den all kena shock too! LOL..den later drift to different small small conversation...den i fall aslp alrdy...from wad i can recall..when i falling aslp..PH was on the bed wif mi! LOL...i slp near the 'stair' to go down...so i was wondering how did he manage to go down the bed..LOL...tat is ard 4 plus plus le bah..haha..den when i woke up..everyone is outside chatting..only mi n two more gers slping...haha! woke up ard 530 bah..

so i jz went out n started stone-ing on the sofa..LOL..it was damn bloody cold when i wake up..LOL... den later decided to walk to catch sun rise..LOL..is jz walking ard la...haha..den went to the bench..n emo! LOL..not emo la..but jz c the bench n stuff..didnt catch the sun rise thou..LOL...at first we got our direction wrong too! haha..so ya...after awhile went back to chalet..n order MAC! LOL..hungry leh..=x ok..den later we all went to the room n tok again..n later soon..all fall into lala land...till mac came! haha..=x we ate n stuff..den got food ma..hyper le! haha..so end up chatting in the room..toking abt... LOL stuff..things tat is meant to be tok behind the door! LOL...i didnt quite understand wadever they trying to say..=x haha! too noob le! LOL..=x so i jz listen n listen..wif question mark all over..LOL...den later check out..when by the pool..wanted to wait for the shuttle bus to come...in the end alot ppl..so we decided to walk to bus stop..haha! tat is when i realise the different chalet is quite near to each other..haha! ermm..den took a bus to mrt station..den went white sand awhile..haha! n off home~~ LOL..online blogging..alot of words hor...=x

jz an account on our class chalet..haha..=x so don need to read..plus is all cut short one..LOL!

so near yet so far~~

mango bored
1:28pm

2007-09-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

keep thinking today is friday lo! LOL..=x dunno y...haha...

UG conference day 2! LOL...
could not wake up...but den mz pull myself out of bed after 15min of laziness! haha..=x den so on n on...is damn bloody cold too! LOL..=x den registration n so on..den ok..join back into my grp~ LOL...forum talk bah..still okok...but too early..n is heavy rain...super nice condition to slp! LOL..=x den after tat..ermm..tea break..=.= LOL..den briefing for SAFTI trip..den off to SAFIT! LOL...den back to lunch..=.= LOL..den amazing race~ LOL..damn lame can..=.= den back to rp...den some grp interaction n stuff...den off home! LOL..long trip home..cut short my day today..not ok..not as boring as yesterday~ LOL...n got interact la...n i am the ONLY ger in the whole grp la~ got another 2 lady..from china~ LOL..so ya~~ sad-ed hor!

ok..more or less..tat is it..haha..=x tml last day of conference le..LOL...

hmmm..afew tots to share...
maybe people nowadays maybe we should think more for others in general den for ourselves..maybe it will make in world a better place to live in..but by human nature...selfish-ness...ppl will alway think for themselves..how r they going to benefits n be the strongest to survive.. neglecting others...benefits on the expense of other...being easily push over...end up will only be at the losing coner...this is jz the reality of the world bah...
nowadays..ppl will jz say...y bother? it does not affect mi? so y bother..nth to do wif mi ma...bother liao let ppl say only..don care la...also nth to do wif mi...don so kaypo la...mind ur own business...LOL...so only when problems come...we start to think to bother..only if it affect us...sigh...
i don deny...i have such attitude too...but well..probably..is jz the environment that mould us into the character n attitude we have..the influence n so on..such things is like..from young de bah... cant comment much..cz still v noob!

jz some tots tat came to my mind today..LOL...

tml is the last day! ENDURE waking up at 5am or 530am for tml? LOL! last day! LOL..like CIBTC RC SIA! LOL..=x but den slp earlier la..haha..=x noeing other UG grp ppl..hmmm...get to learn more abt how other UG works n stuff...LOL..so on n on~ LOL...maybe will jz get to learn sth...willingness to learn~ XD haha...

dunno wad else to blog le..tml last day! LOL...

mango fighting wif zzz monster...
10:11pm

orange con mi again~ i alway fall for her trap...dunno to LOL or sigh...well..she meant well too..do u? LOL!
sry...but finally...i said it out once again...i noe...mz be damn hurting bah...sry..saying sry again...but wad else can i say beside saying sry to u...
u told mi...not to let go once again...second time le bah...haiz...
n i didnt...

not sad...the smile will still be on my face later on....

am i to be angry wif orange? or should say a thx to heR? LOL..probably 2nd one bah...don need mail rite! LOL..read blog~

2007-09-07T21:21:00.001+08:00

today is finally the UG conference! LOL..haha..1 day is down...2 more days to go! LOL..=x mango endure!! LOL....

listening to those speech make mi feel like slping..LOL..=x nearly doze off..but i didnt dare to! cz was wearing full uni! n they keep on taking pic n filming..LOL..mz uphold NPCC image! LOL..=x

ok...shall not go into alot of detail...cz i am currently too tired! LOL...hmmm..but one thing...we r all well fed during the conference! LOL...keep on eating sia...ok...3 meals provided! LOL...can eat till shuang shuang sia...tea break lunch den tea break again! LOL..=x food serve..not too bad...quite nice! LOL..=x was split into grp at the later part of today! lol..ok ok la...so usual...get to noe each other name n so on...LOL...

today..i feel tat...is like every single one of us down at the UG conference today...is like..there is one thing we have in common...tat is our commitment for each n indiviual of our own Uniform Group..haha..=x

maybe ppl will be wondering y...we or even i bother spending so much time in helping out...well..jz our passion...interest? a place where we felt tat we belong to...haha..XD

giving up time of going out wif friends n playing for npcc..maybe seem like wasting time..but is ok...cz we r willing to do so bah...of cz..mz balance too! LOL...

today my class went mei hus! i wanna go too..but sadly i cant la...down for event! LOL..hope i will learn sth thr this 3 day conference...LOL..although i felt tat...is not really suitable for mi...cz i arent those type of person hu will speak up...but well..go for exposure bah! LOL...

if i am able to turn back time now..i will be a better cadets...to prompt more Question..to learn more things...so i could be a better cadet inspector now! LOL...
a gd instructor probably is mould since cadets...but well..i am for sure not one gd one...but at least i am trying...

class chalet coming up too! LOL...haven meet my classmate for nearly 1 wks or 2 wks le bah..LOL! looking forward to it? probably bah...but i be tired too! since i have to wake up at like 5 am for sat n sun! LOL...but is ok..XD

wo shi xin gan qing yuan de...i am willing...=)

mango ko-ed
9:31pm

2007-09-06T14:13:00.000+08:00

bloging everyday~ shows how bo liao i am at home! LOL..x= not really la..but jz love to blog n type..wadever tat have happen...so even if memories fade..still can read back to find lost memories..haha..n laugh at myself! LOL..=x

ok..today woke up at 1! LOL...nice slp? not really..slp at ard 3 plus bah..den woke up at 7..went back to slp...den woke up at dunno wad time reply sms..den slp wake up slp wake again~ LOL..n finally 1 woke up..=x haha..=x

so usual..wash up n eat~ went online n vivien asked mi to help her transfer $$ so i agreed n den went downstair to transfer..n back home online again..n here am i blogging..LOL..x=

i wanna watch why why love! LOL...cz the actor very shuai! LOL..banana didi intro the show to mi..=x haha...den tat day v bored..so decided to watch...n actor so shuai tat make mi wan to carry on watching..LOL! storyline ok ok la..love love de lo~ LOL...huo da aka jun xiang aka xiao mei...LOL..handsome la! shuai dao~~~~ LOL! den the brota huo yan also ok ok..he is cute bah..=x but huo da is shuai n cute n so on n on..LOL~~
ok..i don usual got crazy over them...so now..i am not crazy over them either..LOL...they have no priority...but den jz watch can kill time n laugh also~ LOL..n of cz c shuai ge!!! LOL..=x

ok ok..=x haha...i think nth for mi to do today..my campcraft test haven set leh..v sian..lazy to set also...LOL! but will la...YESH..do it for the cadets!! LOL..=x

will be going out wif vivien on the 19 sep! hopefully nth cock up on tat day~ LOL!! we said wanna go out from ermm tat time quit job till now haven go yet! so i is miss her~ LOL! =x wanna go out wif her~ LOL..play play play! LOL..=x

today staying at home whole day...haha...mz slp early worz! fri, sat and sun going for UG conference..mz wake up v v early! LOL..ok la...yesterday went the briefing..hmm..they make it sound as if the conference is very big like tat...so aiya..jz go listen lo..maybe i may get motivated n inspired by their speech! LOL..=x

met nessa too! LOL..wahhh...i think the last time i met her was like 2 yrs plus plus ago...haha..=x the feeling of meeting her...hmmm...still feel close to her bah...same feeling as yrs ago...LOL~ =) haha..she be going to conference too! LOL..gonna be split into 20 grps...if fated..we maybe in the same grp! LOL..=x hopefully? haha...=x wait n c how lo~~ LOL..=x

i wanna watch why why love~ LOL..=x nice show bah..=x not cz got shuai ge ar...LOL..=x BLEAH...but the storyline itself bah...but as usual..is all so drama one...in the real world..will there be such things? LOL..maybe there is bah...but not on mi! LOL...shows, drama..r all shows..LOL..tat y..alway nice to be in dreamland..XD

who will be there if i ever needa someone..will u? u? or u? or i will be on my own...LOL..realistic of the world..depend on noone but urself...but still i wish tat i could depend on someone...tat someone be there alway~ haha~~

saying gd bye to someone u care...wad more can be more hurting den tat..

dreaming mango~
2:42pm

dare to dream! wif dreams, wif hopes may get disappointments...wif disappointment u learn to be strong..to stand up..to treasure it when u get it...=) without dreams n hopes...wad is life all abt den? wif no disappointment...jz to protect urself from being hurt..den will be happy? hurts will become scar..scar will be there to remember to hurt u..is ok to be hurt...but stand up n be strong...because life still carry on...read ahead is still long...with dream u noe ur direction..=)
but do i have a dream now? LOL..i doubt so...tat y i don have my direction yet! sad-ed.. =x

2007-09-05T13:01:00.000+08:00

bored! LOL..woke up so early...n now i have nth to do...probably going out at 5 to head off to newton mrt n go for the UG breifing...haiz! meeting up wif suresh...sian-ed!

i realise nessa will also be going from her blog..LOL..meet if fated! LOL..=x ok..den from now till 5 i wont noe wad to do....somehow...jz cant have a nice, long peaceful slp..sigh! last nite i was damn tired..so i went to bed...slp at ard 1 bah..woke up at 430, den 8 plus den fall back to slp n woke up at 930, 1030,1130 n finally 12, i decided to wake up...

was v tired last nite..but still i jz cant have a nice..long wonderful nite! sigh!!

pocket big big hole..damn no life..i wanna do sth..learn sth..other den go out n npcc-ing..=.= sian-ed... but wad can i do..i dunno also...LOL!

life is boring...meaning-less..wad so ever~

being angry wif someone...i think i haven being really serious angry wif some one for a long long time..dulan have la...angry don have bah....LOL..understanding mango! LOL...=x being angry wif someone makes mi cry! LOL.cz if i am angry wif someone..it means tat the someone would have mean sth to mi..tat y i get angry over the someone...den once again..if may not be angry..but hurt! LOL...emotions r so complicated...words cant be used to explain some~

i am childish? maybe bah...being a child is alway the happiest thing...without noe-ing anything..simple minded...jz some one to play wif them...they be happy...=)
they be happy n content easily...but when grow up into teens, adults n so on...thinking change...noe-ing more things n fact...ppl so human nature demand for more...

the realistic of the world..sometime i simply hate it...to survie in this realistic world...u have to be realistic...sigh...it simply sux!

being wif u is the happiest time in my life...for everything u done for mi...i noe n appreciate it.. u still the best to mi...
time has change...u r still willing to do for mi...but am i able to do wad u have done for mi? am i still able to give u wad i used to give u...
sometime i feel tat...i tried..but somehow feels tat i cant...

all i wan is for u to be happy..hurting u is the last thing i ever wanna do...

mango emo-ing
1:24pm

wish i was the one u turn to...but i am not...wanna help...but u didnt let mi to...i don noe wad i could do..but jz to take wadever...maybe i am jz not needed to u bah...after all..i am jz a nobody...
but i will still be there...turn to mi...if ever one day u needed someone...at least i am here..is jz tat u didnt noe...
wanna noe wad happen but ... ...
it was buried mths ago...a full stop is dot n nv be removed... =)
mean nth...so be it...i accept it...
i wont change anything...cz i don wan to do so...

2007-09-04T22:13:00.000+08:00

super tired today..didnt slp well last nite...XD n manage to wake up at 630 today..attendance v bad..make mi pissed off...i dunno y they don wanna come..somemore is..ermm sec 3? NCOs! haiz..out of 9 only 3...one said he is sick! ok la...sick wad u wan mi to do...one go jb..=.= for duno wad also...aiya..the rest un-contact-able...aiya..wad can i do...they don wan come..got badge also don wan come..so be it la...

NCOs..wif such attitude...wad can i do la...the course is for their own benefit..to earn badge yet they don wan..wahlan..forget it la..those badge means nth to them too...those position n stuff..jz reflect on their interest n attitude...sux! haiz..maybe i sux too..tat y...

sent them to the seng kang CC...haiz...asked the cadet to call n so on..ya~~ end up we left without them...today total attendance is 16..yesterday was 25! zzz..stupid la..jz get irritated when is like..is for them lo..not anyone else..yet they still like tat...i even bother to wake up early n go wif them! ok..today sent them there..den i am not needed...cz is like those ppl down there r CIs too..n everything will jz be provided for them...so i was thinking wad am i suppose to do...haha!

in the end i left SK...wanted to go home liao...den wenbin called back cz i missed call him.. LOL...he self destruct..haha..so end up going out wif him..walking ard wif my area tee n track pant..LOL..pt-kit attire!! haha..
yup yup..thx wenbin for keeping mi company today...=) big big thx to him! LOL...

things will be fine..don be sad, pissed, irritated n so on...i cant help u in doing anything...jz wish tat..the tot of mi makes u feel happy...=)
wish to help..but well..nth i could do...be happy..=)

had alot of laughter today!!! LOL..laughing like nobody business...damn no image le! LOL!!! haha...time pass fast today! LOL!
once again..thx wenbin korkor for brighten-ing up my day today...=)

today bus fare damn ex..i think i spend nearly $10 jz mainly on transport! haha...XD

mango tired...
10:35pm

don be sad, irritated n so on...i could feel it...stay happy..be happy..jiayou bah!!! XD

2007-09-03T18:03:00.000+08:00

tired tired tired..could not slp last nite...ard 1 den fall to lala land bah..manage to wake up at 630 this morning..went down to unit to accompany my sec 2 n 3 for their civil defence...

arrived at unit at ard 720? bus suppose to leave at 730 but unfortunately the bus was late..so we waited..n left at ard 8? LOL... went there..nth do much...at first i was the only CI...boring lo...den pingyi(nigel sch) came 3 cadets..but wif a CI too! LOL..finally got someone to accompany..but den i was shy..u noe...LOL...i is no EQ de..LOL!

slack slack ard...den stand outside the lecture room n feel the wind! LOL..c lucky..today they were doing stuns...flying fox! wif human stopper! LOL..damn nice...den so on n on..WOW! cool! haha..wanted to take pic..but they were too fast! LOL...i cant catch..haha..=x den went to cateen to rest n eat sandwich cz i was too hungry! LOL...my cadets were hungry too la..but den~ LOL!

after tat our food from HTA came! LOL! n unpacking n stuff..i didnt eat their food..simply sux i suppose? LOL..but they had mango pudding! LOL...hehe..=x i jz love mango pudding man! LOL..=x den settle their lunch n so on...ard 130 left the tampines camp n went to TM to had our lunch..ate at food cultre...tot of ECHO! LOL...duno y...but jz ya~~ LOL..ate lunch n went walk ard TM went toy r us!! LOL..no image..ppl stare at us..like wad..cz was playing wif toy..=x opps! =x

den went back to the camp...jz nice they finished their test n doing feedback form...ya~~ so...more or less dismiss time..had complain from the instructor there, tat they were too nosiy n beyond control...so had a small lecture to them..but not by mi...by the another CI from pingyi sec..LOL..she powderfool!! LOL..=x den dismiss le..we waited at the canteen for our bus to come to bring us back to sch..we were at the canteen waiting..ya~~ den tok abit chit chat...haha..den went back to sch..n dismiss.. N ... ...

HOME SWEET HOME! LOL...den online happily chatting too...

today sms ard 80 msges..LOL...KO-ed! haha...
nth much of a day today...but..haha..somehow..i feel happy..XD

mango tired!
6:14pm

emo-ing now...emo emo emo!!! jz now is happy..now is emo-ing..i think i too tired bah..tat y...question mark all over...but i rather leave those marks down there...

qian yan wan yu shou bu qing! den don shou le bah..XD

mango emo
9:48pm

2007-09-02T12:40:00.000+08:00

i woke up damn early again...LOL! cz i slp early yesterday? ok..yesterday i was alive for only..ermm...wake up at 4pm went to bed at 12am.. LOL! mango oink oink!

today i woke up at 8! could not slp bah..den jz roll on my bed..roll n roll..fall back to slp n wake up..suppose to wake up at 9..n prepared to go out..but in the end i didnt...so i jz carry on rolling n slping n wake-ing up till ard 1215 bah! LOL... not going to do anything today either..will jz slack thr my day again...haha..=) finally! LOL!... have been going out n out n more out..=x so now..slack! pocket having a VERY big hole alrdy..haiz! haven get my pocket $$ for this mth either...=(

i wanna go OBS sabah! but haiz..12 days...n eat into one whole week of sch time..probably the test wk!! should i still go then? LOL! consider-ing n thinking...but is like...when will u still have the chance to go ya~~~ LOL!! i shall go take part in more pratical event..to upgrade myself..n improve wif skill n not jz slack my way thr again~ LOL...hopefully? =x

wondering if i should go for civil defence n sana tml n tues anot...haizz..i told my OC i will be going le..but den~ go le..like abit pointless cz i wont be doing anything but wasting my time there..looking after my cadets...LOL...c how first bah~ hehe..XD

dulan wif NCO..i spend time doing the campcraft notes...end up cher print out alrdy..pass it to one of the NCOs...n now? i dunno where the hell the notes went to..=.= cock up la....zzzz...

going for UG conference...7, 8 and 9 sep! LOL...n 5 sep having a breifing at a place where i dunno at where also one! LOL..don feel like going for tat..but uncle chin asked mi to! LOL... so most probably will go..but den again..consider bah..LOL..=x hmmm~ all npcc stuff sia! LOL..thiam..but is gd also...if not i wont noe wad to do at home either..LOL! sian sian..

more or less tat is all...probably..wont be meeting u for the whole of nx wk? so when can i meet u again? i dunno too~

class chalet coming up! LOL..happen to fall on the same days as wenbin..but different venue..n mine only last for 2day 1nite..LOL!

so far..tat is all..no programme after tat alrdy bah...other den those weekly training n so on... ohya..service day! 15 sep..which mean another sat is gone! haiz....

mango slack!
1:17pm

2007-09-01T00:45:00.000+08:00

echo outing yesterday! but i v emo n moody...ok..woke up damn bloody early can...=.= i dunno..cant slp...so was like rolling on my bed..thiam ar!! soo paiseh..i v attitude today...ate little today too...don ask mi y..i dunno either...no mood to eat..too tired to eat? maybe! LOL...

today i was late! thx to mr sun...hu asked mi to bring my extra HP batt for him when i was abt to leave my hus..=.= but my tat batt..tat time i didnt charge...so i have to charge n wait for it to be at least half fill! LOL..so suppose meet at 4 la...n i left my hus at 4..=.= made amy, william dage, kiathong didi to wait~ LOL..when i reach-ed there..xavier n wenbin also reach le...LOL.. Mr Sun...Thx ar today~~ LOL!

went steamboat..=.= aiya..i basically jz ate chicken! LOL...is so oily can..reallly spoil my mood of eating..LOL...is bad enough..n those food made it laggi worse...didnt do much today bah..sian-ed...

echo took some pic today...but lazy to blog up..LOL..=x they went home after the steamboat..i went to find theng jie n QY! LOL.. dunno..QY said she wanna meet mi? LOL...i don feel like going home so early..i dunno emo-ing..LOL...wenbin left wif mi to look for theng jie! LOL...theng jie so lady today..haha..XD

went home at ard 1117..lol..reach home at 1150..more or less bah..XD

sry for attitude-ing kiathong didi today...n for emo-ing n sian-ing during today's outing...XD

wish kiathong didi to be able to c the light in the tunnel soon! LOL..jiayou bah..jie jie give u support support! do wad u think is rite...=) will support wadever decision u made!

wilson korkor didnt turn up today...

wenbin...don tok rubbish pls! is in the past..over and gone forever...don bring it up again...cz nth can be done..is buried ok...=)

u have alway being there for mi...thx..i is apperciate...=)

only wanna have my dear...mend-ing things back... the one in my heart...

mango KO-ing
1:28am

2007-08-30T22:51:00.000+08:00

mango selective! LOL~

hmmm...today didnt do much bah...so u gonna read inbetween the lines? LOL!

haha..true enough somethings u said were true...but den...aiya...i too lazy to blog now..

super KO~ LOL...lazy blog..lazy think...don wanna think..don wanna bother...lol~

mango KO!
10:58pm

maybe tml den carry on! haha..=x

2007-08-30T00:44:00.000+08:00

wenbin slping~~ oink oink

pictures to shares..hee.. shadows? =x
NEMO!!! BLEAH..

blog blog blog~~~ LOL...today i was late! thx to someone..i woke up..but den i was like toking on the phone...n i could not go n bath! LOL...end up rushing...n my hair looks werid...LOL..sth look damn wrong n funny la...LOL...so i spent some time putting wax n stuff..to make it look normal..but den! wait..later den i say..LOL...i was waiting for bus at like 950? when i have to reach orchard at like...10? workshop at 1015? LOL! so i took bus 16 wanted to take to orchard..i think..shit la..sure no time i drop at city hall wanted to take train..den i think forget it la! take a cab...i chiong down n reach the workshop at like 1020? LOL...power rite! LOL..ok..den started..n they told us to put a handband thingy like stuff..i was WTH liao..i spend so much effort trying to make my hair look not so weird la..but den~ HAIZ...sad~~~ LOL! ok..workshop so on n on..ya..

went to cine after tat..ate lunch..n i rush down to HTA for service briefing..LOL..late too..met jianboon korkor in the train~ hehe...he is weird..a guai tai? LOL...but ya..'bad' guy! LOL...briefing n so on n on..no detail needa bah...met wenbin later on! LOL..joker...

den went suntec to wait for chelle..wanted to ermm...catch a show la..but den...no nice show..wenbin is in lala land mode..LOL..so we walk ard from dunno wad time till 8 plus plus plus when we went by the 'sea' to sit! and he slept! LOL..wenbin = joker lo..tok alot cock? actually i dunno wad we tok-ed either...jz happy bah...thx wenbin for the wonderful day today~ lol..not the end yet!

so after chelle finish her work...we went to eat at food republic! LOL...ard 10 le bah..n mr sun was playing wif chelle nemo toy..LOL..lame la...pic speaks a thousand words...hehe! c the pic urself! LOL...n of cz went home after tat ya~~~ LOL...ohya..while walking to mrt station..mr sun said sth tat causes chelle to spilt the water out! but i cant remember..sure is some cock stuff! LOL..=x

my day is brighten by today by them~ xie xie~ thx wenbin for the laugher he really gave mi...joker forever...as usual~ LOL!

sad-ed...didnt wan u to leave...the tot of u gone makes my heart ache...but i noe u cant stay here forever...wish to spend the reminding time wif ya...but somehow..it seems so difficult to start..memories...haiz...it jz cant be help...=(

tell mi tat u love mi...XD

mango tired

1:44am

thinking too much? i'm scare....don let mi...or i wont noe how to stand up...probably going to take alot more energy to do so...fang kai...fang xia..i cant give anything...nth..nobody...

wad actually am i?

wenbin adventurous encounters; owned encounters!! LOL..he asked mi to post this too..XD

2007-08-28T23:26:00.001+08:00

moody~~ probably too tired bah...LOL~~ got to slp by midnite today....so i have to slp by 12... feel tired..tat all bah...sad~ i should not tok till so rough! LOL..=x lame..super random cz my mind is dead...going offline but jz feel like blogging but dunno wad to blog either..lame~ so don waste ur time reading my blog! LOL...=.=

spend alot alot money...ard ermm..$200 le bah..XD sad~~ LOL..ohya..i had a hair cut today~~ LOL...

time has come...fading fading fading..slowly fading away~ i wanna hold on..but wad position do i have, wad rite do i have...i am nth...i got no rites...i am a nobody...i cant give anything...but well..probably jz as expected...sigh~~~ as usual...

love for ya nv die~ be happy..=)
day has past so fast..everything seem to be a dream..is gone n over~ so fast~ but memories stays wif mi...i only wanna remember the happy one...ups n downs...i be there for ya alway...XD
u r still my only one...=)

mango emo-ing...tired!
11:39pm

2007-08-26T01:00:00.000+08:00

25 Aug 2007~

lol!!! i am toking to my orange jiejie jz now! LOL...n she is nagging as usual! LOL..=x

ok..i woke up at like 3:15pm? LOL..super KO! haha..=x den went to toapayoh! LOL..had KFC n head off to mediacorp! LOL...went for campus superstar final...LOL...plain boring! cz i didnt catch any...but ya..jz went there for the atmosphere! LOL..=x jz c how it is like...n ya..the place is SMALL!...different from wad is seen on tv lo! haha..=x mi noob leh~ =x n the screaming n everything is so loud can! LOL...ear can go burst! lol....but i was at the upper lvl...cannot c one..haha...so ya! lucky not so loud..if downstair ear = KO more! LOL...haha...BUT! later the sun yan zi fans came upstair...WAH...noisy like siao! the wishtle blow n so on..wahlan! KO lo...so noisy...i wonder hor...how did the person blowing the wishtle tahan lo! LOL...siao one..=x they got super ear! LOL..=x haha..den later went back to toapayoh hub! n took a cab home..since last bus left le...last train also unable to catch..cz from red line change to green line..by the time green line last train also is left le...LOL..=x haha...so i took a cab home..lol...=x

nth much of a day...LOL...i love my dear..=x

busy for the nx few days...XD

wenbin super oink la! LOL...BLEAH...oinkster~

mango KO-ed
2:10am

2007-08-25T03:40:00.000+08:00

24 Aug 2007

going to blog on wad has happen...don wanna read..scroll down!!! LOL =x

ok..friday was a great; so-so day for mi? LOL! woke up early..cz i slp early on thursday nite as i was TOO tired! lol..so i woke up at like ermm 8 plus? LOL...slack ard compile some campcraft notes! LOL..n off to trianing~~ i forget to eat my lunch..LOL..=x went unit earlier to print test paper..ermmm..toked to mr ong n so on...LOL...n end up only 2 came to take the test...=.= WTH la..expect mi to alway conduct test for them? FAT HOPE! LOL... but ok la..expected only 3 to 4 to turn up too! LOL..=x issue-ing ranks n badges soon..hehe! training taught campcarft...WAH.. act zai act zai! actually is buay zai le! LOL..=x tired..cz woke up so early can! LOL..=x n so on n on~~

when home after training to take a quick shower...n den ate cup noodle...Y? cz going BBQ later at sp! but i go BBQ = i don eat one...cz is too unhealthy! LOL..=x plus..dunno..troublesome bah..LOL! mz i go into detail of the BBQ? lo...feeling sorta sian so i spam SMS! LOL...n sms n sms n sms! lol...ok..but nvm~~ wadever! LOL..=x went to BBQ the food..LOL..ermm...n ya got fire! LOL..=x ya..when mi n chelle reach the club room is like 8? went in awhile den chelle wanna go take a shower so i accompanied her! LOL...den went walk ard to c if there is any place tat we can BBQ? LOL! n eventually we went back to club hus..n they were playing cards while waiting for mr wenbin to come...so jz waiting for wenbin to come n start organising den going to start fire? LOL..chelle was mood swing bah..n told them off...wrong tone wrong tone! LOL..but ya...they den went to walk ard n ya..moberly BBQ PIT! lol...came back bring down the food n stuff..YA! n started to start fire! xavier n ermm.hong kuan? correct? haha..=x ya..thx to them the fire has started...but den..we realise there was no butter! LOL..GREAT~~ shiyong went home to get it..LOL...XD n ya..while the fire is burning we waited n waited...till wenbin came n no food is BBQ yet...time as ard 930 alrdy! LOL...as we decided to BBQ those tat don need butter one! the sotongs n stingry..n shiyong came back! LOL! ya~~~ so we happily enjoying ourself BBQ-ing toking..crapping... lame-ing.. LOL! so on n on..we suppose to leave by 11? but in the end at ard 12plus..hmmm...i think..if the light did not go off at 12! we might stay even longer! LOL..half way BBQ-ing the last batch of food..POOF..the light went off! GREAT..it was damn bloody dark can! so~~~ we use HP-tourchlight! LOL...n clear up...clean up the mess n so on wif the limited amouth of light we have! LOL..head back to clubhus to put stuff..n off to home! LOL..

more or less tat is wadever happen-ed...damn wordly la..so don bother to read...is v dry! LOL...

as an instructor i failed...as an older sister i failed...
BUT
life still goes on..blah blah blah...face it wif a smile...=)

Mango think too much!
3:56AM

2007-08-24T08:48:00.000+08:00

yay~~~ exams r over!!! which mean play time!! haha..=x falling in love wif donuts! lol..=x taste nice ma! haha..=x

yesterday was last paper! econs...n it sux! LOL..=x i dunno i studied one no come out? i didnt study much de came out! LOL...sad lo...den haiz...anyhow do...i think those i written on the paper is jz enough to pass mi...IF IF IF...it is correct! WAHAHAHA...which mean...should noe how i fair for the paper le bah..! i could jz hand in an almost blank paper...wif graphs only! LOL..=x cz i forget how to explain! LOL...n hopefully the graph i draw is correct? LOL..i dunno..anyhow bang lo! LOL..=x

ok...wadever..is over i don care! LOL..the most re-test lo! LOL!!! =x after tat..went to PS n ate lunch..n slack ard in ps from..ermmm maybe ard 1plus till 5! lol...doing nth but slacking in KFC! haha...i went to find ping! LOL...i realise she was at ps ya~~ so i went to look for her...accompany-ed her for her break~~ LOL...as usual tok tok tok..n she still love to look at ppl..=x she didnt change much probably..i change more! LOL..=x

after tat i went back to chinese garden to meet U! n u made mi waited for like nearly 20min! LOL...cz i was 15min earlier! but nvm~~~ didnt wanna distrub u..i is v gd one...so i waited PATIENTLY for u! lol...honour anot..=x haha!!
DONUTS UP!

lol..=x i was super tired yesterday...i reach home at ard 7plus! lol...watch tv n slack...chat online n so on..but the zZz monster was damn powderfool! LOL....n i fall aslp on my sofa while watching the 9 o'clock show..this can prove how tired i was...=x den i wake up at ard 1020! LOL...i wanted to stay online but decided to shut down n off to bed! LOL...damn tired! lol..=x

exam r over...looking forward to meet ya! 2mths of darkness..will light be seen now? haha...we hope so..rite? =x i was damn busy wif npcc n studies..i barely have time for ya....thx for all the understanding n patient u gave mi...=) u still the best..arent u? haha! still the only one..OF CZ! =x smile smile..=)

training in the afternoon..BBQ at the nite! lol..home late again le bah! going to be damn tired man! LOL...tml will be campus super star!!! LOL~~~ fun...joy laughter...i am enjoying wif no stresss! other den npcc la...haha..but i am still enjoying~~~

maybe is time to go for a hair cut! a change in hair style~~~~ LOL...i alway say this line..but is NATO(no action talk only)!!! LOL...=x BLEAH...=x

so yesh...i am putting on damn weight..tat make mi look so fat la! damn it! is time to lose some weight now! haha...=x hopefully~~ later too fat nobody wans mi anymore~~~ sad! =x haha...

mango off to makan!! =x
9:02am

2007-08-22T00:35:00.000+08:00

mango is here once again! LOL...hmmm...toking to ping now! LOL...n she was telling mi how this guy stay so faithful to the ger..although no contact liao! LOL..super envy sia...
tat time they broke off..n tat guy bought 99 chocolate flower for her...n ask to patch in public! LOL..wahlan...if a guy do tat to mi...i sure melt over him! but too bad! i am attached! LOL...
den he also once design a jewellery n ask ppl make for him!!! wah..real de leh...tat ger mz be damn lucky lo! haha...but they still no happy ending la...but i dunno them also..so ya...nvm! but envy lo...i wonder...will any guy do tat to mi! LOL...i is wan fireworks!

i don need any guy to do tat to mi...i jz need u...
capture my heart once more.. will u?
touch it..hold it..keep it...
let mi melt over u once more! =x

getting mushy...LOL!
later someone wanna to laugh again liao! LOL...

i apperciate everyone ard mi...=) the things they done for mi...
will anyone appericate mi den? LOL!

mango changing skin! LOL..x=
12:45AM

2007-08-21T00:17:00.000+08:00

i was TAGGED by AISHAH.Rules of the game: each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. people who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. at the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names. no tagbacks! :D

'LUCKY' six :1) Eleanor 2) Junxian 3) May 4) Wen 5) Lai teng 6) Mich ang

taken from elaine's blog! got shot for tagging in her blog! LOL...

10 weird stuff! ermmm...i try to find!

Scare of furry animal!
Hobby -> scolding ppl (given by my cadets =.=)
Putting on make-ups when i am sad!
Sms addicted!! LOL..
Love to stone when bored (jz stare blankly into the space) =x
My handphone stays wif mi 24/7 unless i seriously wana be alone!
Get hyper alone when ppl ard mi r too quiet! (provided tat i am not tired!!)
Hate Mind-Guessing Game (got thing jz say la!)
Being Selective
Love to leave ABIT of food on my plate after meals! (bad habit)

weird enough? LOL...i think i am still quite normal! LOL...i shall break the chian! =x

Elaine..Cheer up ya..=)

Hungry Mango

12:3AM

2007-08-18T20:48:00.000+08:00

searching for air!
wo zuo bu dao! ni cheng gong le!
bu xiang xiang..ke shi you hui pao dao wo nao li!
thiam thiam thiam!

xin yang yang!!!
i wan fireworks!!!!

zai jian le!!! =(
8:56pm

2007-08-18T01:46:00.000+08:00

got no mood to slp tonite again....haiz...later when wake up..really have to study n mug for econs! have been slacking for the past few days...haizz...zai wo sheng bian de wang wang bu shi ni...
you ni de ri zi zhen de hao kuai le...

for every every things..thx alot...probably..i noe i think too much...being over sensitive...=)

gone wif the wind!!! ~~~poof~~~
3:53am

could not really slp well for last nite...went to bed at ard 1 plus...woke up at 4 plus 5!! n stay awake till 7plus 8 b4 i fall back to lala land...nv noe i could remember those incident so clearly...every single thing! it jz play back thr my mind...everything seem to be so real...=( everything! haiz...

went to watch firework!!! yes...it was super nice!!!! the fireworks filled the whole sky...seriously..is damn nice n cool a fireworks for nearly 15min i suppose? haha...NICE NICE NICE!!! =x is really wow! i can said is better den any of the national day fireworks!!! haha...damn cool..damn nice...XD went for dinner n movie later on...n home at ard 1 plus plus..still quite early bah!! i feel like staying out for one whole nite n return home in the day! jz feel like having some nitelife...don really have to be nitelife...but jz stay out for the nite!! hehe..XD

somehow...sth is missing...
2:24am

2007-08-16T23:29:00.000+08:00

hurts when i step back into my past...all the mistake n event tat happen...almost un-bare-able...=( is in the past...how i wish i could re-write everything..i will earse everything...mistake learnt but price for it is haiz...=( y mz i step back into it all over again... sometime it jz simply hurts...but my tears were dry...but those scar..is simply jz too deep to heal...=( ouch! ouch! OUCH!!
no one understand abt it either.... it has been a real long time since i last brought all this issue up...probably a yr ago...but now...maybe i should not mention abt it...should not think abt it...should jz leave it...
hao tong...hao tong...ha tong..='(

11:42pm

2007-08-16T21:19:00.000+08:00

pictures...=D

2007-08-15T23:29:00.000+08:00

hmmm...boring day..boring life!!! i wanna try something new n exciting...life is getting boring nowadays...=( studying studying n more studying...haiz... wad is the objective n aims in my life... i dunno either...wad i want for myself...i dunno also!! haha..so wad do i noe den? i dunno!!! LOL...=x stay at home...bored...go out..dunno go where..do wad...for wad also...n transport fee is damn bloody ex can...=( everyday time jz fly pass mi...wad i do..jz plain slping eating n studying..=.= haizz..playing com? not really tat much...i think i slp more!! LOL...i dunno..jz feel like slping n more slping...haha..pig rite...but i dunno also...ohya~~~ i day dream too!!! haha..=x jz feel so restless... feeling damn no life la!! haizz....thiam thiam thiam aHHHH!!!

i wan surprises!!! LOL..=x

my exams end on the 23th...hehe...n mean playing after tat~~~ YAY!!!
24th -- training n spnpcc
25th evening -- npcc
26th -- SLACK!!!
27th n 28th -- busy
29th -- personal development class

mango mood swing today!!
no life...no life!!! =(
11:40pm

2007-08-14T16:26:00.000+08:00

yay~~~don think can study le la...oink oink!!! =x hehe.. i went out jz now...XD should slp early tonite...

tonite the star was great!! looking into the sky...wif u beside mi...those feeling...=D words cant be used to describe!! =x haha...i only have one thing to tell u...我爱你！！！你是我心里的唯一。。。 =）understand ma? haha!! =x
trying hard to hold on...not going think of giving u up so easily anymore...go thr the road ahead of us together no matter how tough the road is...JIAYOU!! =)
all i can say is... i love u...XD

happy mango..=x
1:18am

=) haha...i wanna start studying today!!! haha...=x econs~~~ yesh...i will study for it ok...i MZ!!! hehe...today i slp till damn shuang...wake up 330 le~~~haha..=x so didnt study...but i going to garther all my econs stuff...put nice nice pile together...den can get ready to study tonite...hehe.. ok...=)

reflect on quite some stuff...i realise the problem lies wif mi...is my fault...i will change....looking thr the things u gave mi...our memories...everything n everything..maybe i didnt treasure u enough..i took u for granted...i am sry....i will change...i will spend more time wif u...i realised how much u gave up for mi...but i didnt..all i did was to take all those for granted...=( give mi a chance to make it up to u...=)

wenbin ge ge~~~ haha!!! xie xie ni...=) i said alot of xie xie n thx to u le rite..=x haha!!! cz i really am....=D

mango wondering...where to go later...XD
4:35pm

2007-08-12T18:31:00.000+08:00

this few days life super thiam...haha! accounting is killing mi...i dunno wad the hell i am doing...=x i feel tat...i go into the wrong course...haha..=x struggling like mad...ok la...maybe i didnt put in enough effort bah....but i will le ok..XD mango will buck up...n do her best liao...no longer slack...XD mz do it ok...ppl mz support mi! haha..=x NPCC...studies n U...mz cope well well..i don wanna give up on any...=x n of cz...my friends...hehe...CIBTC friends...CI friends...DBA03....n many many more...XD haha...

hmmm....dunno..maybe cz yesterday the phone conversation bah....let mi think thr quite some stuff...maybe the problem really lies wif mi....haha....maybe bah..mz go do some reflection! haha...

千言万语说不light...haha! thx alot anw..=) don alight from the bus worz...=x hehe...
don 看down on urself too...i wanna type in chi de la..but my chi is cannot make it also le..haha! 我很庆幸我认是了你。。。=）

jiayou..GOＧＯ！！！
7:07pm

2007-08-11T00:34:00.000+08:00

10 aug 07
blog blog blog~~~~ haha....but blog semor? basically...when i woke up today...is alrdy ermmm...2 plus? haha...slack ard eat den saw hp..jb missed call mi...so i called jianboon sir back...for wad? i forget le...LOL...ok..den later slack ard again..den i saw my hp got missed call again...LOL..so i called back...n started toking wif U~~~ for i dunno how long b4 going online..haha...the video...wahahahaha~~~ no image le worzzz...=x haha...den chat slack ard..by the time i go for dinner is alrdy like ermmm645? haha..aiya dunno doing wad...but later time jz fly pass so fast...i behaving like exam have ended? LOL...but in fact exam is like in two day time? haha...feel so slack la...i don feel like study..nth seem to go in..x= but ok...maybe i understanded one part alrdy..the unearn n stuff...i got the whole Q wrong for my CA2...haha..=x i THINK i understand..=x ok..later go n try..=x haha..

ok..i seriously need a printer...i have a printer but needa go fix it...but lazy la...MAYBE during holiday i will go fix it..haha...printer is so imp can..=x haha..ok...ya...ok..i dunno..thiam thiam thiam...LOL..=x

i wanna study study study..but i jz cant cant cant....haha..=x

ok..CL super naggy la..=.= don nag like old ah gong leh..u old enough liao..wahahahaha...=x lalala...=x

wenbin..super attitude today la....seriously ar...for the first time i feel super dulan wif u lo...sry lo..but u really v guo fen when u did tat la....but nvm...i shall put it behind mi..but i wont forget...=(

don link mi wif other ppl can...
don keep saying every guy i toked to is interested in mi can...
not funny leh..

my life is damn thiam liao la...probably no one appreciate the things i did...complains complains n more complains...
so when care for ppl mz be said? when do things for them mz be said? everything mz be said?
arent actions speaks louder den word?
ok..maybe i don show tat i appreciate wadever ppl had done for mi...i don show..does not mean i dunno....does not mean i don care...
is jz tat...i noe yet i jz don wanna show out for some reasons tat cant be said...

i am trying to help u..but u nv seem to noe...

i don wanna give hopes when i noe there wont be an outcome...

sry...i noe...i am trying...i wont give up...i will try my v best...
MANGO DON GIVE UP...DON DON DON GIVE UP...JIAYOU...XD

mango off...
12:54am

i once said before tat not many ppl can make mi feel happy…not many ppl could affect my mood till the extreme too… but somehow…u became one of the person… hu can affect my mood…but don misunderstand… is jz maybe cz u meant sth to mi le… not those type…but probably a person I would turn to if I needa help…a person I would share my troubles n problems with…a person I could trust… maybe jz became dependence on u le bah… but jz someone more den friend…but definitely not a bf…

my smile… is to make sure other ppl smiles stays…I smile for other…when other smile n happy… I be happy too…I will be happy for the sake of other ppl…I wont pull a long face…cz if I do tat… it will affect other ppl too…I smile…but am I really happy? yes I will as long as I noe they r happy…=)

leave mi alone...i wanna disappear alrdy...XD studies studies studies...

2007-08-10T03:55:00.000+08:00

blogging in early morning...haha! =x

9 aug...i didnt do much bah..haha..=x slack ard...i wanted to study..but in the end...i did not..haha...ok...mz study today le...die die also mz chiong accounts...if not...haiz.thiam thiam....ok...now i blog for only one reason...haha...XD only the person will noe the...LOL.. BLEAH...ok...main point...=x

wu la la..wu la la...wu la la..if only i have one hundred thousand dollar...LOL...correct?
if only i have one hundred thousand dollar...one hundred dollar...if no one noe...i will wish sibling gd forture...treat pa for a plane ride...if i have one hundred dollar...i wanna go take plane...go ard the world...go sun tan..go japan eat sushi...buy hus..don need to work...don need so welcome...
LOL...ok v lame...this is all the thing i can catch...haha..=x other is blur blur liao...too noob le..haha..XD not easy to catch all this also leh..haha..XD

smile smile more more ok...LOL...don alway so sad la...haha...XD
smile smile smile...XD

mango wu liao, off to bed...=x
4:04am

2007-08-08T22:44:00.000+08:00

come out with ur own style of teaching... get the facts right before start to teach... ensure the cadets learn what they should, rather in doubts.
maybe being an instructor is not my type...putting in effort,time n so on..trying to be a gd one...but am i able to do so? it actually took mi so long to realise...

today...a super super super tired day for mi...LOL..cz yesterday slp so 'early' could not wake up at 6...n woke up at 7 instead...chiong to unit lo...siao...haha..=x i is KO lo....den rush unit...den i changed to full uni...ermmm...super fast...LOL...i think the last time i changed so fast was like during CIBTC? haha..=x v tired...LOL...den i tok to the cadets...i split myself into 3? LOL...no la...mz settle one squad by one...LOL...sec 1, 2 and 3...LOL....zzz leh..i one person 3 squad...can die...lucky is not v big..but haizz...=( unit population is so so so...haizzz..=(

i realise..so many upcoming event again...WAHHH..KO LA~~~~ i is wanna die liao...haha... courses n more courses...promotions..n more promotion...campcraft test...drill test...CPL promotion...LOL...KO la..holiday chiong le lo....haizzz...ohya..update cadets name list to HQ..haizzz... is so cock up can...=( AHHHHH~~~ LOL...but somehow...whenever i am in training...when i see my cadets...somehow...i will be motivated to do it for them..for their sake...haha..i thiam my life for them...hahahaha..=x

they alway pester for ranks n badges...haha..but in fact..last time i used to do it too..haha..XD but my CI told mi sth...and today i said it to my cadets...haha...=x 'so wad if i give u the rank...so wad if u all have the rank..so wad if u put on the rank...so wad..so wad...haha...we can issue but r u all up to standard to wear it...'XD LOL...i find it true la...haha..yup yup..cut story short..=x stayed in sch till like 1030 today can? tok crap wif my cadets..XD or rather NCOs...XD

n today..they said i v different...during camp...when having training n today...LOL...XD ok la..i admit during camp i v fierce...but is not my choice...i shouted constantly..LOL...ya...till no voice la..=.= LOL..XD but well..is not my intention..ya..XD haha...yup ypu...cut story short again..=x haha..=x

den i went sp at ard 1255? LOL...tired...i forget abt my collar label...LOL..so didnt wear uni to take part...in fact..i was feeling v slack...n ya...but really lo...unit base no collar label..still ok...i told my cadets too...bo bian leh..=x they spotted...mz admit b4 they shoot mi...LOLLL..=x n ya...but for tat...may not seem imp..but well...it wont show well of CI image bah...so i didnt wanna wear either...XD...haha..=x
slack ard in spnpcc clubhus...LOL...played UNO? LOL....super high...laugh like mad...laugh like nobody business..haha...wenbin = joker sia...LOL....damn fun...haha...haven laugh till so happy for some time le bah...haha...

but i get depress after tat...not depress la..i dunno..i v tired...KO le..super tired..haha..plus he no msg...=( i dunno...last nite he didnt sound happy...haizz..thiam thiam...but in the end..yes he did reply..but somehow...i cant feel it...i dunno..too tired? maybe lo...

left clubhus at like 730? den went fc5..ok la..walk past fc5...den i went buy waffle.. den i shouted at wenbin....sry..=( should not use u to fa biao...but u come make mi at the wrong time...=( sry...bu shi you yi de...

den went station..wanted to go JE eat..but later get on train..den like v late..den like dunno wad to eat...v sian n stuff...so end up mi n chelle drop at clementi...den they went home..we went to my hus hawker center to eat...wahaahaha..=x nice food...XD but i was too tired to eat...n sian...
eat n tok at the same time..toked abt ATC...LOL..i think i v long no had a gd chat wif u le hor...haha..=x not only to chelle bah...to him also bah...when was the last time we actually chat happily...=( don wanna think too much either...

after eating is home...blogging..haha...today one super long worzz...XD but nvm..those hu bother to read..read..those hu do not bother to read..also nvm...LOL...i jz wanna blog blog blog..today took some pic...not alot bah...maybe post up some other time..XD haha...

mango feeling v tired...LOL...fighting wif zzz monster...but zzz monster v powderful...XD gonna give up soon..=x
hmmm...should i go tml? i still cant cfm....50 50 bah...XD

Wenbin...really dui bu qi...=(

mango feeling scare-ed...i jz wanna be a normal ger...being pampered n shower-ed wif care n concern...i don wanna be tough n strong...
11:09pm

i love him...i really do...true love wont be given up? i really hope so too...

2007-08-07T22:47:00.000+08:00

=) LOL...CL lighten my nite today...LOLLLL~~~ fun hor....ok...i shall not share TAT wif other ppl...but i tell u...is super funny la....LOL~~~~~ BLEAH...

today went sch i met guohui at the station...LOL...he is going home...n i am jz reaching sch...LOL..=x went to sch for test...ITAB..ok ok la..not too bad...do till damn sian...haha...XD den went clementi to eat...LOL....the chicken look very small...LOL..but in the end...eat till damn full...chicken was so-so...LOL..not as nice as wad ppl said....haha..but the fries is super nice...XD haha...cost like $7...XD haha...den i went to met CL~~~~ LOL....

he waited at the station for mi...LOL..XD den we went to bugis...XD walk n walk n walk...n u noe wad...CL dunno bugis street got upstairs one...LOL....super toot lo...LOL~~~~~ =x walk ard...i super thirsty...n he ill-treat mi...cz he no give mi water to drink...LOL...=x brought some stuff...n went to drink sweet talk..XD LOL...it taste like medicine...LOL...n ate four leave bread..XD haha...

i don feel like going home today...cz got ppl at my hus...n they playing mahjong...so simple sian... haha..so i rather stay outside...wait for them go home..den i come home...haha...XD CL accompany-ed mi today...XD haha...we left bugis at ard 10 bah...haha....chased after the bus..LOL..thx to him...LOL...n he sent mi home...n den walk home...XD haha...

CL super shan gui..=x LOL...nx time date u out more often la..haha...let u try more new new things...haha..XD ah bo..u is v noob leh...LOL~~~~ BLEAH...like tat how to find gf lo..wahahahaha..=x tat is if i have to time to do so..LOL..u noe...XD =x BLEAH...

once i reach home..kena msn virus...like cock lo..=( sianed...XD

but...=) got wenbin to help mi...LOL..XD n now...problem is fixed...XD haha....YAY~~~~ haha..=x wenbin korkor..XIE XIE NI~~~~ haha..he helped mi wif npcc stuff as well as IT stuff...haha..=x saluteS for him...XD haha...

today time pass v fast..XD

yes~~~ my nite is brighten up by wenbin too~~~ XD xie xie alot...
really dunno how to tell u..i is really v v gan xie ni....XD haha...

mango off...
1:21am

2007-08-06T16:39:00.000+08:00

zi lian time...XD LOL...

nth to blog today...XD going to study for ITAB tonite le bah....XD

don say u like mi..when u don understand mi...
don say u like mi..even if u like mi...cz there is nth i can do...
even if u like mi...don tell mi..cz i wont wan to noe...
once u said..it be the end...i will disappear...
give mi up is the only thing i would say...

i do things wif a reason...but some reason arent meant to be said...
i wont say anything...

my heart is filled wif someone...

i love my dear....he is my everything...XD
mango off
4:55pm

2007-08-05T19:03:00.000+08:00

不知何时没有我的允许，你就擅自闯进我的心。。。然后动摇了我，把深藏在心底的我，给唤醒了。。。像是心脏出了问题一样。。。想要更了解你，见不到就会想你。。。因为你，还会自己傻笑，就像个傻瓜一样。。。
i ❤ u...XD

mango will be content wif wad she have...she be happy..she will not block u out anymore...XD she will change for u...n for herself....she will give u space...to help her and to guild her....she will treasure u....every moment n min she have wif u...
10:02pm

finally...i cried....crying myself to bed once again...is better den holding my tears back...n i cant do anything...but so wad if cry le..nth is done too...but it jz make mi feel better...haha...den y i cry? i dunno also...LOL...mango = crazy...maybe bah...XD

if i disappear too...wad will happen....LOL..probably thinking too much...cz i don have the determination to do so...LOL...sometime i wonder...how much do i actually mean to others..where am i..wad position do i have...probably nth to anyone bah...LOL

nobody to anyone...
am i somebody to someone?
LOL...

7:06pm

2007-08-04T23:53:00.000+08:00

haizzz...today boring day...i don feel like studying at all..i jz wanna slack slack slack my time away...don ask mi y...but i jz got no mood to do anything beside..playing slacking n enjoying...LOL...

today i woke up..chat on phone..sms..my bill gonna bao if this carries on...=( mother going to kp le...LOL...=x ok...den i woke up..i slack ard...use com n so on...i was late...should be meet 330 at suntec..but i left my hus at like...ermmm 340? LOL....but nvm...manage to reach suntec at ard 4...XD haha...den i met wenbin...to pass him 4 NDP ticket...LOL...n myself...i went for the NDP wif my unit instuctors n joyclyn maam...LOL...i got 4 tickets..but i gave all the wenbin...n how did i go for NDP den? LOL..joyclyn maam lo...LOL...den in the end..jeremy went too...n we have 2 spare ticket un-used..LOL..but sadly...today's no firework...no goodie bag de...=( LOL....jz went to c parade n the stuns...LOL...nth interesting to mi alrdy...cz i have seen it....after the parade we stayed awhile n left le...we didnt wait for the whole performance to end..cz is like ermm..so boring..LOL..=xwe went jz to c the parade bah...XD

den wanted to eat pepper lunch..but i don feel like eating tat..chelle don either...so we end up eating at food republic...LOL....den we went bubble tea...quite nice...not bad..XD LOL...went home after tat...squeeze into the car...LOL....XD

wanted to go look for wenbin...but i dunno look for him for wad..go where do wad...so nvm le lo...LOL..=x i went home n start rotting...

=( he called mi...he said he be free tml..but sadly...he is not..haizzzz...=(
sometime i jz feel tat fate is playing a trick on us...Y Y Y..=( but wad can i do...nth too...sad-ed... y cant we jz have time for each other...spend time together...=( i dunno...time is running short too...feeling sad...=( i hate all this....but i love him...
when he is free..i am not...when i have time...he is not free...life is jz simply so sucky...=(
i don wan him to leave but he have to....i hate it..i hate it..i SERIOUSLY HATE IT...=(

my heart hurts...but i jz simply love him...probably back to square one once again...gonna be strong...gonna be tough...but i jz wanna be a simple ger...wif u by my side...i don wanna be there tough...i jz wanna be a normal ger....i am tired...i am scare...i am afriad...i don have the energy to do so anymore...=( i scare i will let go of u...i am scare of leaving u..i am scare of many many things..tell mi...how..wad am i suppose to do...=( haizz...will u be able to give mi the assure once again?

mango thiam...
12:13am